I'm so lonely. I got nobody by my side. There are people around but I feel alone. I feel empty, still missing you. And I can see you, sitting in the bus station from the other side of the street but you don't see me. I feel like a ghost. Like smoke that flies away. And even if we are next to each other I can never feel the same aura between us because you are not the same boy that I knew. You are someone else but not the man I loved. And I still feel lonely. All my friends are around me but all I can see are their shadows. And I stand with them but you can't see my reflection...

You made me sick, you made me feel wrong, feel guilty for making the wrong decision. But no. The only wrongness in my life was you.  Why did me ever met? Why did you gave me hope but then let it go? You let me go of your hand and said:
"Goodbye forever, my beloved..."
I didn't want to believe you. Why did you played with me and thrown me away?
Maybe because it was my destiny to be lonely till I die?
Maybe because it was my fault falling for the bad boy, knowing that it wasn't a good idea.
I walk alone and behind me is an only path full of the blood dripping down my pursed heart. I'm scared to look longer so I close my eyes, imagining your smile. I still didn't realize that you are together with another girl. My best friend. And I smile while my blood is burning in my veins. I sing and dance like crazy because I can't let my feelings out. I still can remember the way you held the bass guitar and the way you finger touched the buttons on the piano. I still can remember every word we exchanged and every mysterious glare that you gave me. I can't forget them but I don't regret them. I lived on the rollercoaster of your love. I loved it. 

And I'm lonely again...