A/N: I MENTION CHRISTIANITY, GOD, JESUS AND FAITH IN THIS CHAPTER IN AN STRANGE WAY, IF YOU ARE BELIEVER LIKE ME PLEASE DON'T LET THIS STORY TO CHANGE YOUR WAY OF BELIEVING,  AND IF YOU ARE NOT, THEN DON'T LET THIS STORY MAKE YOU THINK SOMETHING WRONG ABOUT HIM.

TOO, IF YOU ARE A PERSON WHO IS UNDER DEPRESSION, PLEASE I BEG YOU TO DON'T READ THIS.

NOW, PLEASE CONTINUE.
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From: Mia

-That day will come, the day when I'll finally disappear- I would thought -I had just been a liar above anything else, a fool, an stupid girl since I born- it's true.

I had always though I would never dare to say something like this. But I was wrong, I was made for this. It may hurt inside my body, but it's awesome when I get rid of it with the crying of my heart.

I had never understood the happy life of people, how can they live that way? Without suffering? They always smile, while I just stare at them with my grumpy face and my crying eyes.

Anyways, I was born to live this way.

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Everything started at the age of 16, I was the cute and good girl that everyone liked.

They always used to said whenever I was walking around:

"Hi! I'm glad I can see you smiling all day long!"

Or

"Every girl should be like you, you are perfect!"

But they didn't knew the truth about this "smiley" and "perfect" girl. I . AM . NOT . PERFECT .

I got tired of all the anger that I was holding inside, of all those feelings that weren't able to escape from my heart.

I was the only one who knew about my feelings, and it's okay with that. Everyone is okay with that. I'm okay with that. It's all that matters.

-Never let that glowing light inside you turn off-
       Is something that my Ex used to repeat every day for me while I just nodded.

"That glowing light had disappeared" I used to said when I was alone "and it will never turn on again, NEVER"

It may hurt, but it's the truth, that pure and clean soul inside of me will never have its white color again, it will be black or gray for all its life.

-Christianity-

-God-

-Jesus-

-Faith-

Were the words I repeated whenever I felt destroyed by inside.
But without noticing, those sweet words disappeared and were replaced by:

-Christianity: It's a cage-

-God: He doesn't love you-

-Jesus: You have failed so many times to him that he will never forgive you-

-Faith: it's just another fantasy-

"Why am I saying this?" I used to ask myself "this way of thinking is wrong"

-Cold-

-Robot-

-No feelings-

-Cry baby-

Where the words that used to describe me. Where the words that "I" used to describe me.

I began to act selfishly and cold at people who needed my help. I began to ignore people that used to love me. I began to be afraid of everyone, even of myself.

"I'm not able to help you, I'm broken inside, I need to fix myself first" I used to said when I was talking with myself.

My poor soul began to broke in pieces, in tiny pieces that will never be rebuild again.

For not making this too long...

I always wished to disappear, to feel that I never used to exist, that no one had ever got to know me, or to love me.

"I have to be careful with what I wish" is something I used to said as well, but I realized it was too late.

Now, I'm stuck in here, in a black hole, where no one will never found me, will never know me, will never remember me, will never love me, where I'll never hurt people, and where I'll never lie to them.

Then... who is taking your place in earth?

A white, Pure and glowing light girl. SHE, is taking my place, and I'm glad she is doing it, I'm glad she will make happy everyone around, my family and my friends.

So, don't worry, you'll never suffer again, I'll never lie to you, I'll never be cold with you again, I'll never ignore you, etc!

I died or disappeared just to make you smile, just to help the world to get rid of that foolish girl.

This...

is my gift for you.

To: People

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What do you think of this one? Should I write a book? Or nah?