May 11th, 2016

Direct Message from ReginaMills to RobinOfLocksley

ReginaMills: I know you'll never open this, but I need to do something

ReginaMills: I talked to Archie and he told me to write you a letter, so here goes nothing...

ReginaMills: Dear Robin,

I love you, more than you'll ever know. And I know it doesn't mean much now, but I'm still wearing my engagement ring. I don't think I can take it off, it would just feel wrong. But it also feels somewhat wrong to wear it and know it can't mean anything anymore.

Roland is doing a bit better, I guess. But it's been hard on both of us. And then there's Emma and Hook prancing around like nothing bad even happened, and Emma will turn around and wonder why I'm so irritated by her.

But I know you would tell me to be nice, so I'm trying. I really am. It's just so hard, because no one understands. I guess I don't really need them to understand, because you couldn't fully understand what my mother put me through, but you were still able to comfort me. I think it's more so the fact that they all think they understand, but you, Robin...you understood that you didn't understand. I wish someone else could be like that. I guess maybe Belle would, but she's still under the sleeping curse and Gold put her in a box for some reason.

I know I'm rambling, but I just want to tell you about everything you've missed. It's not much, because it's only been three days, but I already miss you too much to cope. I don't think I can cope. But not even death will help me now, because you're not there. I just want to see you again. To hear your voice and be wrapped up in your arms and feel like nothing can hurt us. I miss that feeling, even if it was a safety built on lies.

Zelena and I named your daughter Robyn, after you. But I wish more than anything that you could still be here to raise her. I know Robyn would love you.

Arthur and Hades are both gone too, which Zelena isn't doing too well with. But Arthur is still in the Underworld according to Hook, so it's possible he could come back during hiatus. But I think everyone else who came back last time is in Olympus or the River of Lost Souls.

I'm running out of things to say.

I can't watch Doctor Who anymore because it makes me think of when we would watch it together. Same with the Librarians and Gravity Falls. And I handed the mayor job over to Snow full time because I can't go back in my office. Not after what happened. I know she has baby Neal, but I just can't handle going back there anymore. I don't even care if Snow fills the office with ugly paintings of birds.

Emma accidentally let it slip to me that Marian heard about what happened. I know it's terrible, but this is the first time I've actually felt bad for her. I mean, you're gone forever and even if you weren't, you chose me. And she died when her son was almost too young to remember her.

And I know, if you could tell me one thing before you were gone forever, it would probably be to move on, or to go back to Daniel, but I can't. Not after falling in love with you. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone before, besides maybe Henry. But I know I can never be fully happy without you by my side.

I love you, Robin. I love you more than words could say. And I miss you every second of every day.

Love,
Regina Mills (formerly Locksley)

RobinOfLocksley: Formerly? What happened?

ReginaMills: ROBIN!

ReginaMills: I simultaneously hate you and love you so much right now

RobinOfLocksley: Why?

ReginaMills: You went and died on me, you stupid thief! I can't marry you if you're dead!

RobinOfLocksley:

ReginaMills: That website doesn't exist

RobinOfLocksley: Well then at least we can still talk to each other

ReginaMills: So do you have your phone?

RobinOfLocksley: A copy of it, yes

ReginaMills: And where are you?

RobinOfLocksley: Regina, you are not going to sacrifice yourself to be with me

ReginaMills: Of course not! Just wondering...

RobinOfLocksley: I don't believe you

ReginaMills: Fine

ReginaMills: But why didn't you answer me before now?

RobinOfLocksley: I couldn't

RobinOfLocksley: I didn't exist

ReginaMills: So how come you exist now?!

RobinOfLocksley: I don't know, but I'd guess it has something to do with that letter you wrote

ReginaMills: And I meant every word of it

RobinOfLocksley: Regina...

ReginaMills: Don't tell me to move on, because I can't! I love YOU, Robin

RobinOfLocksley: I love you too

RobinOfLocksley: But if you do anything rash, I will end this relationship

ReginaMills: Robin!

RobinOfLocksley: If you love me, you will stay alive for Henry and Roland and Zelena, but most importantly, stay alive for yourself

ReginaMills: But what if I don't want to?

RobinOfLocksley: I don't care

ReginaMills: I just want you, Robin

RobinOfLocksley: Someday, but it's not your time yet

ReginaMills: It shouldn't have been your time either!

RobinOfLocksley: But maybe it was

ReginaMills: NO

ReginaMills: It wasn't your time, and don't you argue with me on this

ReginaMills: You have a son, and a newborn daughter, who need you more than anyone needs me

RobinOfLocksley: That's not true

ReginaMills: SHE'S NOT EVEN SIX MONTHS OLD, ROBIN

ReginaMills: sorry

RobinOfLocksley: Just please, Regina, stay alive

RobinOfLocksley: And don't forget to live

ReginaMills: It's not living if I'm not with you

RobinOfLocksley: It can be

ReginaMills: No

RobinOfLocksley: Please

ReginaMills: Robin...

ReginaMills: I miss you

ReginaMills: I can't go on like this, with you just out of reach

RobinOfLocksley: Yes, you can

RobinOfLocksley: Because I believe in you

RobinOfLocksley: And I love you more than words could say

ReginaMills: I'll do my best

RobinOfLocksley: Promise?

ReginaMills: Promise.

ReginaMills: I love you

RobinOfLocksley: I love you too

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A/N: Yeah, I don't have enough self control to not write about Outlaw Queen