Not edited and stuff remember Queen of Grammar Errors😌😌 👑 this chapter is dedicated to oneogegirllykdat 🫶🏽

A few days have passed since Todd dropped a bomb on me and I've been walking around on eggshells.

I'm scared of losing Todd, we have been through so much together and I wonder if he's scared of losing me too, I guess not.

I googled it...

"A threesome.
•a game or activity for three people.
•an occasion on which three people engage in sexual activity together"

" I read it over and over again and watched videos on it and honestly I don't know how to feel about it another woman in our bed? Having him like I did every night?

We were home, on a Saturday and he was busy with the lawn outside while I made lunch I was dreading this conversation scared of what he will say but I had to.

I finished with his food making sure I used everything he liked because all of a sudden he wanted to be vegan, I am a meat lover and even though it kinda helped me lose weight it's been torture so I eat my beef burger at work and have my steak with my sister.

I guess that's proof that something was off right?

He walked in wearing his shorts only showing his abs he looks amazing I got turned on just looking at him ...but then I got cold thinking about the threesome.

"Babe your food is ready"

"Thank you honey let me go have a quick shower I'll be with you"

I stared at my vegan burger, it tasted better than I thought but I still wanted the beef urgh, I had my fries and drank my kombucha, and put the dishes in the sink.

After 15 min he walked downstairs wearing a simple t-shirt with jeans and socks.

"Thank you baby it's delicious"

I smiled and nodded...my heart was beating out of my chest...

"Todd we need to talk about the threesome"

I sat next to him on the kitchen stools...

"Okay" Okay is all he can say? About me permitting him to cheat on me?

"Why now Todd what is missing"

"Baby you're more than enough I just thought it would help us be better in bed"

"Make who better you or me ?"

"Us," he said nonchalantly...

I closed my eyes breathing in and out my panic attacks were about to start and I didn't want him to see me like that.

"Todd ...." I tried to fight the tears but they came out anyway.

He left his food and comforted me...

"I'm so sorry baby I thought it would be fun"

"Would it still be fun if another man with a bigger dick was fucking me in your presence?"I looked at him dead serious.

"That's not fair "

"Well ?"

"If that's what you want I would compromise"

"Todd you understand that we both have to do this"

"Remember when I told you about the girl I kissed?"

I nodded. He came home drunk one night after a celebratory dinner they had at work and said he kissed his colleague.

"She agreed to do the threesome I wouldn't want anyone else" was that supposed to make me feel better?

"So you spoke to her before speaking to me" I was angry now how dare he disrespect me like that.

"No Ephy," his voice said no but I know Todd well enough to see when he's lying to me, and right now he was.

"After our kiss, she asked if I would be interested in having fun with her and my wife I didn't say yes but I've been thinking about it"

"10 years Todd,10 Fucking years"

"It's not like that Ephy we haven't had sex in a year it's just to spice us up please don't overthink this"

I nodded and left I had nothing left to say...I stopped before going up the stairs...

"When .....when can I meet her?"

"Friday we can meet at Oracle restaurant I'll set everything up"

"Okay" I didn't know what to say...

The same restaurant he has been talking about we were supposed to go celebrate our 10th anniversary there.

I walked away and went to our room to cry ...

I met Todd 11 years back at college we happened to be at the right place at the right time, I never believed in love at first sight or thought I'd want marriage.

He was like a tornado that left me not knowing who I was but I loved him...I love him, when I was 16 I gave my child up for adoption because my parents were strict and I was the preacher's kid.

I promised I will work hard and my parents agreed so Todd was the first guy I trusted enough to tell me that and well he took the news well or not?

We fell inlove and everything was great our sex life was amazing he satisfied me and we couldn't keep our hands off each other, dated for a year then got married.

We agreed to wait to have kids and enjoy our marriage so we traveled, made money, and enjoyed ourselves as a couple not even the pressure from our families changed what we wanted.

A year ago everything changed because we agreed to start trying for kids and after tests and him proving he was not the problem they said I was the problem so I thought God was indeed punishing me for giving away my first child.

We tried everything, but our embryos never survived and all those injections were for nothing cause I still couldn't bless him with the children he wanted.

So he stopped touching me saying it was useless because we couldn't make children, every time he touched me it was like I made him sick.

I loved him more because I thought he had accepted that part of me I chose to forget but now it's back to bite me in the ass.

"What if you're the reason we can't have kids Ephy past decisions have a way of creeping up in your future messing a few things up it's called consequences " his words one night when he came home drunk and acting out of character.

His words hurt me because I blamed myself the guilt ate me up inside and maybe that's why I agreed to this threesome bullshit.

I couldn't be at home so I told him I'm going to meet my sister she needed me.

Drove to my sister's house...

Got out, parked my car, and rang her bell my drama Queen is always ready.

She came out dressed in a nightgown with so many feathers I wondered how she doesn't find them irritating.

"Ephs why do you look like that"

"I need a drink"

"Say no more"

We got into her house and we sat outside by the patio ...

"What did Todd do this time"

"Wants a threesome"

She choked on her drink and laughed ... but not finding humor in what I just told her she stopped.

"What ? so it's not a joke?"

"No it's not Tae he says he can't touch me or something like that"

"Tell me you said No"

"At this point, I've accepted that I've lost my husband what if he can't get enough of her ?"

"Then he can divorce you and marry her and let you find a man that deserves you"

Tae hugged me ...

We had wine lots of it .....it was great having our sister time, we have always been close but after losing our dad it got worse.

She called an Uber for me cause she didn't want me to drive I didn't want to go home 6 days left till the day and I was ready to die.

I walked in drunk, singing...

"Baby you're drunk it's midnight where have you been"

"With Tae, she says hi by the way"

I started taking off every item on my body walking up the stairs to shower maybe I will sober up.

But getting in the bathroom I started throwing up ...urgh hate it when that happens...

He came in to check if I was okay...

"Please don't touch me"

I said and got in the shower ...walking around wrapped in my towel I couldn't find my underwear...

I had a tantrum which led to his hand grabbing my ass turning me on finally touching me, I guess anything was better than my husband not touching me blaming me for not giving him children...

But as usual, we stopped before he could dive inside me I don't know how much more of this I can take, I guess it will take another woman for him to find me worthy again!

𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓴 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓞𝓷𝓮 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂...