Warnings: angst, self doubt, doubt in friends, idk

Ships: non

Thoughts in this

Technoblade POV

I stare at my shattered phone as I feel nothing but a crushing weight on my back, they wanted me gone, why do they care now, I think as I wipe the tears that are threatening to fall and open discord back up to find 209+ messages some from the Minecraft Monday discord's server, others calls and messages from friends.

I see skeppy name pop up calling me on discord, which is strange for him as he likes to use teamspeak more then discord, I take a deep breath and answer,"dude! You answered! Are you okay? You didn't respond to anyone!" Skeppy says with a worried tone, I bite my lip and sigh,"yeah just went to grab a apple nerd" I say in my usually carefree tone.

 "alright,.. but why did you drop the event!? Everyone wants to know, it was a good week you won!" Skeppy says with confusion and I stare at my shaking hand,"was it?..." I respond with a more of a cracked voice tone, "I mean..,yeah I thought? Did something happen?" Skeppy says with a softer tone then normal, I was stunned by this.. Skeppy usually a troll and just trying to make people laugh, he usually can't read people as well, I think to myself.

"I'm......I just don't think people want me in the event nerd" I say with a slight crack in my voice, "what?! Dude people love y-" I cut him off,"no! They don't! Dude the high lights everyone mad at me! I'm just trying to do what they do and make a career doing what I like!" I snap feeling the tears fall down my face now feeling like a complete jerk for yelling and telling Skeppy this, "I....I have no words....techno...." Skeppy says, I sit back muting my mic.

I can't believe I just did that, my thoughts are cut off by Skeppy voice, "techno.....i.. do believe we all were a little hard towards you, and I guess they really no, we all really should of thought how you feel...," Skeppy says with a tone of trying to be comforting, "there is really nothing I can say to make it better, but....If you enjoy the game and live streaming, then .....don't let people make you want to leave it, it's your life and channel, you don't have to please everyone," Skeppy says.

 i stare shocked, and then wipe my tears that fell and smile before unmuting, "I didn't know you could be so sappy nerd" I say with a smirk, "it wasn't sappy!" He says back, "not the best emotion speech but yet again you'll-" he cuts me off,"I swear techno-" I cut him off now,"another 200 yearsssss!" I shout and leave the call with a smirk and start laughing, before messaging him a quick thanks and going to the Minecraft Monday chat and typing,

Technoblade: change of mind, I'm in nerdss See you all next week

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