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myg : is it okay to fall in love with someone who doesnt even love himself? , people ask. of course you can. love him until he starts seeing his worth , until his ears hurt from your nagging , until he starts seeing the good things in bad. and eventually , he will love himself. because that's what i'm going to do and i know it'll work.

i hope it will.

myg : im sorry , hoseok.

myg : i hurt myself again and i dont think i can stop.

myg : i love the wrong person and i dont think i can stop.

myg : jung hoseok , stay happy.

myg : you're the brightest star in this dark world of mine , dont stop believing in yourself.

myg : why are we distant???

myg : happy birthday ^^

myg : im sorry for nagging you

myg : hi

myg : want to eat ice cream? my treat.

myg : i let them get me

myg : i let them haunt me

myg : i let them hurt me

myg : i let them abuse me

myg : where are you?

myg : im in love with a liar

myg : do you need help?

myg : im so happy hobi , i've done my part in your life.

i've achieved my goal.

myg : when will i move on? who knows

myg : there's something you need to know

myg : i love you , i always have.

myg : you're the only one who i love

myg : you're my first love.

myg : starting from the day i heard your laugh , saw how your smile reached your eyes , starting from the day i knew that you're the light i needed to light my path.

myg : goodbye , hoseok.

myg : :)

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jhs : i love you too , hyung

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jhs : fucking send

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jhs : i fucking love you yoongi

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jhs : why did you leave

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jhs : FUCKING SEND GODDAMNIT

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jhs : HYUNG PLEASE

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jhs : i love you

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jhs : im sorry.

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one day , hoseok will come to love himself as much as how he loves yoongi.

and soon , that day came , he started seeing things better , he wore the clothes he wanted to wear and more importantly , his love for yoongi never decreased.

one day , yoongi will stop hurting himself , he promised. similar to how he kept his promises with hoseok

but when will that day come ? the day in where yoongi starts to be selfish? the day in where yoongi stopped caring for hoseok?

until it dawned on him that—that day will never come.

fin