Catherine paced back and forth in her hotel room. Something was on her mind since her little lunch date with April and Lydia. There were too many similarities for her to just ignore. By just looking you wouldn't notice it, but when you observed, it was all there.

Richard walked in, watching her. He could tell she was thinking, and she was thinking hard.

"Catherine......" Richard began

"Can I ask you something?" she asked stopping and facing him

"Uh sure" he answered

"Did Jackson and April ever had............a......relationship?" she asked

"How would I know that?" he asked nervously

"We both know that gossip spreads like wildfire in that hospital. If something was ever going on with April and my son, you would have known right?"

"Well......."

"So, was there anything going on with them?" she asked

"I did hear something about them but......." he began but was cut off

"And you didn't tell me?!"

"I didn't thank you wanted to know"

"You know damn well I wanted to know," she said giving him a look

"Well since you didn't know, I guessed it was because Jackson didn't want you to know" he answered.

Catherine rolled her eyes and continued her pacing.

"Why are you asking about Jackson and April? Are you planning on hooking them up Catherine?" Richard asked

"No," she said shaking her head along with her hands "It's something else"

"What is it?" he asked

She stopped in her tracks. She wondered if she should tell Richard about it. This was indeed a serious matter if it turned out to be true, and her husband should know about it.

She took in a deep breath.

"I think April's daughter, Lydia, is Jackson's"

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Catherine took Richard's advice from the night before and decided to talk to Jackson about her speculations. She met up with him in the conference room, where he had just wrapped up a meeting with the other board members.

"Jackson," she said as she walked in

"Yeah?" he said as he stacked up the papers in front of him

"I need to talk to you about something, are you busy?" she asked

"Does this have anything to do with getting me a date?" he asked raising a brow with a slight smirk on his face. He wasn't in the mood to deal with mother playing matchmaker

"No, it doesn't" she replied in a serious tone

Jackson's face softened as he noticed the seriousness in her voice. This must be something important.

"Well, sure, we can talk," he said

His mother fully walked in and closed the door behind her. She took a deep breath. This was a big deal. She could just come out and say that she thought Lydia was his. She had to take this slowly.

Jackson pulls out a chair for her and she sits down, he then takes a seat next to her.

"So what did you want to talk about?" he asked

"I wanted to talk about April"

Jackson froze for a moment. Did she find out about their past? Why would she ask about April?

"What about April?"

She sighed "You two had some sort of relationship right?" she asked

Just what he fared, she knew. There was no point in trying to hide it from her, or deny it, she was going to pry it out of him anyway.

"Yeah" he lowly replied "We had a thing"

"For how long?"

"I don't know, maybe a few months" he answered

Catherine braced herself again, she was about to ask a difficult question.

"Did this 'thing' continue after her wedding?" she asked

Jackson certainly wasn't expecting this question from his mother. Did she know about their few day affair? Why was she asking this question in the first place?

"Uh......."

"Tell me the truth Jackson," she said giving him a stern look

As much as he hated his mother meddling in his life, he didn't want to lie to her.

"Yes," he answered "It started at the boards, the night before to be exact. But after a little.......issue, we broke things off and she met Matthew. Then they got married and......she was moving away and I couldn't deal with it, I didn't want her to leave, and I told her I didn't want her to leave........and then one night she shows up at my apartment and.........we just.....things happened and feelings got in the way and we......had sex.......a few times"

"You slept with a married woman?" His mom questioned

She knew her son was somewhat promiscuous, but she never thought he would be the one to sleep with a married woman.

"I loved her, ok" he blurted out

She certainly wasn't expecting to hear that confession out of him. This was the most he had opened up with her in a long time, so she was going to continue digging.

"Do you still love her?" she asked

"Ye............wait, why are you asking me about this in the first place? Why are you so interested in April and I's past?" he asked before he got a chance to admit if he still felt that way towards April.

Catherine took a deep breath, she was about to tell him. She didn't know how he would react to it. She expected him to think that she was just overreacting and meddling in his business too much.

"I think that........Lydia is your daughter" she said

Jackson was caught off guard.

"What?" he asked

"I think Lydia is your daughter" she repeated

His face had a confused look on it "Why would you think that?"

"Did you not see that little girl Jackson? She reminds me so much of you as a kid" Catherine began

"No, she can't be..." Jackson began, he felt his heart start to beat fast

"She does that face, that same face you do when you want something," his mother said with a small smile as she remembered that look.

"That can't be, April would have told me..." Jackson said looking away from his mom

Catherine took her son's face in her hands and turned it to her.

"She has your eyes," she said

Jackson sat there still. His mind went back to the night he first met Lydia at Alex's house. That time she put her face up to him to show him that their eyes looked the same.

That instant Jackson got up and walked straight to the door.

"Jackson!" Catherine called out, but she was too late, he was already out the door.

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Jackson found himself on his favorite stool at Joe's bar. What his mother had shared with him just a few hours ago was still on his mind.

He couldn't have had a love child with April, right? But he somewhat knew that it could be true. At those few nights they had at his apartment, no form of protection was used. But even if it was true, even if Lydia was his daughter, she would have told him right?

Jackson downed another glass of scotch. He motioned for Joe to fill up his glass once again.

"Heartbeats fast, Colors and promises...."

Jackson sighed "Not this song again"

"How to be brave, how can I love when I'm afraid to fall"

Jackson sat there trying to block the song out of his head. He was unaware of April stepping into the bar behind him. Catherine had told her that she needed to talk to him. She didn't tell her why all she knew that was Jackson wasn't in the best of moods.

"But watching you stand alone, All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow. one step closer"

April sighed to herself, she remembered that song well.

Both April's and Jackson's mind went back in time, to that time where everything seemed to go bad.

FLASHBACK

"April what's really going on with you and Matthew?" Karen Kepner asked over the phone

April was on her way to Jackson's apartment when her mother called to talk. She knew it had something to do with Matthew and she wasn't in the mood to talk about it.

"I really don't want to talk about this mom," April said

"I know but we have to. Matthew called, he said you didn't want to move back to Ohio" she said

"I don't"

"Why not? You should be excited to move to a new place, with your husband, and start your new life together" her mother said

"It's Ohio, where I grew up, it's not necessarily new, and mom my whole life is here! My job, my friends"

"He said you would say that"

"I bet he did" April mumbled

"Tell me the real reason" Karen instructed

April stayed quiet. How was she going explain this to her mom?

"Does it have something to do with another man?"

"What?!?"

"He said you didn't want to move because of some man April!" her mom almost yelled, "Are you cheating on your husband April?"

April got silent. How was she going to explain to her mother that she was in love with a man who was not her husband? The silence seemed to answer the dreaded question.

"Oh my god, you are!" she said

April couldn't bear to listen to the hurt in her mother's voice. She knew that her mother was very disappointed in her. There were a few uncomfortable minutes of silence over the phone, until Mrs. Kepner decided to break it.

"April, you will stop this....."

"But mom..."

"No! You listen to me." she began in a stern tone "What you're doing is wrong. It goes against what we've taught you and what the Bible says. I don't care about what problems you two are going through, but you have to get through it. You made a vow April, for better or for worse! You are going to stop this, and stop it now!"

Silence fell upon the phone once again. April was taking in what her mother had said to her. She knew everything her mother said was right.

"Mom, I have to go," she said abruptly

"April, you better listen to me!" her mother said

"I'm sorry, I have to go," she said before hanging up

She placed the phone down and sighed. The guilt was starting to kick in, hard. It was always there, but now it was worst. Not only was she going against her parents, she was going against God! Jesus would not be happy about this.

She grabbed her keys off the table. She needed to talk to Jackson about this and quick. She walked quickly to the door with her coat in her hand. She opened the door, looked up and froze.

"Matthew?" she said

"We need to talk" he answered

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Jackson sat in his spot at Joe's, waiting for April to arrive. She didn't come over to his apartment the night before and was still avoiding him at work. Just an hour ago he got a text from her to met her there.

There was a lot on his mind, April being the center of it. He thought about what they had and thought about them moving forward from this. He had a plan. She and Matthew had been married for more than 6 months, so that meant they could get a divorce and he and April could finally be able to get married. He wanted it all with her, a wedding, children. He was all ready to take this step.

"Jackson" he heard from behind him

He turned around to find April standing behind him.

"Hey" he smiled as he watched her standing there "Why are you all dressed up? You going somewhere?" he asked knowing that the outfit she had on wasn't usually what she wore to work

April stood there silently. She wondered what would be the best way to tell him this without hurting his feelings. But then again, she didn't think there was any way she could not hurt his feelings.

"You ok?" he asked noticing her silence

"I'm going to Ohio.............with Matthew," she said

"What?" Jackson asked confused

"I can't do this Jackson" she silently said

"Do what?" he asked

"This!" she said pointing between them "I can't be in this.........relationship, or whatever you want to call it ok...........I'm sorry"

April quickly turned around and walked out of the bar, trying to hide the tears that were beginning to form in her eyes. Jackson got up and quickly followed her.

"April wait!" he called out

He ran out the door, and right up behind her as she walked quickly. He grabbed her arm and pulled her back, turning her around.

"What do you mean you can't do this? I thought you were Ok with this?" Jackson asked

"I am.......I was Ok with this, but this isn't right Jackson! Nothing about this is right. I'm cheating on my husband!"

"But...."

"Matthew is my husband Jackson, we made vows, in front of our parents, in front of God! I can't just throw all of that away.........."

"You said you wanted me! You wanted me to give you a reason not to marry him"

April sighed "I did want you, I do still want you...."

Her feelings for Jackson was still strong, that was one thing she was sure about.

"Then why are you going back to him? Why are you moving to Ohio?" Jackson asked

"Because it's the right thing to do. And I can't do the right thing and still be here" April answered trying her best to hold back the tears, but couldn't

"Why not?"

"Because you're here. I can't try to love someone when the person I really love is in the way. If I stay here, the chances of Matthew and I working this out is zero." she said

Jackson walked up to her. He lifted his hand wiping her soaked cheek.

"April......" he said leaning forward ".....I love you. Please, don't leave. I want to be with you, just you. I want to marry you and give you the field of butterflies you never got. I want us to have the awesome kid and be the awesome parents that I said we would be. You can't leave April, you can't"

He looked down at her, straight into her eyes. She looked back into his and was soon starting to regret what she had said.

"Stop making this harder than it already is" she whispered

"But..."

"Jackson please...." she said looking away from him.

Jackson sighed. He didn't want to let her go. He already lost her once he didn't want to lose her again. He stepped back as she back away from him.

"I have died everyday waiting for you, Darling don't be afraid I have loved you....."

"I'm sorry" she said as she turned around and walked away

"For a thousand years, I love you for a thousand more........."

End of Flashback

April quickly backed away from Jackson. She quickly ran out the door and out the bar, without him knowing she was ever there.

Jackson sat there remembering that night. He was a mess after April left. He stayed at the bar that night drinking for hours until Joe had to ask him to leave and called him a cab! That night changed everything for him. He was ready and willing to do what it took to be with her, but she left. Not because she wanted to because she had to. All this was the reason why they never talk about their past. Bringing that up will bring back up emotions that he took a long time to bury.

As he thought to himself, Alex walked in and sat next to him.

"What's wrong with you?" he asked noticing the empty glasses sitting in front of his friend

"Issues" he replied, not wanting to get into it

"Well, maybe this is a bad time to tell you this" Alex said

"Tell me what?" Jackson asked

"Look, I didn't want to tell you this. I didn't think it was any of my business to tell you, but Jo said I should be a good friend and tell you this" Alex began

"Tell me what?" Jackson asked impatiently

Alex took a deep breath "I think Lydia is your daughter"

Jackson sighed "You too?" he asked

"Wait, someone told you this already?" Alex asked since he expected a more shocked response from his friend

"Yes, my mother" he answered

Jackson sat there deep in thought. Even Alex thought Lydia was his? That meant that his mother wasn't just meddling, she really was serious about what she said.

April wouldn't do that right? She wouldn't have his child and not tell him about it right? That was something he had to ask her himself!

AN: Are you guys excited for the new season of Grey's Anatomy?!? I know I am! I'm kind of scared too. Whenever I think about it my stomach turns. I don't know if I'm ready for the emotional rollercoaster Shonda is about to put us on!! Let's hope she doesn't make us cry a lot this season!

And thank you guys so much for the votes and comments! I really appreciate it!