Hi Sweethearts,

Thanks for the amazing response for the previous part.

And just one request to all of you readers, you can ask me any doubts or questions you get, I might give you the perfect answer or might redirect you to the parts where the answers can be found.

But please don't apologize while asking question...as the author of the story, I know its my responsibility to clear you all of any doubts or confusions you get....

Aana please enna thitradu naalum One life or other side of Love laye thitunga..pakathu story la poi panchayathu vekadinga darlings...

Inda soozchiku naanum @AnugrahaaRavi3 vum matume partners...vera yaarum illa

Happy reading...

Buckle up for may be an emotional heart wrenching update .....

நான் வாழ்ந்திட...காற்று வேண்டும்
காதல் போதும்
நான் வசித்திட வீடு வேண்டும்
இதயம் போதும்....

தலை வைக்க மடி கொடுத்தாய்...
தலை அணையின் துணை வேண்டாம்
உனக்குள் வாழ்கிறேன்
இப்படியே என்னை வாழ விடு...

At around 3pm, in Kavins room in Bangalore.....

Mullai left wiping her tears, asking Kavin to follow her....

Par: enna ma achu...yen kan kalangi iruku...

Mullai just shaked her head indicating a nothing...

Mullai: onnum illa pa...

By then, Kavin had also come out of the room with a gloomy face...

Mur: enna achu maplai...unga mogamum vaadi iruku...iva kanum kalangi iruku...edum prechanai aa....

Kavin: adelam edum illa mama...

Par: apram yen maplai...ipdi irukinga....

Kavin with a low voice: Adu Rio nyabagam .....and closed his eyes......

The name, RIO, made the whole atmosphere in the house gloomy....even after years, that name could change the weather in the house cold from warm...

None knew what to tell, what probably spoken now can change their inner turmoil...

Mullai with a stringent hard broken voice: sapadu pari maru ma......

Mur: parvathy, pullaiku pasikudu la ...with a small voice..

Parvathy served food for both of them, they just gulped down few morsels for the sake of the food served in the platter, with a vague memory of few words in a happy voice at the back of their mind,

" Enna neenga , ethane per food ilama kashtapadrannga, neenga enna na sapada oda veladitu irukinga, sapdu mullai, sapdu da Kavin...."

That was the driving force for their lunch, when the last morsel left their oesophagus, they went away not even taking their plate, into their respective room to drown into the memories of their beloved who was not with them anymore....

"RIO, she couldn't describe in words what he was, he was her everything, her pillar of strength in hardship and happiness, her driving force during her moments of despair after the chaos in Kunnakudi...if not for him by her side, she could have never come out of it...moved on....

She moved on for him, because of him....

He was there with her everytime she needed a shoulder to lean on, a hand to caress her hair.....but not anymore....he had left her with only memories to fight alone.....in this world......against this world...."

உனக்குள் வாழ்கிறேன்
இப்படியே என்னை வாழ விடு...

She will cherish his memory forever, she knows there is no one born in this world nor will be born in this world, to replace him or his place in her life...."

For him, Kavin,

"RIO was his best friend, classmate from his kinder garden, bench mate till his high school, competitor in sports, partner in crime for all mischiefs, his cousin, his Mother's nephew......They were together right from childhood, they were born mere months apart and he left him with nothing but memory and Mullai and family as his responsibility.

He had promised his brother that he would be there for them, look after them always, he hopes that he had lived for the past years giving justification to his brother..."(I think now the confusion is cleared as to why kavin is being addressed as mapillai...because he is RIO s brother cum mullai best friend)

With fogged mind, teared eyes, constrained throat, they both muffled their cries into sleep...for it was too hard to forget him nor remember him....

After a couple of hours,

Mullai woke up with a better mind, she turned and saw the photoframe of  them, and started her second half of the day. She went to washroom, refreshed and changed into her comfortable dress, soft cotton pair of track pants with T shirts....for she had fallen into nap with her workclothes on.......

She came out of her room to get invited into an empty house, all had left may be to take a stroll in the apartment garden below, their favorite evening pass time.

She quietly moved to the kitchen, made a cup of coffee and went back to her room, plugged her earpods into its spot, and started music in phone on shuffle mode, and walked to her moved balcony in her room, sat on the bamboo swing with her cup of coffee watching out for her family having a good time in the green medows visible to her......

She would have enjoyed a couple of songs, when a song "Mudhal murai ennai parthai" played and her mind drifted to almost a decade back....

A decade back when she was just a simple, lively, bubbly talkative girl of around 20 years old, an UG graduate, with simple dreams of getting married, having a happily ever after....with her cousin, Jeeva mama.....being a simple house wife taking care of her favorite household with the tagline, "Pandian Stores Marumagal".

But what life had in store for her was anything but happily ever after...Her dreams of happily ever after were snatched not once but twice...

Once before it could flourish and next time, a mere months after it flourished....second time in an even cruel way.

Everyday she looks herself in mirror, and tries catching a glimpse of the happy lively girl she was once, trying to find if she was hidden somewhere within the image of a mature women..

                                         நீந்தி வரும் நிலவினிலே
                                       ஓா் ஆயிரம் ஞாபகங்கள்

But alas, till date for the past 8 years she hasnt found the old Mullai back, not even for a fraction of second....atleast not after He left...unknowingly her eyes did well up....

                                  நீண்ட நெடும் கனாவினிலே
                                     நூறாயிரம் தீ அலைகள்

She is been living with this fascade of an emotionally strong women for her family, for she knew, she had to be strong......stronger than ever....as she had travelled only half the path of her life...there is still another half waiting to be travelled .....alone....

She wished if things were different or any better, she would have had a happy life with him....But, now those are only  living in her dreams...in his memories.........

With a silly sad smirk,

She thought of how all this started at Kunnakudi.

Kunnakudi , the place she dreads a lot.....she had to leave the village with a baggage of humilitation, misery sadness....

After her broken wedding with Jeeva mama, they had left the mandabam, She , Her parents..Kasthuri athachi.....Jega Mama had stayed back for he was in dilemma, Dhanam was his sister and so was she, mullai...and he chose dhanam, proving blood is thicker than water, the age old proverb....

The four wheeler drove through the crowded streets of Karaikudi and then entered the much silent road of Kunnakudi and halted at her house..

The same house she grew up, lived her 20 years of life was beautifully decorated, it looked like as if her own house was mocking at her....at her stupidity...

Once the door was open, she rushed into her room...dashing into the washroom, locking it, opening the shower, letting the water drench her..just like how the sorrow inside was drenching her life....

She stood strong in the mandab for she didnt want to break down before that family, her very own family...they dont deserve her nor her tears....

Her mom, the more emotinaly strong women she was...had come searching for her after she consoled her dad to find her washrrom locked with sound of running water...

"Mullai...mullai"...kadhava thora ma.......evalo neram aachu...unaku edum aayidum....", her mom said and her mind mocked her with "Innum enna aaga iruku, ellam mudinjidiche"..

"Ammadi mula...kadha va thora ma....appa solren la...."  broken voice of her dad reached her ears...

She was aware she had caused enough humilitation, enough hurt for both her parents, all thanks to her wish of being married to Jeeva and they didnt deserve more for supporting their only daughters wish...

                      காதல் என்றால் வெறும் காயங்களா ?

                         அது காதலுக்கு அடையாளங்களா?

With these thoughts, she woke, opened her washroom door,

Mur: enna ma ipdi nenanjiruka.....parvathy...pullaiku thuni aa mathi vidu....and her father left...

Mul: amma...naan dress mathikuren...nee appa voda iru...enaku konjam neram thaniya irukanum....and looked at her mom to see her eyes showing the fear of leaving alone, what if she did something stupid....

"amma....naan unga ponnu ma.....ungala madiri romba thairiyamana ponnu...bayapdadinga", she said rather consoled her mom n her self......

Parvathy left her daughter for she knew her daughter needed some time alone in soltitude.....to settle down...the tornado in her mind....

She heard her kasthuri athachi provoking her mom against her ....no no...pandian stores family...yes, finally, there came a break between her and that family....

The whole day and night she cried, like there was no tomorrow, till there was no tear left in her lacrimal gland....and slept somewhere in the darkness....

                     வெயிலா மழையா வலியா சுகமா எது நீ?

She woke up the next day with a bad headache and heartache...which one pained more...she doesnt know till date....

But, she woke up and went out to find her parents settled in their own sorrow....this was not good for them and so, she went near them...voicing out..with a feeble voice

"Amma pasikudu" these two words could bring any parent out for their children...and her parents were not any expectation...

Her mom made some food, and she forced herself along with her parents to eat or rather gulp down.....

Many days and nights passed by in the same routine of self pity and brooding for her and her parents....Rarely, they stepped out of the house....

But like all good and bad things came to an end, this also came to an end....there came a day she and her parents stepped out into the temple...on her insistance...to get some calmness to her mind...After all it was "Jan 1, New Year, the start of a new year"

In the temple, she  saw quite a number of eyes turning her side, felt many whispers may be regarding her or may be not...but her mind in its mindset only made her feel all was directed to her....

She saw Jega mama, Kasthuri athachi and their son akash...was that pity her mind mocked what she saw in their eyes, she doesnt know....

She wished them a "puthandu nalvazhthukal", she genuinely wanted to get out of this self misery shit and what better than a new year she thought...

She would have spent merely few minutes, coming out when she saw a vision she didnt want to, she looked ahead to see Jeeva with meena and the rest of the family stepping into the temple...

                                 முதல் முறை பாா்த்த ஞாபகம்

                                உயிாினில் தந்து போகிறாய்

                                இதயத்தில் ஏனோ ஓா் பாரம்

May be her destiny is just bad enough....she thought....when she heard those whispers in a clearer voice,

"Idan di inda ponnu irukale mulla, ava katika nenachaven...ipo inda ponna kalyanam panikitan, inda ponnuku edo prechanai illamaya irundirukum", gossiped the nosy aunties and she rushed from the temple only to hit against Nithya....

Nithya: mulali...enna di achu...

She didnt reply a word but rushed to her home with her parents in her tow....

She was in her room crying, with her parents caressing her when she saw her friend coming in....Nithya...

                          மழை வரும் மாலை நேரத்தில்

                             மனதினில் வந்து போகிறாய்

                               விழியினில் ஏனோ ஒரு ஈரம்

Nithya: amma, appa....naan mullai kita pesanum ma.....

Parvathy and murugan left the house giving them space ....

Nithya: mulal...enna di idelam...oru maasam achu...innum evalo naal dan ipdi....

Mul: naan enna di thappu panen ....and she cried....

Nithya: nee enda thappum panala la....apram yen di azhuvura....paru appa amma epdi irukanga nu....

Mul: naan ellam marakanum nu nenachu veliya ponale......ella kanum enna pakara madiri iruku....ellarum enna pathi pesura madiri iruku....

Nithya took a deep breath...

Nit: nee yen veetlaye iruka....nee padichava dane.....edachum vela pakalame.....

Mul: olaradha nithya...naan B.A Computer Graphics and Animation padichen...aduku lan kunnakudi la enna di vela kadaikum....onnum illa.....

naan ellame thappu dan paniruken......padicha padipu thappu.....vazha nenacha vaazhka thappu.....

Nit: kunnakudi la yaar di vela paka sonan....nee veli oor po...

Mul: kashatam di.....adelam unaku sona puriyadu...

Nit: unaku dan sonna puriyala mula....nee inga ipdi adanji kedanu azhudu azhudu appa amma ku dan vedanai kudukura.....

Enaku sola vendiyada soliten.....avalo dan...nee veliya va....ellam maraka enna pananumo panu....

Naan kelambaren and nithya left after speaking few words of consolation with parents....

The next few days, all she did was brain storming on what she should do or how she should go ahead in future....

After many days, she went to her father with a clearer mindset...

Mul: appa....

Mur; ammadi mullai.....vaa ma...

Mul: appa enaku .....enku...

Mur; appa kita enna ma thayakam...solu enna ma....

Mul: appa...enala inga iruka mudila pa...enga ponalum....yaarachum edachum kekuranga...paakuranga....

ellam en thappu nu solranga pa.....

Mur sad with teary eyes...

Mul: adan pa...naan konja naal inga irundu velagi irukava...

Mur: epdi ma...enga ma...

Mul: appa....naan chennai pota pa....

Mur: anga eduku ma....enan ma solra...

Mul: appa anga poi padikaren pa....edachum pana manasu konjam lesa irukum...ellam maraka mudiyum pa.....

anga naan padicha course ku sambadma oru  year PG iruku pa....ungaluku okey naa naan poren pa.....

Mur: ammadi....nee thaniya epdi ma....

Mullai knew this would be hard....but she wanted to really get out of here.....she didnt know how to make him accept when her mom came as a support..

Par: ava potum nga...poi padikatum.....

Mulali had a genuone smile on her face after long and that was enough to make her dad nod to her wish...

Mullai hugged her mom with tears...

Mul: thanks ma....

Par: azhada ma..........unaku nala irukum unaku naladu naa nee panu ma.....engaluku un sandoshatah vida enna ma venum....

and kissed her hair......

That day, in their house a small dawn did arise...breaking them out of the darkness.....

Next few days went off in applying the course, she decided to go to ICAT, in chennai...she decided her course it was, P.G in Advertising Design.

She knew this would put a big hole in her fathers pocket, it costed around 2lakh for 2 years, how does she explain to him....how would she arrange money...but he had said, " Amamdi...appa iruken nee kavala padadha" and later one night accidently heard her father convo with her mom on how he had decided on pedging  their house....to arrange for the funds.....for her education....

With that, she barged into their room...made a ruckus that no need to pledge their house and brought the jewels she brought with so much happiness for her wedding, handing him that, she said she didnt want them anymore...., she hoped that the last memory of wedding would be gone....with this jewels , like her silk saree she had torn with so much grief

Mul: " paa...inda nagai aa vithudunga...naan inda kasula padikaren....enaku anda kalyanthoda enda nenaivum venam......nan erkanave ungaluku nariya seramam kuduthuten...iduku mela venam.....neenga othukalati ....naan edum padikala" she blackmailed  and  left the room...leaving her parents with no option.....

Her parents gave in to her demands and within a month, she was ready to leave Kunnakudi for good temporarily.....

When she stood in the bus stop, with her parents and a bag, all set to take her bus to Chennai, where she hoped for her better future....she saw a TVS 50 and a guy on it, not any random guy, to be more precise, her cousin, not the one who rejected her....but the one she rejected .....God knows why he stood there with this face...like as if he felt pity on her....but she had learnt from her mistakes that....that house or the family members can never feel anything for her...not even remorse.....

Giving a final look, she boarded her bus to Chennai.....

Believing all that happened was for good or for best, not knowing back then what or rather whom Chennai had in store for her.......

 A bark brought her out of her memory lane, it was rabbit.....her pet...

Knowing they are back, she rose from her place to spend time with her family........

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