[Guys a little just so you know. This is a concept where you are a half Shinigami. I know that Shinigami aren't allowed to bang humans nor other Shinigamis. But. This is a fan fiction and I can do what I want. So... Yeah.]

"There are man types of monsters that scare me: Monsters who cause trouble without showing themselves, monsters who abduct children, monsters who devour dreams, monsters who suck blood... And then, monsters who tell nothing but lies. Lying monsters are a real nuisance: They are much more cunning than others. They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of human heart; they eat even though they've never experienced hunger; they study even though they have no interest in academics; they seek friendship even though they do not know how to love. If I were to encounter such monsters, I would likely be eaten by them... Because in truth, I am the monster."

It's been several months since I met L. The man I thought was never afraid. Always sure of his deduction. The man who solved even the hardest cases that world of crime had to offer. Effortlessly. And now he was standing face to face with the biggest obstacle. First time the criminal was such a genius. That L could call him his equal. I believe he would, if Kira would instead of murdering, be a detective.

"He takes the bait as if he's taunting me..."

"Hm?" L's voice woke me up from my train of thoughts.

"Kira. He is taking our bait as if he's taunting me."

"He's a cocky one, we knew that. Our little god wannabe."

L didn't even look from the tv with footage from a camera in the city. He's so focused. So precise. I thought for a bit if I should tell him.

"Would you believe me if I told you Shinigami existed?"

"Unless you'd show me proof, I'd say it's ridiculous. Impossible."

"We have a killer with supernatural power. If I would tell you, he got the power, from a God of death. And I could explain it... Would you believe me?"

For the first time in hours of watching the footage, he paused it, turning to me.

"How would you know about how Kira's power work, if you weren't Kira? Do you want me to suspect you too?"

He is giving me his usual emotionless look, the one where I know he's watching every movement of my body. Every twich, every hair on my head. He's inspecting me, I can almost see him s mind rushing, thinking of how I could be Kira.

"I'm not Kira, but I'm sure that after this you'll most likely suspect me too. Don't get me wrong, I certainly don't sympathize with Kira, but I do know about this stuff. And this work finally got to point where I know you are willing to listen to what I have to say. Even though you could deem it impossible."

"I'm listening." He even set his cake aside. Good, I know I have his full attention.

"Shinigami as gods of death don't have the power to just think 'that guy will die' and than the person dies. They have a notebook. A notebook called the death note. Whoever's name is written in such notebook will die."

"How do you know that information?"

"I'm not done, Ryuzaki. Listen carefully, I'm endangering myself by telling you." He nodded.

"You need a face and a name to kill someone with such notebook. Why those two informations? When you write the name you have to imagine the persons face so people of the same name won't die too. The death note won't work if you don't imagine the face."

"If that's so why can the second Kira kill with just the face?"

"Shinigami have different eyes than humans. They can see your lifespan, how long time you have left in this world and your name above your head."

"Are you telling me Kira got the notebook and got a God of death as his number one fan?"

"Let me finish. Shinigami can grant this power to a human who gets the ownership of death note, who got the death note by finding it in the world of humans. But the human will have to give that Shinigami half of their lifespan for it. So the second Kira sacrificed half of their life, to get this power. That's why they wanted you to show up in tv."

"That would explain a lot."

"And the Shinigami follow around the owner of their death note, the one they lost or left in the world of living, they have to follow the human, until they die, or give it to another human."

"How do you know all that [Y/N]? How can I know you aren't Kira? Although, if you were, it would be very stupid of you to tell me all this."

"I... I can't tell you how I know, but I can tell you this, Light is Kira. A Shinigami named Ryuk is following him. Although normal human can't see his Shinigami unless they touch his death note."

"HOW do you know all of this?"

"I can't tell you."

"Why? Do you have something you are hiding? Perhaps a death note of your own?" He got up and walked to me, he's standing too close, my heart is pounding my cheeks are flushed.

"I'll tell you, but I need a space where I can know for sure that no Shinigami or human is listening, although, Shinigami can watch from where I can't tell I'm watched..."

"Here's isn't safe enough?"

"Shinigami can walk through the walls like ghosts. Humans can have devices to listen."

"I asure you this room isn't bugged. But, aren't you concerned that someone have listened to you talking about Shinigami?"

"Knowing the stuff I told you certainly isn't supposed to be known by people outside of the death note owners, but there is on rule saying that it SHOULDN'T be known. But the way I know... There is a rule. And if someone would find out, and it would get to the highest Shinigami... I'd be dead."

"Are you trying to be alone with me somewhere else? You know that's suspicious right?" I sigh, I know he can't trust anyone.

"You can take Watari or anyone else you fully trust with you, you can choose the place and you can blindfold me on the way there so I won't know where it is. Just don't take Light."

"After what you told me I wasn't even considering taking Light with me... But since I believe I can trust you, I shall get us a safe space to talk." He turned to Watari.

"Watari do we still have rented that apartment?" I don't know what he's talking about for once in a while, but I trust this man.

"Yes, we do, want me to get the car?"

"Yes. Thank you Watari."

"No problem. Come in front of the hotel in 10 minutes."

L nodded. So we both decided to get prepared. I checked my clothes for any devices, nothing. I wasn't bugged. So did L and he also wasn't bugged. Good. He looked at me as I looked at my phone.

"I'm going to leave my phone here. Phones aren't the safest thing anymore."

"You are thinking that there might he a tracking device. I don't know if I should say you're paranoid or smart."

"Paranoid." I responded. We exited the hotel room and went to the car. We got in and drove to a apartment in a nicer neighborhood in the city, no one would ever look for L or me here. Perfect. We walked in, Watari right in front of us. Such a nice man. He's so kind. He opened the apartment for us and we all walked in.

"Get comfortable, I have a lot of questions."

"I figured." I said as I took of my coat and set in on the couch, I looked out the window before I sat down.

"So. Can you finally tell me how do you know all that?" I took a deep breath, looked L straight in those black eyes that suck me in as a black hole. I could feel my hands sweating because of what I was about to say.

"My father was a Shinigami."

"Is that even possible?"

"It is, but there is a rule that Shinigami can't have sex with each other or humans." My eyes looked away from the beginning of this sentence.

"I found out that his death note was mine, since he died to protect my mother." Tears began to form in my eyes, the first time L would see me cry.

"One day, my mother was as terrible as ever, she has beaten me up again, I was crying my eyes out, hugging my pillow, wishing I was never born, seeing myself as a mistake, as a accident. A unhappy accident. And than rage took me over. I was the powerful one. I got the eyes of Shinigami, I had the death note. And without thinking I wrote her name, and cause of death... I killed her... The only person I ever killed because I am Shinigami. I'm so stupid... No matter how bad the abuse is. She didn't deserve to die. No one does." Few tears fell from my eyes onto my knees.

"You killed you abusive mother, in defense. I'm not the one to judge you for defending yourself. But I hope you will hand over the notebook, so we can make sure you aren't Kira." I nodded and wiped away my tears.

"I was worried. That you'd get me off this case, because I'm a monster."

"You're not a monster. Though I'm intrigued. Is there a possibility for you to become fully a Shinigami or human?"

"Good question. I THINK I found the answer."

"Yes?"

"There is only one way to kill a Shinigami. If a Shinigami protects a humans life. If a woman is supposed to die at the age of 20 by being stabbed to death by a stalker and a Shinigami loves the woman so he kills the man before he could stab the woman, the Shinigami dies. Their lifespan is transferred to the human who was protected by them. I believe that if I'll protect someone I love, my Shinigami part will die, and my lifespan will get half way shorter. I'll be a normal human."

"So in order to be a human, you have to do the most human thing. Love someone."

"Yes."

"Is it even possible for a God of death to love someone?"

"My father loved my mother, he died for her, and me. It's possible. And don't forget half of me is still human."

"Yes... But even some people aren't able to love."

"I know. And sadly my taste in man... Every time I fall for someone I can't have."

"Can't have?"

"Yes. They are either in love with someone else, don't want to do anything with me, or don't feel really anything towards me than a little curiousity. I'm not a toy, I'm not a science project. I'm still a human being inside."

"You are peaking my interest."

"I am?"

"I don't believe I ever loved." He looked at Watari giving him a small nod. Watari nodded at him too before he left. I was confused, was he planing something?

"Yes. But back to the investigation. Do you have your death note with you?"

"I don't. I hid it, on a place no one would find it. I was afraid of someone like Kira finding it."

"Good move."

"Thank you."

"Could you identify Kira and the second Kira by their Shinigami?"

"As a half human and half Shinigami? Yes. I don't see their life span as a human."

"Perfect."

"I'll do anything for you." It slipped out. I was planing to say 'I'll do anything for this case to end.' Why did I say that, L had a puzzled look before a small smile crept onto his face, why is he smiling like this?

"Anything, for me?"

"That um... Slipped out..."

"What did you mean by that?" I know that look, he is curious. He's interested in what I mean.

"I'd find you Kira, I'd give up my Shinigami part of myself to protect you."

"You mean, you'd kill for me. That won't be necessary."

"I know, but if it was, I would."

"That is kind of you, but it really won't be necessary." Is he really that oblivious? I love you. I love you, L. I looked at him, face flushed.

"So... Now you know."

"Now I know about Shinigami. And Kira's power. Thank you." I face palmed. He looked at me puzzled.

"What's wrong?"

"Ryuzaki, do I have to say it clearer?"

"What do you mean?"

"I love you!" I  hid my face in my hands. Mumbling the words again and again and again. I could feel how he stared at me, was he really surprised? I heard how he got up and than I felt a hand softly land on my head. I took my hands off my face looking up at L. He stood in front of me with his hand on my head. It felt so nice, having L actually being physical for once. For once he is silent and lets his actions talk instead. Than he broke the silence.

"I noticed, but I don't want to hurt you, if Light somehow finds a way to kill me."

"I won't let that happen." I stood up, almost no space between us. Determination burning in my eye that almost glowed red because of my Shinigami power. His eyes, always so empty stared into mine with a small spark of interest.

"If you'd kill Light we'd have to arrest you."

"How do you want to arrest a God of death?" He thought for a bit.

"You got a point..."

"If Kira had the eyes like I do, he'd already know your name."

"You do know my name. I suppose I don't have to ask you to not share it with others."

"I would never tell anyone other than you when we're alone like this. Lawliet." A small peak of interest showed in his face.

"You weren't lying. I'm glad to know that."

"L you said you don't want me to get hurt, right?"

"Yes, I said that. Why do you ask?"

"The one thing hurting me, is the distance I see in your eyes. The walls you built around you because you had no interest in love and social interactions with others. I want to break through those walls."

"I don't even think it's possible [Y/N]."

"Than let me try..." I brushed away hair from his face so I'd see his beauty clearer. I could see him processing what I said. I couldn't hold myself back anymore. I slowly let my lips travel to his, letting him have time to say no, or move away. But he stayed just how he was, closing his eyes when our lips touched. I took his hand lightly our fingers intertwining. If was beautiful. I felt like the fire of my passion was piercing the ice inside him. Breaking through the walls he built. Than I felt his other hand wrap around my lower back.

When our lips parted he looked at me, no emotions in his face.

"I never had any interest in woman. But you fascinate me. You keep me guessing. You're like a case I can't solve. And I want to so bad." He almost whispered that into my ear. I closed my eyes feeling his breath so close to my skin, running a shivers through my body.

Than I felt his lips touch the skin of my neck, lightly before he started to suck on my skin I moaned lightly. Our hands parted and so his other hand ended wrapping around me too. I pressed my hands very lightly against his chest, feeling his warmth in the embrace. I felt his lips let go of my skin before he started planting kisses all over my neck. I felt my sensitive skin shiver under the touch, sending waves of ecstasy running through me.

He ended up giving me multiple hickeys before I pulled away slightly. The confusion in his face was so adorable. I pulled him along as I lowered myself onto the couch. My eyes pleading for him to continue what we started. He ended up on top of me giving some more affection to my neck before he found my sweet spot and I moaned. He lightly bit that spot making sure it's the one he was looking for, earning another moan and a gasp from me. He decided to mark that spot too, making me a mess but giving me a hickey there too.

I could feel how aroused I got. It was so hot, out of nowhere. I wished for him to take me over, right away. Bit he had different plans.

"I want everyone to think you're taken, I don't ever want to see Light look your way again. Will you be mine [Y/N]?"

"Yes, yes please!" I was so happy he wanted me to be his. He sat up and I decided that now was my turn, but I didn't want to give us away by us having both our necks full of hickeys. I slowly got onto his lap and pulled on his shirt so I had his bare shoulder in front of me like a black canvas. I kissed his neck to his shoulder, where I lightly bit him, figuring out if he likes that too, he definitely did. I gave him a hickey there enjoying the harsh breaths he let out, the shiver of his body.

I let go of his shirt which covered his shoulder yet again. He placed a kiss in my hair. But than, Watari knocked on the door.

"Come in Watari."

"Riuzaki, there is another tape from the second Kira. We need to get back." Both of them ignoring the fact I was sitting on L's lap, neck full of red spots that were yet to turn many possible colours and my face red as the blood in my veins. I got of L picking my coat quickly.

"Well we have to go right? Quick Riuzaki, no time to spare." I put my coat on and L got his stuff too. Both of us got into the car and rushed to the hotel. On the way L started thinking aloud.

"If Light finds out you're mine, he will think I'm getting distracted from the case, so he could make a mistake, but he could also take you hostage to harm me."

"He can't."

"How come?"

"You can't kill a Shinigami. He could possibly kill my human side, but he doesn't have my true name, you made sure of that. You asked me to join this case, as a person from outside the police, without social networks."

"Right, well, let's make it obvious that we are together. If he makes a mistake because of that, we win."

"Yes, let's do this." I was glad I'm helping L, though we didn't get to do what I wanted too. We can do that to celebrate capturing Kira. Well, if L will want to.