Warning: Depression, Mentions of cutting, if you cant handle this or are triggered by it don't read.

I woke up and glanced at my phone. The date read August XX, 20XX.

Its my Birthday. GREEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAT. I haven't told anyone today's my birthday. Mainly because i'm not worth the effort and the fact that i'm just one year closer to my death bed.

I glance over to the boy's room's. Nether of their doors are open and i don't hear any footsteps. Nor do i hear any clattering in the kitchen. That's unusual since Sans is usually up at this time, cooking or something. Maybe he just allowed himself to be lazy today, considering it is Saturday. I need to head out otherwise imma just bring any happiness down with my mood.

I get dressed and write a note, explaining to them that ill be out for most of today. I leave the note on the couch where i sleep and head out the door dressed in a corral hoodie and some blue jeans. I go to my favorite place in the underground. Its a spot behind a waterfall where Undyne's cameras don't reach. The ceiling of this cave is covered in mock 'stars' and the ground has soft grass. A small patch of grass hides the one thing i brought down with me. a small pocket knife, the handle has the inscription 'Dont worry, Be happy' in neat cursive. I laugh as i remember the memorie behind this inscription.

Flash back~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Hey Sarah give that back!" My little sister cies out as i pull away from her. I'm teasing her with one of her stuffies.

"Nope sis. im afrid i cant do that." i respond with a giggle holding the suffie in front of her face.

"Come on, Sarah i wanna play with them." she says pointing to the stuffie.

"Fine, ill give it back" i hand her the stuffie. Watching her play happily.

I close my eyes and lean back on the wall.

I must have dozed off because i wake up with tears streaming down my face and my sister hugging and singing to me.

Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dream of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dream of
Dreams really do come true

Someday, I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can't I?

Well, I see trees of green and red roses too
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well, I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark
And I think to myself what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
And also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying
How do you do?
They're really saying I, I love you

I hear babies cry and I watch them grow
They'll learn much more then we'll know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
World

Someday I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Oh, somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dare to
Why oh, why can't I?

Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh

She smiles at me and says "don't worry Sarah, things will be ok. Just be happy ok?

I nod with tears crowding my eyes hugging her to me tightly.

Present~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

She died a little while after that. I had no one to care for and no one to care about, thats how i found this place. I wanted it to end.

I ended up meeting so many nice people here.But i need to escape for a bit. I make the first slit and watch as the blood runs down my arm. I lick the blood away and wrap the cut. ill wait for a bit till i visit here again. the rest of time i'm here i just stare st the ceiling in amazement.

I make my way to the skellebros house and go inside. Papy is sitting on the couch scrolling through my phone.

Dang it i forgot that here. Hopefully he hasn't seen anything important. Or the fact that today is my Birthday.

Pap looks at me and says something that turns my blood cold.

"hey Sarah, why dident you tell me and Sans that today was you birthday?"

I turn towards the kitchen and pretend that i didn't hear him asking me that question. He follows me and again asks. I don't respond and he keeps nagging at me as to why. I dont respond untill finally i explode.

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? ILL TELL YOU WHY! I'M NOT WORTH ANY EFFORT AND MY SISter died today and it should have been me! ... it should have been me... she didn't deserve it. She should have let me at least try to save her.. but she said that i shouldnt... that i should go on living... WITHOUT her?!?!?!? she, ... no I should have tried harder. now she id gone and its all my fault. . .'

I pull my hood over my head and move to sit down and curl up on the couch.