A/n: My playlist while writing this - Promise, Fix You (MTV BTS), Abyss, Beautiful Life (JK's cover), The Chaos Chapter: Freeze and Border: Carnival :)

~ Found You When Your Heart Was Broke ~

* JUNGKOOK'S POV *

Dear Diary, 

Today I came to know Hoseok hyung's secret. I think that I was able to get a bit closer to knowing Hoseok hyung's reason for being extroverted. And to be brutally honest, I think I might be starting to admire him a bit. He really is a strong person. I don't talk much to Jimin and the others, but I think they'd be nice to talk to as well. I really was an idiot to judge them like the rest of the population. Perhaps they simply have trust issues. And...this is a huge thing for me...but I feel like Taehyung and I've been getting closer as well. He's been open with me since the day we talked in the hospital. Perhaps, he too faced something similar?  Weird that he never decided to share things. Maybe I should ask him. For I believe trust is a two-way thing. And, I was so embarrassed the other day when I actually told him my real thoughts. I never know whether he took them to heart or not. I hope I didn't come off as as a weirdo or a psychopathic case. He's the first friend I've had in a while and I don't want to lose him because of my filterless mouth. I'd be really upset if I did something to ruin this. I still remember how he didn't want to work on the project with me and that's been bugging me for quite a while...I'm yet to actually find out what brought about the change of mind. But I won't push it. I still feel anxious around him. And on top of that, he makes my blood rush to the cheeks way too quickly. Well, why was he so much on my mind anyway? Ugh! My mind is simply getting muddled up due to all these chaotic thoughts! I should stop thinking about them so much probably. They might be kind and good and everything nice...but I suppose I'd never be 'one of them'...

Anyway, it's time I stopped. Taehyung's texting me. Gotta see what he wants now. I swear he is trouble...but a good kind :)

I'll be back later...until then, hang in there...after all, you're the only person who listens to my rants :)

- Yours, Kook

Kook's Wishlist - 

No. 13 - Having a forever with someone :) 

No. 14 - Helping out for once in the diner :/

Shutting my journal, I stand up from the steps I was sitting on and made my way towards the exit. 

I hope the janitor hadn't locked the door...

Inbox
3 messages from Taehyung
1 message from Unknown

Taehyung 
Listen...do you wanna come over? 

For the project I mean...

Btw, I gave Jimin your number. He's been annoying me a lot.

Jungkook
Yeah, sure. Same time? 

Taehyung
Cool. See ya then...

Jungkook 
:) 

Taehyung
You rchd home? 

Jungkook
Not yet. Heading out now. 

Wbu? 

Taehyung
Want a lift? 

Had cleaning duties today. Namjoon hyung's picking me up. 

Jungkook
Um...I live in 3rd district.

Isn't it gonna be a pain? 

Taehyung
Nope. It's fine. Then maybe we could study at your place? 

Jungkook
I don't think that's a good idea :(

Taehyung
Hmm...'kay. Then we'll go over directly to the dorms? 

Jungkook
Sounds great. 

Taehyung
See ya by the van then. 
Seen

Unknown
Hi...Jimin here. 

Jungkook
Hi? 
Delivered 3:30 pm

As I came out into the open, I spotted a dirty grey washed minivan standing outside the campus whilst Yoongi hyung was leaning against the door, sucking on a lollipop.

Namjoon hyung's head peeked out from the driver side window as he bobbed his head to some unknown song. 

I kept my distance for a while, contemplating the pros and cons whether I should be intruding upon their personal space. 

After all, I was merely Taehyung's friend. Nothing more.

"Hey. Why are you standing here all alone?", a voice suddenly asked from behind. 

I turned around to see Sookyung wearing a small frown on her face. 

"Soo-ah! What are you doing here?", I asked perplexed. 

"I had extra classes. I thought you had left already...", she trailed off. 

"Oh no...I was a bit preoccupied with updating my journal.", I said as I shuffled my feet and fixed my attention on the ground beneath me. 

"The world would end and you'll still be updating your journal.", Sookyung said with a chuckle. 

"Maybe.", I said with a crooked smile. 

"Anyway, wanna head home together?", she asked as she averted her eyes from my face. 

"Um...well, can I take a raincheck on that? I have some important stu-.", I began but was interrupted by an angry voice. 

"Are you gonna come or do we have to wait all day!?", the voice exclaimed angrily. 

Sookyung glared at the person behind me, while my eyes widened as I took in the seemingly tall figure of an angry Taehyung. 

Funny how I never noticed how small I would look beside his towering self...

Downsides of being blessed with a marvellous height of 5'5

"Don't speak to him like he's dirt under your sole, you lowlife!", Sookyung yelled at him as she positioned herself between Taehyung and me. 

"I'm sure he has a tongue and a voice, Sookyung-ssi. He can very well speak for himself unless he has become mute or has had speech impairment in a span of 2 seconds.", Taehyung mused with an icy glare directed my way. 

What did I do now...

"For someone as brash and brazen like you, it's better if I speak.", Sookyung said as a matter-of-factly. 

"Soo-ah...", I called out to her as I touched her shoulder gently. 

They both mattered to me...

I didn't want to see them fight...

Not now...

Not ever...

"Jungkook-ah, can I ask you a question?", Sookyung said as she turned to look at me, but not before throwing a venomous glare at him. 

"S-Sure...go ahead...", I stammered, nervous of what the question might be.

I didn't want to hurt my best friend...

I never had done it and I didn't want to start now...

"W-Was hanging out with him your 'i-important s-stuff'?", Sookyung asked as her voice cracked at the end, looking up to me with moist eyes. 

She was hurting...

I kept quiet. 

I didn't wanna hurt her...

And I didn't wanna lie...

"For fuck's sake! He was going to come over to my place so that we could finish our project. Got your answer? Now, if you don't mind, we have places to be.", Taehyung stated impatiently as he rolled his eyes.

She did a double take and then glaring at me said,"Have fun working." and walked off. 

"Sookyung-ah!", I called out as I grabbed her wrist and spun her around to reveal tears streaming down her face. 

"What do you want!? Don't you have Taehyung now!?", she said acidly. 

"Sookyung-ah...you're my closest friend. No matter who comes, you'll always stay the same for me.", I said as I pulled her close to my chest and hugged her. 

I heard her sob uncontrollably into my hoodie as she kept muttering something incoherent. 

After she had calmed down considerably, she looked at me and smiled slightly. 

"I'm sorry...I shouldn't have acted out.", she apologised. 

I nodded in approval, not daring to utter a word. 

I didn't want to worsen the situation... 

She wriggled out of my grasp and walked over to Taehyung and said something in a low voice which made him scowl. 

"All done!", she said in a chirpy voice and skipped over to me. 

"What's done?", I asked perplexed. 

"That's between me and Taehyung. Anyway, see you at work tomorrow. That is, if you can manage to drag your lazy self to work.", she said as she threw one last glance at Taehyung before walking off. 

"Lets go.", Taehyung said grumpily and made way towards his daily commute. 

I stood there, transfixed for a second, trying to figure out what just happened in the last 5 minutes. 

"I'm gonna leave your ass if you don't hurry!", Taehyung yelled in a mocking tone without turning back. 

He must be smirking...

He always does, when he's not serious...

"Coming!", I yelled as I ran to catch up with him. 

Questions loomed large over my head, but the most prominent one of them was one which I was not sure as to whether I want the answer to that or not. 

Sookyung and Taehyung...

What's going on between you two...

What am I missing over here...

Something that is right under everyone's nose...

But overlooked easily...

I was scared to know the answers. 

Scared as to what ugly truth might rear its head...

Would I lose you, Sookyung...

If I learn the truth...

Taehyung...

Would I lose you too...

When I have not found you yet...

A/n: Mood swings😶and a filler :)

- Logging off for now...

- 💕Moonie💕