~~~Soo...I need to catch up! I hope this book is making everyone happy! I'm sorry if it's not..I'll try to do better!~~

This....has been going on for a while now...since November actually. And it all started with my mom, she thought I had some kind of mental problem...where you get distracted easily or figet a lot. Anyway I took a lot of tests of timing, smarts, figuring out a situation quickly, and emotional surveys. And I hate telling people the truth but...I am depressed and do have suicidal thoughts. Though the thing with me and surveys is the fact I love them...and I don't lie on them...one of my weaknesses is surveys...

Heheh...yeah.....

....don't judge me...

But towards the end of all the testing, my IQ was 127....though I felt like they lied to me. Like— come on, I am HORRIFIC at math and I HATE writing an essay. Hell- I don't know my multiplication of 4's, 6's, 7's, or 8's. And I barely know my 12's! They said I don't remember because I don't try— WELL EXCUSE ME BUT I AM TRYING! .....I really...can't remember things....

Anyway, they are trying to boost my confidence up. So I can do better....
They even bribe me with stuff that I like if I do a good job. I'm no dog. If I need to be bribed with food, money, gifts.....then I rather be stupid. I go to student support services when called and talk every now and then. It's okay...but at the same it's not. I don't want them to know...have to be careful on what I say..

        I also hate asking for help because you won't have that in reality. So I refuse help as much as I can. I can't even ride a bike but I can drive a car. Sad isn't it? A 15 soon to be 16 year old girl doesn't know how to ride a bike, no one taught me. Though I am teaching myself, I know how to turn right and sort of balance. Turning left is pretty difficult for me. Now before you say 'YOU'RE LEANING! YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO LEAN!—" I am NOT leaning or trying to. It's stupid.

                          There is a bunch more information I'm not saying but that's all I'm going to say...

                                                                                             ....for now....