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3AM and Jason blew out the smoke toxins into the cool air of the night. The 7th lit cigarette between his fingers as he's sat in the same spot for an hour and half now, contemplating. Contemplating a decision of the near future.

"He's too young, it's making me look bad," He thought.

He heard a chesty cough from inside and looked through the glass door. The young boy was tossing around in the sheets.

He sighed. He'll start it tomorrow.

Take one last puff, he blew it out and put out the smoke. Feeling some sort of stree fade from those 7 sticks of Cancer.

He walked inside and walked over to the king sized bed and got in, immediately getting snuggled on.

"Where were you?" The boy whispered.

"Just having a smoking babe," Jason replied wrapping his arm around the smaller boy.

"Okay, are you alright?" He asked in concern.

"Yes, damn, I'm alright, go to sleep Justin," Jason snapped making the boy flinch.

"I...I'm s-sorry," Justin stuttered, he slightly let go of him and moved back onto his side.

There was silence and Justin's sniffles.

Jason inwardly sighed and lifted his body up.

"Justin, come here, I'm sorry I snapped," He apologised.

The younger boy shook his head. "No, it's okay J-Jason, I was being clingy again," He whispered quietly.

That made Jason frown. He always finds a way to make him sad.

"No, no baby, you weren't," Jason said.

"Well..I'm sorry anyways," Justin said and brought the blanket up under his chin.

Jason knew this was pointless. Both of them being stubborn.

He sighed once again and laid down on his back. Looking up at the ceiling in the dark.

Closing his eyes, he fell into a restless sleep.

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Justin woke up the next morning and smiled at his sleeping boyfriend clutching onto the pillow. He leaned down, placing a soft kiss on his cheek before getting up and using the bathroom.

Once he was done, he grabbed a jacket, putting it on and went downstairs.

He was met with the smell of bacon and maple syrup and a chorus of 'Morning, Justin's'.

"Morning guys," He giggled, waving. He was low-key very feminine.

Sitting down at the table, Alex had placed a plate of food in front of him.

"Thank you," He said smiling. Alex nodded.

Meanwhile, Jason woke up not feeling the warmth of Justin beside him.

He got up and went to the bathroom. Deciding to go downstairs as he heard chatters and laughs.

He was met with the most of the gang and Justin in the dining room, eating.

Some of the gang members, noticed him and nodded their heads. Some saying good morning to him. This brought Justin's attention to him.

"Jasey," Justin smiled.

Jason nodded his head once before sitting down not giving Justin a second glance.

Justin frowned. What did he do?

The gang members noticing something too. Usually Jason would place kisses everywhere on Justin's face in the morning and his while attention was on him.

They shook their heads.

"Did you sleep well?" Justin asked after eating a piece of bacon.

Jason nodded once again making Justin frown.

"Can we watch the new movie that's out after this?" Justin asked happily.

"No, Justin, I'm busy," Jason said monotone.

"B-but it's Sunday, no one works on Sundays," Justin said. Really no one does anything on Sunday's except relax and chill all day.

"Well, things change Justin. Now why don't you watch the movie yourself, since you have nothing better to do than ask me irrevelent questions," Jason quipped.

Everyone's jaws dropped. In no way would he say such things to Justin like that in any manner.

Justin flinched at his tone. "I..okay," He said bowing his head.

He got up quickly and placed his plate in the sink before scrabbling out, a loud sob escaping his lips.

"What the fuck, was that Jason?" Alex, his older brother asked.

"I don't know what the hell you're talking about," Jason simply said after eating the piece of pancake.

Alex shook his head disappointed. What about the promises Jason made Justin?

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From that morning, everything had changed.

Jason had been going out more often. Never having time for Justin.

Sometimes doesn't even spare a glance at him.

The whole house saw this and watch Justin fall down in a downward spiral.

His energetic and happy, caring self was hardly present anymore. Only getting one to three word replies, nods, shakes or a small smile. It's was like he was slowly deteriorating from the inside. So emotionless, you could say.

He goes to school then comes home and just watches tv. There's no use to even approach Jason. He'll only be turned down.

Meanwhile, Jason has been harder on the gang. He makes himself busy to avoid Justin or just blankly steers clear of him.

Sympathetic faces were shown to Justin as Jason yet again dismissed his approach.

Justin shook his head and went upstairs, climbing into the bed.

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"Justin, just leave the fuck alone, can you see I want to break up?!" Jason yelled angrily making Justin jumped.

"B-break up?" He stuttered, tears in his eyes.

This can't be true. Jason was silent.

His plan didn't work so he had enough and just ended it.

"Yes, I don't need you, now fuck off !" Jason said.

"J-jasey," Justin whispered.

"My names Jason, not Jasey, get out," He seethed.

Tears raced down Justin's face as he ran to the bedroom.

He grabbed two duffle bags and grabbed everything he owned and brought himself.

Leaving everything Jason brought him.

It was clear now. Jason didn't want him.

He sprinted down the stairs and outside to his car.

Starting the engine and revved it and back out of the driveway. Zooming down the road, never once looking back.

Hoping for it to all disappear.

The whole house had watched the scene in shock, so shocked no one could move.

The couple of 3 1/2 years have broken up.

Little did Justin know, Jason was drunk but you know what they say.. A drunk man tells the truth.

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It's been 3 months and Jason is a mess.

After finding out they broke up, on his own behalf, he was okay with it. A little heartbroken, no lie.

But it was for the best.

Well that's what Jason thought.

He finds himself, looking for Justin in the house or waking in the middle of the night looking for Justin's warmth and cuddles.

He was totally wrong. It wasn't for the best.

He needed Justin.

Alex and Justin's brother have not let Jason see Justin.

The young boy was too heartbroken. Having his first love break up with him.

Justin has become quiet and very reserved. He focuses everything on his school work and music.

The music helps him block out everything -or anyone- that stresses him.

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"Jason? What are you doing here?" The stormy blued man asked at the door.

"Uhh.. I came to see how he is.." Jason croaked.

It was almost midnight and Jason couldn't take it anymore.

He couldn't go through another night alone.

Yet, he was the one who wanted this...

"Jason, you realise it's almost midnight, you should be at home," The taller man said.

"Yes I bloody know and don't tell me where I should be, I'm your boss," He hissed.

"Not when this includes your health and safety and my fucking brothers heart!" The man snapped.

Jason stepped back. He's never had a gang member yell back at him and put him in place.

"Please, just go home, Justin's focused on his schooling right now and he doesn't need any distractions," He said.

Jason shook his head. "No! Please, I just need to see him," He begged.

"Jason, Justin is studying for a big test tomorrow," The man sighed. Jason was not giving up.

Jason was about to answer but was cut off.

"Derek! Derek! I finished it!" A loud happy voice sound throughout the house.

"Finished what Jay?" The man at the door asked.

"The song!" Justin smiled.

"That's great!" Derek said smiling at his younger brother.

Justin's eyes trailed and spotted Jason.

"J-Jason," He said quietly.

"Justin," Jason breathed.

"Hi, Jason," Justin said, waving a little.

"H-how are you?" Jason whispered.

"I'm okay, you?" Justin answered standing next to his older brother.

"Quite the opposite actually," Jason said.

"You got half an hour," Derek said before walking off.

Jason nodded his head rapidly, thanking him.

"Don't do anything to him. You may be my best friend but he's my little brother. I won't think twice if you do anything to him," Derek said protectively, before he turned the corner.

Jason nodded again. "I won't," He promised.

Justin lead Jason into his room.

"I miss you," Jason said.

"I miss you too, Jason," Justin replied sitting on his bed.

"I'm so so sorry," Jason apologised.

"I..its okay, it's in the past," Justin said.

"Did hurt though," Justin continued, chuckling a bit.

"I know and I'm so sorry. I know it won't make sorry won't make it up," Jason said.

"It won't but I'm sure you could," Justi said quietly.

Jason's eyes widened.

"Really? You would get back with me?" He asked shocked.

Justin nodded.

"You are my first love after all," He said.

If you ask me, you will always have something with your first love, whether it's just a friendship or relationship.

He leaned foreword and hugged Jason.

"God, I missed your warmth," Jason said taking in the moment he's missed.

"Well that's your fault, isn't it?" Justin giggled.

"Yeah, a big mistake, I don't wanna make again," Jason said.

"So you're finally fulfilling your music career?" Jason asked smiling.

Justin nodded.

"Yeah, HSC makes you choose what you wanna be early," He said. (an: HSC stands for The Higher School Certificate)

"Ahh, HSC was a killer for me," Jason chuckled.

"Yeah even though I'm only doing HSC Trials right," Justin laughed. (an: HSC trials is basically tests you have to do to be able to do the HSC exams in Year 12)

"So let's hear it," Jason said.

"Hear what?"

"You ran down the stairs yelling you finished the song," Jason said reminding.

"Oh, yeah," Justin said embarrassed.

"You're the first one to hear it," Justin said.

"I'm honoured," Jason smiled.

He followed Justin to the piano room, Derek had installed.

Justin sat on the seat with Jason beside him.

"Okay here goes,"

'Where are you now when I need you the most?
Why don't you take my hand? I want to be close
Help me when I am down, lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong, help me to stay strong' He sung the first verse.

'So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah
Where are you now?' Justin sung the chorus.

'Where are you now now that I'm half grown?
Why are we far apart? I feel so alone
Where are you now when nothing's going right?
Where are you now? I can't see the light'

'So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah'

'I need you to need me
Can't you see me? How could you leave me?
My heart is half empty
I'm not whole when you're not with me
I want you here with me
To guide me, hold me, and love me now
Where are you now?
Oh, where are you now?'

'So take my hand and walk with me
Show me what to be
I need you to set me free, yeah
Oh, where are you now?'

'Yeah, yeah
Oh, oh
Yeah' He finished, his eyes closed.

"That was beautiful," Jason smiled teary eyed.

Justin sang with so much emotion.

"Thank you," Justin said.

"I love you," Jason whispered.

"I love you," Justin smiled leaning up placing a kiss on his cheek and wrapped his arms around him.

That night Jason didn't sleep alone.

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