(Y/N)'s P.O.V

I know I'm not fine at all. I know that I'm broken. I-I knew that Zayn wouldn't come back to me. He promised. He fucking promise me!

Even though its been a year, I still can't move on. I have been smoking and getting drunk since the day he left. Not even a second did I ever stop thinking about him...wondering if he ever thinked of me. But I guess...he moved on.

I drank the strong alcohol as I looked at the person in front of me. She was Zayn's best friend and also my greatest enemy. I fucking hate her.

"You know you should stop thinking and drinking for him."Lily said, rolling her eyes and taking a gulp of her drink.

"I can't...but I'm trying to."I said. I've tried but...it didn't work. I wish that I could forget him like he forgot that I ever existed.

"Just try.. to forget him."She said. I drank the whole bottle and instantly felt dizzy.

"I am trying. But whenever I start to think about him... the pain in my heart would increase and the hole in my heart is becoming... bigger just like how I fucking miss him. "I slurred. Even though I'm drunk, those words that came out of my mouth are the truth.

"Y-your really broken...(Y/N). Right now, I felt sorry for you. You need help. You need to get better."Lily told me. I sighed as I looked around the club. I don't need help.

I need him....

I need Zayn.

"Don't need a doctor. I need Zayn."I quietly said. She sighed deeply and looked at me with sympathy and sincerity.

"(Y/N)...look. I- you should just move on. I-I heard that Zayn's engaged. " As soon as those words came out of her mouth, I froze. He is fucking engaged?! How could he do this to me?! How could he?! He fucking made me wait for him and turns out, he would never come back?!

"I-uh.."I stammered. Is it possible to say that my heart is now breaking into smaller peices? If yes, then my heart is breaking into small pieces.

"I'm sorry." Lily muttered. I glance at her before glancing back down to the empty bottle on the table.

"Its okay. I'm used to it..."

"Used to?"

"..used to have people leaving me."I responded. She teared her gaze from me and glance at the floor.

"Yeah. I'm used to it. I'm used to people hurting me. Thats why I fight sometimes."I could feel my tears building in my eye. And before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face.

"It hurts."I whispered.

"What hurts?"She asked.

"M-this."I pointed to my heart.

"Oh..."

"Yeah. Its better to have an amnesia than to have your heart broken."I said. I miss him. I hope he misses me too.

"I should go."She stormed off the club leaving me alone.

I frowned as I walk out from the club. I climed in my car and droved. I know I'm drunk but I don't care. All I care is about Zayn.

I was turning on the music when I saw bright lights and a loud honk. And before I knew it, I passed out...

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I woke up and took a look at my surroundings. This isn't my room! I glance down at my outfit and saw that it was a hospital gown.

I'm in a hospital.

The door flew open to reveal someone I wasn’t planning on seeing. Woah! He looked so matured.

"Zayn?"I whispered.

"Yeah baby. Its Zayn."He said and smiled. I didn't smiled back. Instead I looked at him with fury and rage.

"What the hell are you doing here?!"I exclaimed.

"Lily called me."

"I don't care. You left me Zayn. You left.. you said you would come back for me! Your a liar!"I yelled at him. He frowned at my words and tooked a deep breath.

"I-i'm sorry."Zayn said. Tears were rolling down my face and so is his.

"Why did you come back?!"I asked him. I was clearly annoyed by his presence. I know I said I missed him but... I'm more angry at him.

"I-I don't know."

"Just go Zayn. Just leave already!"I shooed him away. I was clearly broken. 100 percent broken.

"Okay. I'll be back to talk to uou tomorrow. "He said and stormed off.

I cried myself to sleep knowing that he only came back because Lily told him to. I am broken.

And no one can fix it...

A/N: Hi guys :) So how was it? Hoped you like it! Anyways please vote for this pref.

~B. Payne