"Here I am.
I'm finally here.
This vacation will be great.
This is my Cape Town.
Mom sent me here for my birthday.
And here I am, the day of my 24th birthday on a very peaceful island alone.
It's all I could dream of and more.
It's very small but in a good way.
Maybe I can get lost here.
That'll be fun.
The best part is I have no phone or anything to bother me.
But the bad thing is that I'm alone.
Yes, this is what I wanted.
But I'm kinda scared.
Everyone here is so foreign to me.
It's peaceful but frightening.
What do I do?
I want someone here with me.
I want Brendon.
He makes me happy and he makes me smile.
I could use that right now.
Some happiness would be great.
He makes me feel safe.
A safe feeling would make this better.
I wish I wasn't alone.
But I must be here alone for a reason.
What it is, I have no idea.
But I guess I'll have to figure it out.
Although this does seem like where I belong."

This is my story of how I found myself in an un-familiar place.
This made me realize my true feelings for Brendon, even though he is gone.
I pushed him away and I won't get him back.
Anyways he found someone else.
So I'll just lie to the truth and put my feelings away.
But I can't because he has this heart of mine.
Even though he doesn't know it, he does.
Now don't mistake this for a silly crush because it's not.
This is my true feelings for Brendon.
I love him and I don't think anything will change that.
That trip put my whole life into perspective for me.
I now know what my purpose in life is.
My purpose is to just be a carefree, happy little musician.
And that's what I am.
Although I'm heartbroke, my life is going great.
That trip is what I needed to realize who I am.
And I'm glad I took that vacation.