Honestly... I don't know how to feel about everything that has just happened.. Zayn was so much more than just a band member to me. He made me happy when I wasn't. He made me feel stronger than I actually was. He brought up my hidden smile. I loved how we're kind of alike. I'm shy, artsy and like to be by myself sometimes, and knowing that Zayn was like that too made me feel like I had someone there with me. And with him not here, I feel like I've kind of lost some of my strength. :(

I know he's not offically gone from the world, but I hope that in the future, that he may possibly come back... I'd hate to know how the other boys took the news 

I woke up this morning and this news was the first thing I saw, and I immediatly started to cry. It physically hurt me inside to read what was happening. I had to take the day off school because I knew people were going to bring it up, and from my state that morning, I didn't know if I could take hearing the teasing from others. I already get bugged by others for having a freaking pencil case with their faces...

Zayn will forever have a special place in my heart, and I don't want to take that away... I'll miss you Zayn. I hope you're okay and that you have a good break from all the shit that's being said about you. 

If anyone needs to let out any steam/feelings about what has happened, feel free to inbox me :')

Love from me and every directioner <3 
-Chloe xx