The concert was incredible! I was lucky enough to be staying next door to Liam and Harry. I am so happy right now, nothing can change that. My ears are still ringing from all the screaming fans. Feeling sleepy I went off to bed, I dreamed of Liam. Liam has always been the star attraction, his lucious body resembles that of a vase my friend Henare made for me.

I remember waking up after the first night of the tour... It was the middle of the night, I could feel my back against the floor. Liam dragged me out into the hotel lobby and then into his room, my vision is blurry. He must have drugged me. I can feel his foot digging into my side, my heart is pounding. I am coughing up blood now. He is holding a knife and I know deep down that this is my fantasy. His hands were clasped around my throat, sucking out all of my memories. No. This can't be how I die. I remember Harry, Louis, Zayn and finally Niall all running towards me. They began to hurt me, rape me, they were all smiling. Tears rolled down my hot cheeks.

Its been 7 years since I was raped by one direction. I think I understand now just how fast the night changes.