She searches for signs, yet ignores every one. Her mind is plagued with doubts. Uncertainty and failure prevents her from accomplishing anything.

Each night, she visualizes the positives. Each morning drowns them with negativity. She hates it. But she won't bring herself to end it.

"Today's that day." She swears to herself continuously, knowing her words are lies. Deep down, however, is that speck of hope and begging that she'll do it. 

Ask questions. 

Take a chance.

Discover the answers she's craved for so long.

But she never will.