"You'd lose your mind trying to understand mine."

- Anonymous

36|| I Loved Her First

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8 years old.

"Hmmm hmm..." I hum as I pick some flowers from my garden. I tie the stems up together with three pieces of grass and smell it. "Brother would love this!" I giggle. I let out a deep breath and look up at the sky.

It's so beautiful today.

I take in the refreshing air and lay down on my back. "Naaa na na... Nana na na na... Nana nana..." I sing and close my eyes. "I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream. I know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam. And I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem. But if I know you, I know what you'll do, You'll love me at once the way you did once upon a dream. But if I know you, I know what you'll do, You'll love me at once, The way you did once upon a dream."

"You have a beautiful voice." I hear a soft voice says.

"Huh?!" I sit up and see Luda smiling at me. "Oh! Luda..." I let out a relieved sigh. "Thank you." I smile and pat the spot next to me. "Come sit."

He stares at the spot and slowly lowers himself to sit next to me. His cheeks were crimson red and I poked them. "Wah! It's burning up!" I giggle. His face turns a darker shade of red and he turns away.

"It's just a little hot." He shrugs.

"Hmm." I start picking at the grass.

"Do you like to sing?" He asks.

I pause and tuck my hair behind my ear. "I do."

"You're really good. You should sing more often." He says and I bite my bottom lip.

"I'd... Love to but..."

"But...?" He peers at my face and my cheeks heat up. I look away and sigh.

"Well... My voice is kind of like a Siren's so..." I purse my lips and he nods understandingly.

"Yeah... I did get a little out of it when you sang." He smiles and I giggle.

"Sorry..." I shrug.

"Ah-no... No... You don't need to apologise for having a beautiful voice." His cheeks turn red and he looks away.

"T-Thank you. But... I love singing, I wouldn't even mind having a terrible voice, at least I'd be able to sing in front of people without having to be afraid of blowing their brains out."

"Blowing their brains out?" He chuckles.

"I-I don't know." I giggle whilst shaking my head.

I look up and see him gazing at me with a soft smile. "S-so... What are you doing there?" He points to the poppies in my hand.

"O-oh!" I had made a poppy chain without even noticing it. "A-a poppy chain." I say and he stares at the chain. "Want me to teach you?" I smile and he grins.

After chatting, getting to know each other and teaching Luda how to make a poppy chain, we walked down the hallway to my room.

"Wait..." He takes my hand and pulls me behind a pillar.

"W-What's wrong?" I whispers and he covers my mouth.

"Angel." He says and my eyes widen.

To be honest, I feared Angels, ever since they killed Rosa. I was terrified of them.

I grip onto Luda's vest.

"S-stay here okay?" He says and I shake my head.

"N-No... Don't leave me." I hug him.

"I-It'll be okay." He smiles and walks out. I place my shaking hand onto my chest and close my eyes.

"There you are." I open my eyes and the Angel grips my wrist with his cold hand.

"NO!" I screamed and the Angel covers my mouth.

"Come on princess, it's--"

"HEY!" Luda's voice calls out and the Angel's grip loosened. I yanked my hand away and ran towards Luda.

"No no no." The Angel lifts me up in the air and pulls me back.

"LUDA!"

"Let her go!" Luda growls and his eyes glow red.

"Stay back little demon!" Luda flys back and hits the wall.

"NO!" I cry and reach out for him.

"Now now, be a good little princess and come back home." The Angel strokes my hair and I stare into his eyes. I felt my chest being pulled towards him and he smiles. "That's a good girl." He turns around and flys up into the air, with me in his arms.

Seeeeet!

He stops and looks back. I follow his gaze and see blood oozing out of his pure white wings.

Fact: Angel's are immortal to humans, they can only be killed with a demon feather to their wings, or heart. Same goes for the demons.

Seeeeet! Seeeet!

Several more black demon feathers penetrate his wings and he slowly falls down. Letting me go I feel myself fall.

"Eeek!" I close my eyes.

"I got you." A voice whispers. Luda. I open my eyes to see Luda gazing down at me. "I'll always protect you." He says and I feel my face heat up.

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"How the fuck did that motherfucker get in my house!" My brother roars and all of the staff/demons bow. "You useless cunts!" He snaps a demon's neck and the demon's head rolls on the floor.

I close my eyes and bury my face into Helena's hair. She rubs my back and sighs.

"You stupid motherfucking dimwits!!! This is a big fucking deal!!!" My arms around Helena's neck tightened. "IF ANA HAD STEPPED INTO HEAVEN'S GATES, YOU WOULD HAVE ALL CEASED TO EXIST!!!"

"LUCIFER ENOUGH!" Helena snaps and I cringe. "Stop it." I look up and see my brother in his half satan form, staring at me, panting. My eyes prick and I cover them.

My brother looked terrifying in his half satan form. No one has ever seen his true form, well, no one alive that is. It is said that when my brother is seen in his satan form, you immediately drop down to the deepest part of hell.

He frowns and crouches down. He returns to his normal form and holds his arms wide open. I stare at him for a moment before bursting into tears and running into his arms. "I was so scared!" I cry out painfully.

"You're fine. You're okay." He hugs me tight and rubs my back. He slowly stands up and waves his hand. The demons all bow and exit the room. He sits down in front of the fire place with his legs crossed. As I quietly sobbed, he hugged me tightly whilst rocking back and forth. "You're okay... I'm here." He kisses my hair several times and strokes it.

"I was so scared. I was so so scared." I grab a fistful of his hair and cry my heart out.

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"We're going to a party!" Helena sings as she brushes her hair.

I smile and look back down at my book.

"Ana! Why are you reading so much!" Helena says and I look up. "You look like a nerd!"

"Uh huh." I look back down and she throws the book. "HEY!"

"Come on! We gotta go! I'll be waiting!" She skips out of the room.

I sigh and walk over to my book. I pick it up and place it on my vanity table. I look at my reflection and cringe. I tie my hair up messily and shrug.

I walk towards the door and reach out for the handle but the door opens itself. "Oh!" I jump up a little when I see Luda peek his head out.

"Milady." He smirks and I stare at him.

"Oh um!" I run back into my room and rummage through my drawer. "Found it." I walk back to Luda and hold it out.

"A poppy chain?" He looks up at me and I groan. I place it on his head and giggle.

"You look cute." I stick my tongue out and his face slowly turns red. "It's to thank you, for saving me." I tuck my hair behind my ear at stare at my pink socks.

"O-oh." Is all he says.

"Thank you." I smile and quickly peck his cheek. I pull away and he places his hand on his cheek. I purse my lips and briskly walk away.

--Luda POV--

That is how I fell in love with Anakaia.

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I just had a chocolate fucking pudding and... Oh my god... HEAVEEEEN. About 10 chapters to go!

- Luca