I've been a die hard fan of Victon for four years straight. I was completely devoted to them, especially Choi Byungchan. He was my everything.

From his tall slim figure, to his 6'1 height, and beautifully perfect shaped face sculpted by the gods themselves. He was the most handsome man I ever saw in my life.

His perfect milky skin was flawless with no flaws in sight. His voice was like a beautiful written melody. I wouldn't say I was obsessed, but I would say I had an unhealthy lifestyle. I slept, ate, and dreamed Victon.

Currently, I was watching one of their videos, the song was called "I'm fine". It was one of my favorite songs. Byungchan looked so handsome. It felt as though I was always in an unbreakable trace when it came to him.

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"Watching your daily dose of those Asian men again I see." My friend, Jezebel teases.

I was a college student at a university in Seoul. It was called Hongik University. I was near the clubbing, and shopping district. But I didn't do neither of those things.

I was always stuck in my dorm, watching Victon videos or studying. I have came to the conclusion that I had a bad addiction. It was really bad.

"Fuck! You scared the shit out of me. And fuck you!" I scowl at her.

"In a bitchy mood I see. What happened now?" She groans.

"Why would you care? All you do is go out clubbing." I growl.

"Being the good roommate I am. I got you a chance to meet Byungchan. My friend Hyejin knows his sister, and invited me to go to some family party they're having. But I'm busy so I told her about you. I'll give you her number. Let her know before the end of the day today. It's on Saturday." She explains.

I couldn't believe it was this a sign from the gods themselves. Was I finally going to be able to meet the man of my dreams? I was beyond ecstatic, and I couldn't wait to meet him.

"What?! OMGGG! What I'm I going to wear?! I look like a damm potato! Ahhhh!" I scream freaking out.

"Oh my goodness! Here we go..I had a feeling you would start freaking out like this" She says rolling her eyes.

"Do you not understand the fucking predicament I'm in right now. He's a god compared to me!" I whine angrily.

"Look, on a serious note as a friend. You need to stop letting this kpop group run your life. I'm only doing this, so that this unhealthy obsession of yours can disappear. You don't even know the guy, and he's so important to you. It's just crazy." She sighs.

I had to admit she was right, I was really letting this group take over my life. Ever since I was shipped away to Seoul, I guess it was hard to let people into my life.

Seeing this group, and getting to know them. I guess, I've became obsessed with the thought of them being the only ones who truly cared about me. But that wasn't the case, they didn't know me. What they cared about was all of their fans not just me.

"Your right." I whisper looking down.

"I care about you. I'm always here for you. Your like a sister to me. Just because your parents don't care doesn't mean everyone is the same" She smiles weakly.

"I know." I frown.

I was twenty-two years old, and I've been in Seoul for about three years now. My parents were hard working people, they weren't wealthy or anything. They were just hard working middle-class people. They had sent me away to college when I was eighteen.

They claimed it would be good for me to attend college in a different country. But all they wanted to do was get rid of me. They never truly cared for me. All they ever did was take care of me, but they showed not one ounce of love to me.

"Look, I'll see if I can go with you. That's if you still want to go?" She mutters.

"What's the point? Your right. I need to start living for myself." I mumble.

"Bu-" She began to say.

"No. It's fine. Just tell her I'm not going." I sigh.

"......fine" She nods.

Two weeks later, I had completely turned over my life. It felt good to live for myself. I had even gotten a makeover. I had went to a salon in itaewon. I had gotten a silk press on my hair. I was happy to see my dark brown hair straighten, it had gotten pretty long.

I had even bought some new clothes, which was quite hard since I wasn't the typical Korean woman size. But regardless I still had a fun time shopping. I would say it was great to finally feel free again.

Today, I was going out with Jezebel, and a couple of her friends. We were going to some gathering that one of her friends were having at her house.

Getting to my dorm, I head towards the bathroom to get ready. About an hour later, I decided to wear a black crop top, and high waisted black jeans, and a black mesh kimono with black shoes.

I added some gold eyeshadow, with black eyeliner. Finishing up the look I added a glossy lip. Jezebel did say that it was a party, so I hope I looked fine. Hearing the door, I see her walk into our dorm.

"Oh my! What happened to my friend?!" She squeals hysterically.

"Fuck you!" I groan.

"Damm! Never can take a compliment I see." She smirks.

"Really? Do I look alright?" I ask nervously.

"You look great." She smiles.

It took us about two hours and seventeen minutes to get to where we were going. It was quite a long drive. It was in a nice neighborhood.

Jezebel's friend Hyejin parks her car into the underground parking lot. It was five of us in the car, everyone looked really nice. So, I didn't feel like I was overdressed or underdressed.

Getting out of the car, we all walk towards the elevator. You could tell whoever lived here they had money. The building was really beautiful. It had a modern designed to it, with colors of whites, greys, and some hints of gold.

It was neat and clean, you could tell wealthy people lived here. Not that it mattered to me. Hearing the elevator ding, we all head out of the elevator.

Following behind everyone, they head down the hall. You could already hear a little bit of music playing. Ringing the doorbell, Hyejin smiles at us.

"Get ready, girls" She grins.

Hearing the door click open, I literally felt like I would collapse onto the floor. It was him. Smiling at all of us, his eyes land on Hyejin.

"Noona!" He smiles, showing those adorable dimples of his.

"Byungchanie! These are my friends." She smiles.

Opening the door completely he steps to the side, letting us into the apartment. One by one we walk inside. I could see the large condo full of guest. Hearing the door close behind us, he leads us into the living room area.

"Noona! Hyejin-ah is here" Hearing someone squeal I see a woman run towards Hyejin.

Jezebel was too busy talking to her other friend, Seoyeon to see me freaking out. I felt so uncomfortable. Turning towards one of the other girls, Jenny, I ask her where the bathroom is at. They had all been here before, so I'm sure they knew where it was.

Following her directions, I head towards the bathroom, turning the corner I walk down the hallway. Seeing the third door, I open it and it leads me into a room.

Seeing another door, I hoped it was the bathroom. Stopping in my tracks, I notice who's room am in. Shit. Running towards the door, I open it to find an attached bathroom.

Five minutes later, after I'm done I wash my hands, and head out of the bathroom. Walking through the room I head back out. Without warning the door swings open, stepping back a little I come face to face with Byungchan.

"W-What are you doing in here?" He asks curiously.

"O-Oh. Umm...I was looking for the bathroom?"I stutter.

"Obviously, it's not in here. It was the one two doors down out in the hallway." He says eyeing me.

"Look, I'm sorry. I was only looking for the bathroom that's all." I explain.

"Wait. Your one of Hyejin-ah's friends right?" He smiles showing his dimples.

No, no. I wasn't going to fall for him again. I had finally gotten him out of my life. I was doing fine without him and his group.

"Yes." I answer blankly.

"Oh. I'm sorry for being rude. I haven't seen you before though." He explains innocently.

Fuck. Why did he have to be so freaking adorable without trying?

"Well..its a long story. Just recently started going back out." I answer honestly.

"Well....I hope everything is fine now." He sighs.

"Yup. It's great" I reply. Walking around him I head out of the door. I couldn't talk to him, honestly I felt nothing for him anymore. Yeah, I thought he was still adorable as ever, but just looking at him bought back a lot of things I would like to forget.

Returning back into the living room area, I see all the girls talking amongst themselves. Once, they see me their eyes grow wide. Something was going on, and I was going to find out.

"Jeze!" Jumping startled she eyes me nervously.

"Y-Yeah." She stutters.

"What's going on?" I ask crossing my arms over my chest.

"Come on, _____. Don't make a scene" Hyejin frowns.

"Was that your doing? You send me to his room, and magically he shows up at the same time I come out of the bathroom." I grit out angrily.

"......fine. We did. Hyejin told Byungchan's sister and she threw this party so that he would come." Jezebel explains.

"We know you like him. Plus, his sister thought he would like you too." Hyejin smiles.

"Look, I know you girls had good intentions, but I don't feel anything for him anymore. I rather keep it that way." I sigh.

"What if he likes you? Are you going to just push him away?" Jezebel asks.

"Sure. Like he would actually like me" I huff.

Breaking our conversation the person of our conversation shows up. He stands near Hyejin, and at that moment I had a feeling he had a crush on her. But then again who knows.

"Byungchanie! Why don't you show _____, the view of Seoul. It's to die for." She smiles eyeing me.

"Oh....oka-" He begins to say.

"No, thanks. I have to go home. Thanks for inviting me." Walking away from them, I head towards the front door. I don't even bother saying goodbye to anyone. I just wanted to go back to my dorm.