(Y/N), a child of Ares. Strong. Independent. Beautiful. The love of Leo's life. She was Even different than most Demigods. She didn't have dyslexia, but instead she had schizophrenia. Leo loved (Y/N) and (Y/N) loved Leo, but she was too awkward and shy to admit it or even talk to him.
~(Y/N) Pov
I sat on my bunk ignoring my cabin mates who threw insults at me and told me I should go and join the Aphrodite cabin with Piper.
"I wanna and it all dad.... Why did you even have me?" I said quietly once everyone left. I started to cry as the voices I heard began telling me to off myself. It felt like too much... No one else could diminish the voices like he could. But he hated me, I know it. Why would anyone like someone as ugly and gross as myself?

She says she wants to end it all when she's all alone in her room
She cries
The way she feels inside is too much for her
When all you got is these four walls
It's not that hard to feel so small
Or even exist at all
How come no one heard her when she said
"Maybe I'm just better off dead... Would it finally be enough dad? If I was dead? Would that stop the voices better than he can?"
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
I got up and walked into the bathroom. "Did you hear a word I said?! I'm better off dead! I don't belong here! When I'm gone you will all miss me!!!" I screamed at the mirror as I cried quietly.
She doesn't know she's beautiful
Because no one's ever told her so
And the demons that she has are all she knows
"Just give up. Your dad doesn't care. Your mom never LOVED you. And that boy you like he won't ever help you! You aren't beautiful! No one will ever think so!" The voices screamed back.
And maybe she can fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust
And tell her she's enough (Have someone tell her she's enough)
How come no one heard her when she said
"Maybe I can find someone! Someone I trust! Okay! Why don't you just leave me alone!?! You aren't even real!" I yelled.
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
"Maybe I'm just better off dead... Would it finally be enough you stupid voices!? If I was dead? Would that stop you better than he can?"
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
"Did you hear a word I said?! I'm better off dead! I don't belong here! When I'm gone you will all miss me!!!" I screamed at the mirror as I cried louder, sinking to my knees as I grabbed a razor blade.
When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
All she wanted was to be enough
All she wanted was to be enough
So what does it take?
Maybe it's not too late
I went to cut myself but the voices stopped me. "No cut vertically! Then they can't fix you up!" They screeched. I nodded gently as I repeated the words once more, hoping someone anyone would come save me from myself, tell me I'm enough, tell me I'm beautiful, tell me that they love me."Maybe I'm just better off dead... Would it finally be enough you stupid voices!? If I was dead? Would that stop you better than he can? Did you hear a word I said?! I'm better off dead! I don't belong here! When I'm gone you will all miss me!!!"
No one heard her when she said
But no one heard me.
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
I cut up my arm several times as I watched the blood pool out of my arms. Then the door busted open, Leo Valdez stood there until he saw the cuts.
"Don't you dare die (Y/N)!" He yelled before I blacked out.
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Surprisingly I awoke I'm my bunk with my cabin mates surrounding me.
"We didn't mean those things we said (Y/N)..." Clarise said quietly. I sniffled quietly and brought my knees up to my chest as I sobbed quietly.
"They just won't go away! None of you are real! It's all my imagination! But I can't make you stop! I'm supposed to be dead! That was supposed to make everything stop! The figures, the voices, everything that was wrong with me! Why can't I do anything right!? I just want to die already!" I screamed. I lifted my head only to get smacked, enough to prove that he certainly wasn't a figure of my imagination. I was shocked as I looked up at my crush, Leo. He hugged me gently and I cried more as he rubbed small circles on my back.
"Why?" He whispered when I was finally calm. "You don't realize how much I love you (Y/N). I've always loved you..... Why would you do that to me...." He said and I heard a soft sniffle come from him. I pulled back shocked, his eyes were closed and it was obvious he was trying not to cry.
"Because I wanted to stop the voices permanently.... You were the only one I didn't hear the voices when I was around..." I said softly as I looked down at my arm.
"Don't ever. Ever do that to me again (Y/N)." He said lifting my chin. He leaned in and closed the distance between us with a kiss. I kissed back and he pulled away.
"You aren't better off dead."
~End~