When the court order and women affairs commission couldn't do anything to help mom retain us,her last resort had been to travel down to Lokoja and see his eldest brother and his wife who worked in the same place as dad. But the visit had been discouraging.

I remember my uncle's wife telling my mom with a straight face "return the children back to their father if you can't take care of them,is it by force?he has family members that can take care of the children if he can't I am there". Mom had been shocked,sad and angry and I remember her telling aunty Jane that "you are not their mother and so you can't take care of them while I'm still alive". We left there angrily and that was when mom asked Peace and I to just go back to dad's place for her sake. She promised she would always visit us and that we shouldn't worry. That day I was broken and I felt numb inside. I felt I was loosing my mom all over again. Peace tried to reassure me by reminding me of some of the friends we had back at Lokoja but nothing was enough to cheer me.

We stayed with dad for a year or two before he told us that Peace would be leaving for Lagos to stay with one of his family who is aunty Jane's first daughter . He told me I would be staying with his eldest brother and I felt sad again. That day,I felt like I had lost my family as we were all scattered. That morning when Peace left,I remember wondering if I would ever see her again.

I was alone with dad and I felt terribly lonely.