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It's kinda angsty but it ends happy.

!Suicidal warning!

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Iris
They are named after the Greek goddess of rainbows and has a unique shape. They most likely will make one feel as if they can't breathe even if they can due to there strange shape if ever coughed up.
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Denki POV:

I'm alone in the darkness and It's fuzzy.

My memory that is. The last thing I remember is hanging out with Shinso in the kitchen. He was making me toast despite the fact that I shouldn't have eaten it because I'm fat. Then... then... what happened? I can't remember. I harder I try to remember the more my head hurts.

Ow! I think but my thoughts seem to echo in the darkness.

Weird. That thought ask seems to echo.

I need to focus. I can tell that awhile has passed since then so why can't I remember?

Suddenly it's not just pitch black anymore, it's looks like it's raining flowers. One lands right next to my foot and I bend down to pick it up.

It's a sunflower petal that is stained red at the tip. I twirl it between my fingers.

It makes think of Shinso.

Why does it remind me of him? They are bright and colorful and probably would annoy him like I do.

The flowers petals start to fall faster along with water droplets. One drops on my nose. I wipe it on my hand but when I lower it I notice blood smeared.

Blood.

My eyes widen. Suddenly I remember everything. I remember running to the bathroom to puke up the flowers. I remember trying to find ways to think about him without puking the flowers. I remember everyone figuring it out. I remember being trapped in my head after I passed out. Being in a world half way between life and death.

I need to pick a side.

Everything seems to freeze at the realization as if anticipating my decision.

He reappears.

"Time for the tough call huh?" He sits on the floor crossing his legs. "You know where I stand. On the side where you don't have to deal with judgements. Don't have to pretend to be happy when you're not. Don't have to-"

"Shut up!" I snap cutting him off. He smirks like I just said what he wants. That I want to die.

I start to pace. Back and forth. Back and forth. Back and forth. I stop.

Unlike before I am no longer afraid. I not afraid of death making it a actual option. But despite the fact I am terrified of life it is still an option.

Maybe making a list of pros and cons will help?

Death

Pro:
-No judgements
-Don't have to pretend to be happy
-No pain

Con:
-No idea what it's like, a mystery
-I would miss my family
-I would miss my friends

Okay. There, I made a list. Not to hard. I can do it again. You got this.

He snickers.

Oh shut up.

Life

Pro:
-I can see my family
-I can see my friends
-I don't have long left anyways

The last one isn't really a pro for living in general. I will add one more pro to even it out.

-I can >try< to become a pro hero

There. That's better.

Con:
-Life is unpredictable
-I'm scared of living
-I could lose my family and friends

But isn't that what I'm doing to my family and friends? Making them lose someone they love. I continue to ponder on this thought.

I really want to die. The pros out way the cons. It seems like the better option. But...

If I die I leave my family. I leave my friends. I don't know if I can do that to them. Force them to suffer through a loss.

I look over at Him. He is scowling. He knows my choice.

"You know that just because you chose this that doesn't mean I go away." I nod my head. I choosing this despite that for my family and friends.

"I want to live."

I don't know why but I felt like Wonder Woman writing the last part.

I felt like it is important to show he's not choosing life for his crush but for his family and friends.

Before I get hate for that:
~Shinso is his friend first~

Hope y'all enjoyed! Have a nice day ~Meowz