I was sitting in my office but nothing made sense.

Nothing without Ephy made sense.

I love her so much and it took this mess to show me, I thought I needed sex or something different turns out I didn't.

Erika won't stop sending nudes but now I don't like it turns me off.

After her last nude, this is how I responded.

This is my wife and she is enough for me it was only one night if you're not talking about the baby then stop talking to me, please.

I felt bad but I guess I got so comfortable with Ephy that I stopped putting effort into our love because I thought she would never leave me.

I was wrong and stupid!

My mom left soon after Ephy when she heard about Erika she lost it.

My dad cheated a lot on her so I and my 2 brothers with my sister vowed we would do better because our mom broke down so many times before us.

We didn't believe it when they got divorced we never thought my mom would do it she always cared about what people thought more than her heart breaking.

So she reminded me I became what I didn't want and I vowed id never be.

"I thought I raised you better than that you're turning into your dad" her words were like a broken record they hurt but I needed to hear them.

Growing up if you had asked me what my biggest fear I would have said: " Being like my dad" nothing is worse than facing that fear I became the man that broke the one woman who loved him unconditionally for what? Sex?

I've sent Ephy messages she speaks to me and we are having a boy, a baby boy I've always wanted while Erika is having a girl.

I came up with strategies on how to win my wife back and would use them all.

After my mom left I got my shit together and realized just how much Ephy did for me, it wasn't the sex or anything but her love and care.

Using my favorite fabric softener, and making my favorite meals, she hated being vegan because she's a steak girl but still did it for me I took it all for granted. 

I took her for granted my beautiful sexy wife..why the threesome? I watched too many stupid shows that's why they got into my head.

I asked her if we could facetime and she agreed.

She wore a t-shirt and shorts, her beauty in a messy bun of all the looks she has the messy bun with my t-shirt and shorts will always be my favorite.

I wanted to kiss her lips and show her I love her, I mean I did all that for sex and now I hate it because lust cost me, my one true love, I didn't cheat but I was still wrong.  

I have avoided my dad for year's and today of all days he said he was around town and wants to meet for lunch I agreed but wanted to change my mind.

I gave myself one last look and drove to the restaurant.

I ordered juice I will be driving so I can't indulge however when I get home I have a sealed cognac waiting for me.

He came in looking old he was still handsome I hate that I have his eyes, he hugged me and we sat in uncomfortable silence.

"Son"

"Dad"

"I'm sorry for hurting you and your siblings back then I'm trying to be a better man"

"That's great dad why am I here ?"

"I just wanted to fix things"

"If you can go back in time and unbreak my mom's heart then I will be happy"

"Son"

"No dad you don't get to say sorry and I forget everything go say sorry to my mom"

"I did and I know it will take time"

We sat there going back and forth and I was tired so I told him I have a wife at home waiting for me and walked away.

The same way it's hard to forgive him is the same way Ephy finds it hard to forgive me right?

I get it Betrayal is worse from someone who claims to love you.

I got home and didn't drink but decided to sleep.

I don't see Erika anymore her boyfriend is always with her and at first I admit I was a bit jealous but now I feel relieved.

My mom called me to check on me and said a lot of wise words, I don't blame her she spent all her life teaching us to be better men yet I disappointed her and I need to fix it, can't take away what I did in the past but the future awaits me and I will make it count.

I was getting ready for my match I play football with my boys and sometimes I'm a part-time coach too.

It was a great escape exactly what I needed.

I drove to the spot and found my friends ready and we had a match I messed up and we lost I was distracted.

"I'm sorry guys"

"Well if your dick wasn't itchy we wouldn't have lost now I have to pay for Mark's stupid lunch for the whole fucking week"

"If it means that much to you Vic I'll refund all of you" they were happy and we sat there talking.

Ephy called...I swear every time I see her calling I feel 16 again!

"Baby.., I mean Ephs"

"Hi Todd Euw you're sweating was it basketball time"

I smiled and nodded and we spoke a lot she even laughed at my few jokes thank God because I dug them deeply she made me feel nervous.

The boys noticed and all came to say hi to her I swear if Vic flirts with my wife one more time I'll accidentally kick his balls.

After that, I took my phone and said goodnight to her, did I mention how effortlessly beautiful she looked?

She said she went to the store and met annoying people and I laughed she hated shopping I did the shopping most time but now I know she will take over.

Her hair was in a nice bun I married the most beautiful woman, I don't know how I forgot that.

After hanging up we said our goodbyes and I drove to my house.

What the fuck is Erika doing here?

I didn't open the gate so I got out, I will not risk it anymore she's a temptation that I'll fight with my last breath.

"What do you want Erika?" She was crying and her head was low when she lifted her head, what I saw sent chills down my spine.

She had a black eye, and her dress was torn.

I put her in my car and went to the doctor just to make sure my unborn child was safe , she's still not coming to my wife's house.

I waited for a few minutes and she came out looking better.

"Why are you still with your boyfriend?"

"Because he said the only way we would break up is if one of us is dead?"

I felt bad for her ...

"I'm sorry Erika but you need go to a Hotel at least you'll be safe" she nodded and I drove her there.

I wasn't heartless but I won't risk it.

I went to the local store and got a few things I think she might need.

I dropped them off and went back home, not doing this with her ever again!

𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓴. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓕𝓸𝓻 𝓡𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓞𝓷𝓮 𝓝𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓞𝓷𝓵𝔂!