A/n: I just realised that I write too many dark themes o_O Anyway, the story actually begins now :)

~ I Keep You Wonderin', Keep You Huntin' For My Lovin' ~

* JUNGKOOK'S POV * 

I felt like I was in a blissful dream. 

No bullies. No emotions. No pain. 

Absolute nothingness. 

The darkness so inviting and alluring.

So difficult to resist.

The endless temptation of submission.

Longing for silence.

But...

Something holds me back...

The distant voice of hope. 

Ever so faint...

Yet enough for me not to give up...

And this time...

It was in the form of Kim Taehyung...

The school's bad boy...

Everyone's heartthrob...

"Taehyung-ah...", I called out faintly, not sure of my current location. 

"JK! You alright!? Answer me! Fucking answer me, dammit!", he said with worry laced in his voice. 

He was worried for me? 

A weakling? 

"Is he awake?", another voice asked, his tone matching that of Taehyung's. 

"I don't know. He won't r-respond.", Taehyung said as his voice cracked and something hot fell on my cheeks. 

Tears...

He was crying...

I wanted to open my eyes and see him. Talk to him.

I wanted to tell him I was fine. And that I could hear him and feel him. 

I wanted to wipe away those glistening drops of water adorning his eyes, forming rainbows on a cloudy day as light bounces off them.

"C'mon Tae. There's no point sitting here.", a hard voice said. 

"I-I s-suppose s-so.", he said as he sniffled. 

And then...

There was silence...

Stark and cold...

I wanted to open my eyes...

I wanted to be near Taehyung...

But my eyes felt heavy and were not complying with my wishes. 

I was tired of the darkness. 

I wanted light. 

I wanted warmth.

I wanted human interaction. 

I didn't want to be a lifeless corpse...

Unable to move. Unable to speak. Unable to see.

I tried once again, to open my eyes but I was unsuccessful. 

I wanted to wake up from my subconscious. 

I didn't want to die just yet...

Please...

Help me wake up...

I don't wanna give up just yet...

"Jungkook? Can you hear me?", a feminine voice suddenly asked. 

"He can. But he's yet to open his eyes. He can understand what's going on around him. But he won't be able to respond just yet. He's sedated, Ms. Jeon.", the doctor said. 

Noona...

I can hear you...

"Please save my brother.", she said, her voice merely a hoarse whisper. 

Don't cry...

I try once more to open my eyes, giving it my all. 

Ignoring the bone-shattering pain and the protests of every fibre in my body, I manage to open my eyes for a split second before shutting them again.

"N-Noona...", I call out. 

"KOOK! Can you see me?", she asked frantically as her cold fingers connected with my cheeks. 

"I-I can, Noona.", I said as I opened my eyes once again; this time, the pain diminishing considerably. 

"You scared me, Kook! Please don't do this to me. I can't bear to lose you.", she said as she wiped her tears and smiled at me. 

"You won't, Noona. I'm a fighter. Anyway, where's Taehyung?", I asked her. 

"He's in the lobby waiting for you to regain your consciousness.", Noona stated. 

Before I could respond, the door flung open, revealing a tear faced Taehyung and his 5 hyungs. 

"You fucking idiot!", Taehyung yelled as he hugged me tightly. 

I winced slightly at the contact, the pain of the injuries hitting me double-fold. 

"Oh shit! I'm sorry!", he said as he let go of me and rubbed the nape of his neck in an embarrassed manner. 

"It's fine. How long have I been in here?", I asked as looked the grim faces in the room. 

"It's been 3 days.", Noona said guiltily. 

3 days...

"I-I missed Jimin's birthday...", I trailed off as tears welled up in my eyes, a dull ache in my heart. 

"We all did. Jimin probably would've killed us if we celebrated without you.", Yoongi hyung stated seriously. 

I looked up at the 6 boys and smiled a sad smile. 

My eyes found Taehyung, looking broken and dishevelled, dark circles under his eyes indicating lack of sleep. 

I averted my eyes from his face, knowing why this happened. 

Me...

I was the cause of his sorrow...

His restlessness...

His pain...

"I'm sorry...", I mumbled as I held back the tears threatening to spill. 

"Pabo! It's not your fault!", Jimin yelled at me and hugged me. 

I closed my eyes, trying to let the warmth engulf me. 

"I-It i-is.", I said between sobs. 

"Shut up.", Taehyung's voice reached my ears, my vision too blurry to locate him. 

And I did just that. 

Without question. 

"He needs rest, you all. We should leave.", Namjoon hyung said as Jimin let go off me. 

The others nodded in agreement and with a small nod or wave or a gentle pat on the shoulders, left the room. 

All except Taehyung and Yoongi hyung. 

They were communicating through eye signals, which was difficult for me to pick up. 

In the end, Yoongi hyung shrugged and said sternly,"Only 5 minutes." and left the room. 

I gulped slightly, the air thick with tension as Taehyung stared at me, his eyes hollow. 

"T-Taehyung-ah?", I called out unsurely. 

I was greeted with silence. 

"I was so fucking scared...", he said suddenly. 

"Huh?", I asked as I raised an eyebrow. 

"I was so scared to lose you...I thought I had lost you as the ambulance drove. I've never been so scared in my entire life.", he said as his voice turned raw and hoarse, overladen with emotion. 

"Taehyung-ah...", I mumbled. 

"Shh...lemme speak.", he said as he sat beside me and put a finger to my lips. 

I blushed slightly at the contact. 

"So scared that I'd never get to see your blush again...", he said as he trailed his fingers across my bruised cheeks. 

"I honestly thought that you were going to die when I came into the shop and saw those guys beating the shit out of you.", he said as his eyes became moist. 

"It makes me wanna protect you...with my everything...", he trailed off as he took in the damage of my cheeks with guilt filled eyes. 

I blushed and looked away from his face. 

I wanted to tell him it's fine.

That I'm fine...

That we're fine...

But the words wouldn't form in my mouth. 

They remained stubbornly stuck in my throat. 

"I'll protect you, JK...with all my life...", he said as he moved closer to me and stared into my eyes. 

The close proximity made my cheeks heat up and burst into fiery flames that would devour us alive. 

His breath had a minty tang to it, mixed with delicious chocolate.

I found myself wondering whether he'd taste the same as well...

"Say something...", he said breathily as I sucked in a sharp breathe. 

"I-I don't k-know w-what.", I said as I looked anywhere but him. 

Did he want to kiss me!? 

I snuck a peek at his lips which looked full and red. 

I gulped once again. 

I dared to look up at his eyes, which seemed to be transfixed upon my lips, irises as dark as the starless night with pupils so dilated that they looked absent altogether. 

"T-Taehyung-ah...", I mumbled, not sure whether he heard me or not. 

"Fuck...", he said as he bit down on his bottom lip and turned away his face from me. 

"I-Is everything...alright?", I asked cautiously. 

"Hmm...I suppose. I-I'll get going then.", he said as his ears turned red and he bolted out of the room, not turning back once. 

I put a had over my chest, wincing slightly at the contact with my bruise. 

With my heartbeat pounding in my ears and cheeks aflame, I leaned towards the huge window in the room and saw a tiny figure in a trenchcoat walking away as quickly as possible. 

I felt so confused by his actions. 

Why did he do that? 

Could he be anymore closed off!? 

But...

If he was closed off...

Then wasn't I a liar...

When I said that I didn't know what to say...

I wanted to say...

A lot...

I buried my face with my hands, not wanting to face the boiling feelings threatening to break free. 

I was afraid...

Afraid to fall...

Fall for him...

I mustn't...

It'll make things harder...

For him...

For me...

I coughed slightly, sniffling a little. 

Trying to reach out to the glass at the bedside table, I saw in slow motion as it fell from my lose grip. 

I started feeling dizzy as fits of coughing over took my entire being. 

Trying to pick up the glass that had fallen down, I lose my balance and watch as my right arm connects with the cold dado floors and the rest of my body after. 

Sucking in a sharp breath, I gasp for breath, as I felt sharp pains shoot up through my lungs, each intake of breath sharp and heavy. 

I closed my eyes trying to normalise my breathing, ignoring the sharp pains in my chest and sudden tremors which shook my entire being. 

I lied Taehyung...

Its back...

To haunt me till I die...

The last memory I had was of the nurse's voice frantically calling for help. 

I'm sorry Taehyung...

I'm sorry Noona...

I couldn't tell you the truth...

How I would perish...

Before your eyes...

A/n: This, my friends, is the result of having zero sleep and all day long online classes. I swear I re-wrote this chapter for 3 three times and still I find this chapter to be so damn crappy T-T...Is it so??

* hides in a hole where no one can find me *

- Logging off for now...

-💕Moonie💕