Hey guys.

I'm really scared.

So throughout my life, I have had angry tendencies and a very disturbing lack of guilt. I have gone through random weight gains. I keep seeing people moving in the corner of my eye, hearing voices in my head.

I know they aren't real, but I can't use that as my excuse when I shriek in the middle of class because I though a shadow creature was going to kill me!

Truth is, I think I have schizophrenia. My friends and I have researched this horrible mental illness, and I suffer all the symptoms.

Do you know how frustrating it is to sleep counting the people on the walls instead of sheep?

All of you sane people part of insane fandoms... You're so lucky. This isn't cool, though. Insanity is horrible.

You know how tempted I am to kill my family? My teachers? I wouldn't even care, either, unless the dead body made a noise I didn't like.

My emotions are also out of whack. I can only truly feel sadness and anger.

Depression is a side effect of schizophrenia.

There's nothing you can do to help...

But I am so goddamn scared.