7/06/19

      Its amazing how one can be happy and sad at the same time ,and right now I'm in that position.
I'm happy that I can see you and
I'm sad knowing I can't ever touch you.

I know you've already moved on and you've already forgotten my existence.
Time changes everything ,it changes the way one lives,one behaves and one's feeling ,and in my case everything has changed.
Time made my existence unknown,
my suffering,my pain ,my guilt,my regret unknown and I hate time for it .

I wish someone could hear me out ,someone could hear my cries ,but everything I do goes into nothingness .My existence is for me to know alone.

It pains  on how everyone I knew and love can't see me for who I  was .It pains knowing that from all the people ,you couldn't even remember me .

Was I really not a good person?
Did I do wrong while trying to find my own happiness?
I need to find the truth .
The truth behind my existence here ,right now.

Why couldn't I leave even when I had found my happiness?

Just why?

So many questions lingers in my mind so many answers that I want.But from whom?

I don't know how
so I'll just watch and let my heart silently beat for you........