"Oh" Spencer moaned contentedly "I can't even move"

"I would actually prefer you didn't" Toby said as he kissed down her bare back.

"You couldn't possibly be able to go again?" Spencer said propping her self up.

"I really like what I do to you, it gets me all hot and bothered" he breathed into her ear.

"I want to ask you something you may not like" Spencer said turning over and breaking their post coital moment.

"What is it?" Toby asked as he placed a comforting hand on her cheek.

"I want us to agree that we won't sleep with anyone else, while we're sleeping together."

"Ok" he said "I can deal with those terms"

Spencer got out of bed and got dressed.

"Where are you going?" Toby complained.

"I am meeting the girls for lunch" Spencer said.

"Are you sure that I can't entice you into staying?" Toby asked kissing her as he pulled her into his arms

"No I have to go. I will come back tonight and we can pick up where we left off." Spencer said running her hand through his hair.

"Ok" he said waving her away as he flopped back onto the bed.

Spencer walked into the Apple Rose Grill. At a table in the corner she saw her four best friends huddled over gossiping.

"What are you four gabbing about?" She said as she slung her purse over the last empty chair.

"Ok, so you know Caleb is out of town and my car was making this noise right." Hanna began. "Well I went over to Toby's so he could take a look at it and he was with this girl..."

"You just walked into his apartment" Spencer interrupted while trying not to seem like she cared too much.

"Well the door was unlocked and you do it all the time" Hanna defended.

"Who was the girl?" Spencer's heart hammering in her chest. She knew very well who the girl was. She and Toby had made an agreement not to tell their friends about their sexual relationship.

"I don't know but she was all like 'you own me!'" Hanna said in a mocking tone.

"God, that is so pathetic" Aria said shaking her head.

"Who do you think it is?" Ali asked the girls.

"I don't know" Hanna remarked "I saw him go upstairs with Riley at Mona's party but Riley swears they didn't hook up."

"Well, who ever she is I feel bad for her" Ali piped up.

"Why?" Spencer scoffed still trying to act like she had no stake in the conversation.

"Look" Ali said backing off "I know you and Toby are besties but you can't deny he's a total man whore"

"He hasn't had a relationship in....well never" Hanna said "I hope that girl knows he's just in it for the action and as soon as he finds someone new to bang she'll be history."

"You know" Spencer said jumping up like she'd forgotten something. "I totally spaced on helping my mom out with paperwork today. I gotta go."

The girls gave her a goodbye none the wiser of what was going on.

Spencer had told Toby she'd return after lunch with the girls but she was barely holding it together and she wasn't about to go back to his place sniveling like an insecure girlfriend. It was just sex, if Spencer treated it as more he would end it, permanently scarring their friendship. She had to be cold and emotionless. She also made a mental note to not say "you own me" when they had sex.

Spencer went to her parents house hoping no one would be home. She needed a pint of ice cream and a good long cry. Spencer walked into the kitchen and grabbed a pint of peanut butter and chocolate ice cream out of the fridge. She opened it as the tears began to fall.

"Spencer?" She turned to see her mother's concerned face. "What's wrong?"

"I didn't think anyone would be home. I just wanted some alone time." Spencer explained.

"Well, I just came home so I could check your father's calendar. Melissa called and she's gotten engaged to Wren, the med student she's been seeing and she's bringing him home to meet the family in two weeks."

"In two weeks when?" Spencer asked. Her sister wouldn't dare.

"The weekend after next. I was thinking we'd have a big fancy dinner at the club on Saturday."

"I can't make Saturday" Spencer said starting towards the stairs to her room. Her parents had kept it just the way she left it, for times when she needed her own space.

"Why not?" Her mother snapped as if Spencer was being unreasonable.

"Because Saturday, in two weeks is my birthday!" Spencer yelled before running up to her room before her mother could respond.

After eating the entire pint of ice cream, Spencer passed out in her bed.

***
When Spencer woke up she realized she was wrapped in Toby's arms. She wiped her eyes of the dried on tears before turning in his arms to face him.

"Hey" he whispered "what's going on?"

"Nothing" she said not wanting to admit that she was upset over him. "What are you doing here?"

"Well, I was waiting for you to come back and Hanna called to ask me to check out her car. She said you were helping your mom. Then your mom called and said you were really upset" Toby explained.

"Melissa is introducing her fiancé to my parents at a big fancy dinner on my birthday" Spencer cried.

"Yeah, she told me that bit" Toby said "but she also said you were upset before that"

Spencer rolled her eyes.

"I don't want to talk about it" Spencer said.

Toby pulled the blankets over their heads.

"There's no secrets in the bed" he said jokingly. It was an inside joke between them. Over the years they had spent lots of hours in one of their beds talking about their hopes, fears, dreams, disappointments, heartbreaks. Spencer knew that Toby was trying to make her feel better but it ripped her open. She'd been keeping an awful secret from him for years.

"I can't lose you" she sobbed into his chest.

"You're not going to lose me" he said holding her tightly. "I promise baby"

Toby began to undress her.

"No ones home" he whispered teasingly.

Spencer wasn't in the mood but she didn't want Toby to know it. As Toby pumped into her all she could think about was what the girls had said and how this relationship would eventually end. She barely registered Toby's moans as he climaxed solo, something that hadn't happened once in the time they had been together.

Toby panted above her, breathless and sweaty.

"Now do you want to tell me what the hell is going on?" Toby asked completely flabbergasted.

"I'm sorry" she cried covering her face.

"It's okay" Toby said as he kissed her forehead before rolling over and pulling her to his chest.

"I'm just preoccupied" she said hoping that Toby would leave it at that.

"Why don't we go back to my place....I'll make you dinner...we can watch some tv...and I'll give you a massage...and then I'll give you multiple mind blowing orgasms."

"Ok" Spencer said kissing Toby.

As Toby drove to his loft he thought about the girl sitting next to him. He loved Spencer. He had always loved Spencer in a friend way but this was morphing into something else. He couldn't imagine going back to just friends. Not being able to kiss her whenever he wanted, not waking up to her beautiful body. He had no idea what she was thinking. It bothered him that she hadn't cum at her house. If he couldn't make her cum she'd end this and he couldn't bare the thought. He had to make her cum tonight. He had to prove his worth to her again.

"Toby" Spencer said hesitantly.

"Yes sexy?" He said as he pulled into his parking spot.

"Would it be okay if we don't have sex tonight?"