You're happy now. 

You don't need me.

You never needed me.

I was the one who needed you.

But it's so hard to let you go.

Knowing you'll never share the feelings I have for you.

...


When did you stop holding my hand?

When you realized it was wrong for two boys to hold hands?

When you saw she was walking in front of you?

When I wasn't special enough anymore?

...

"I love you" 

You always told me that

But not in the way I wanted you to

"I love you"

The words I've always wanted to tell you.

But it's too late now.

...

You used to always smile at me whenever we passed

But  now you scowl

You look down on me

Because of three little words

Three little words, and our relationship was gone just like that

...

You told me

Everyone has a special someone waiting for them

And I believed in those words

But maybe I believed in them more than you did.

You weren't talking about you and me

You were talking about me and some girl

You and your crush

It was never us

...

I was always shy, the nobody at the back of the corner.

But you came into my life.

And you completely changed it

You forced these feelings onto me

And when I tried to express them- you left

I'm nobody, and nobody cares

...

Bright eyes, big smiles.

Eager waves, excitement ringing in the air.

All of that used to be for me

But all I can do now

is watch as the person behind me runs forward.

...

"Nobody cares"

You taught me to not listen to those words

You bought me out of the darkness

You showed me the good in the world

You gave me happy memories

But the one thing you couldn't give me was my  confession

...

My love was like a small treasure chest.

I gave it to you

I told you to take good care of it

And you did, you made it cleaner and made it even more beautiful

But the chest was empty, 

at first it held your love

But now- it only holds your pain

...

Where did it all go wrong?

Did I say something wrong?

Was it me?

Was it my fault?

It probably was.

Please.

Tell me what I did wrong.

Let me fix it

Let me fix us.

...

Was I that easy to lie to?

"I love you"

You always told me that

But did you ever actually mean it?

...

Why'd you leave me?

I thought you loved me

I thought you cared about me

You said you loved me

You said I was the star of your world. That I lit up your world.

But I guess- even stars burn out and lose their light.

...

I was special,

I deserved to be loved

You told me that

Yet- you still left me in the end

Like they all did.

...

You said you were different

You said you wouldn't leave

You said you wouldn't hurt me

But you did

And I can never be fixed

Because you've taken my heart along with you

...

First kiss

First confession

First love

First relationship

First time being happy

And just like that- they're all gone

...

They said I'd get hurt

They said you'd crack me

But I said "it's ok" He'll fix me then

But band-aids can't fix bullet holes.

...

I can't breath

My view is getting dim

Where are you?

Why aren't you helping me?

Am I that worthless to you?

...

You said you loved me.

But why'd you ignore me?

It hurts.

You're contradicting everything you ever told me

...

"Get over it"

They always tell me that

They said think about the stuff that matters.

But what they don't understand 

Is that it hurts because it mattered.

...

If I'm ever sad

If I ever feel worthless

You said to run into your arms, and you'd hold me tight.

But- you never told me what to do when you're the reason why I'm feeling this way

...

If I'm ever sad

If I ever feel worthless

You said to run into your arms, and you'd hold me tight.

But- you never told me what to do when you're gone

...

It was raining that day

You told me you loved me

I smiled

"No you don't"

...

I wrote these a while ago, but feel free to use them! Please at least tag me in the comments so I can read them!