"We meet again, Monday," I whispered as I look at my alarm which was supposed to wake me up 2h ago. That means I'm late, big time.

"So that's how you're gonna play?" I said as I was removing its batteries. "Ha! Now you're dead!" I said, feeling like a winner.

Yeah, Lucy, you defeated the alarm clock, good for you.

I quickly packed my stuff and run out, without checking if I had everything or what kind of weather is waiting for me outside.

On my way, dark clouds came from nowhere, or was they always there? I don't know, but soon after the rain started to fall down.

"Great, just great," of course I didn't bring my umbrella and of course it would rain. It was like every force in the universe was taking out their frustrations on me.

As I was running down the street toward my college, I passed the place where Natsu and I fooled around in rain. Remembering how I was confused with everything he said. Also remembering the feeling of freedom as we jumped around. A sad smile found a way on my face. I felt my eyes burning I couldn't tell was it because I started to cry or because of the cold. It couldn't be distinguished between rain falling down on my cheeks or my tears. Probably both.

It has been three days since Natsu disappeared, three days since I slept well and three days of endless worrying. Natsu never responded to any messages I send or calls I called, it always redirected me to the voicemail. The more time passes the worse scenarios find their way into my mind, not letting me calm down.

I shook my head to stop thinking about it and to concentrate on getting to lectures.

I was so tired of everything. I could feel my eyes getting smaller and smaller from the lack of sleep. With no energy left, I somehow got to my class. Apologizing I went to my seat in the front and sat down.

We had a Statistics. It's really hard subject but it has its good points and lectures can be really fun. Unfortunately, today was not that day. Not only it's nothing interesting, the time also passes really slowly.

I was looking at the clock ticking for two hours just to see that only a minute has passed.

I'm so tired.......and hungry.....

Looking around the class I saw almost everyone in a position similar to mine; fighting to keep their eyes open.

Levy was sitting to my left, carefully listening and writing every word a professor said. I look at her with so much respect it can't be put in the words.

She was just amazing. Even when she's tired, she won't let that stop her from taking notes and studying. I always wanted to be like her; always listening and writing, then studying that as soon as I go home.

Sighing, I looked at my professor that was running all around the room, trying to explain to us who knows what.

Freed Justine is his name. He has green hair which he swears is his real color, that goes to his shoulders. Some time ago he had it a lot longer, put rumors says he cut it to show the person he loves how much he cares about their relationship. It was something like "You don't love me as much as you love your hair"! So he took scissors right in front of that person and cut his hair, giving it all to the said person. Now, he is seen wearing a ring on his finger so I think that did the trick.

He also has a glasses which looks really good on him, with a sweater and tight pants. He always has a straight face, showing no emotions so I'm really curious about what kind of person broke his walls.

Looking at the clock on the wall I saw it only passed 4 minutes.

This is gonna be a long day.

I sighed again drawing abstract obliques on my notebook. When I came back to my senses I saw a drawing of a chibi Natsu and me. I was sitting and crying. In a bubble beside me was written: "I miss you". Natsu was behind me, with a cute smile. He was transparent representing he wasn't really there, something like a ghost.

Suprised, I looked up finding interest in staring at the board in front of me. Till the end of lectures I stared at the board, ignoring what I drew.

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Finally my suffering ended.

"And class, remember to read this from the book for more details. See you next time." Professor Justine said which was like music to my ears.

I tried to pack as fast as I could to go home and sleep. I could feel a cold lurking in my nose and throat and I needed to stop that from happening. At home, I have some tea and honey. I can't be sick now.

I walked to Levy who was still writing something in her notebook.

"Hey Levy," I said, waving my hand.

"Just a sec," she said without looking up, probably wanting to finish her writing. "Aaaaand done!" closing her notebook she stood up. Placing her bag on her shoulder she looked at me with a smile.

"Ready to go?" I asked her. She nodded and we headed outside. I really wanted to hang out with her, but I was so tired and I could feel my body slowly giving up.

"Hey, Levy?" I stopped and looked at her with apologetic eyes.

"Hm?" she also stopped. When she saw my face she frowned, "What's wrong?"

"I'm fine, just tired," I sighed.

"You look dead," she said worriedly, "Are you sure you're okay?" she placed her hand on my shoulder, looking me in the eyes. I could see an honest worry written over her face.

"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine...Just tired." I paused for a moment. She waited for me to continue, "I just need some sleep so I'll go home. I wanted to say that and apologize for not going with you to eat."

"You don't have to apologize for being tired. I understand why you're like that. Go home and rest." she smiled kindly, like a loving mother who is worried about her sick child.

"Thank you for understanding," I said smiling.

"Understanding doesn't come free," she smiled coming closer and hugging me. "Please eat when you go home", she whispered.

"I promise," I actually don't have any food at home but she doesn't need to know that, no need to worry her even more. And also I don't have an appetite so I'm not hungry. Taking a hot shower and drinking a warm tea is all I need.

With that, I went on my bus and then home.

The moment I got home I went to take a hot shower to help me relax.

The feeling of hot water hitting my face calmed me down. It's like it washed away all of my worries and pain. This was my time of peace and relaxation. I didn't need anything else to get myself back together.

After some time meditating in the bath I was interrupted by unexpected cold water. Cursing I Remembered there is limited warm weather so I had to stop and go find another source of warmth - my bed.

But before going to bed I made myself a hot green tea. I drank it slowly, feeling how it runs down my throat and in the stomach.

After drinking it I made my way to the bed.

"Ahh," throwing myself in the middle of my pillows and covering tired limbs with the blanket I fell asleep almost immediately.

Warmth and comfort surounding my body filled me with feeling of peace and security. I felt sleep taking over me and I let myself go.

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After some time I was woken by the sound of my phone. I got a message.

Unpleased with the reality of waking up, I took my phone and saw a message from Levy.

"Hey Lucy, the results from the exams came!! I'm so scared to look!!"

The moment I read that I was fully awake.

Our college has a website where we can see presentations and news about the subjects we are taking. Every student has his/her profile and only you can see your grades which are written in the section reserved for grades only.

I logged in, excited to see what grade I got.

The moment I opened the first subject my face dropped. My smile disappeared and in its place came a surprised desperation.

"No," I whispered, "This can't be." I looked at other subjects and was welcomed by the same result.

Not wanting to believe what I saw I logged out and then back in, checking again.

"It's the same," I looked up from my phone, not actually looking at anything, "I have failed everything," I whispered with the only disappointment in my voice. My brain couldn't believe what it saw.

My phone made another sound signalizing that I got another message.

"I passed everything !!! It's not all A-s but still good."

"How did you do?"

I really didn't know what to tell her. Right now there are so many negative emotions inside of me. Not wanting to say something I will regret later I turned off my phone and laid back down on my bed.

Covering myself with a blanket, trying to hide from disappointment and the world.

I don't understand how that happened. I studied so much, I was working so hard and this is my reward?

If this was not enough, what is enough? I don't even know what I did wrong! The questions were all easy and I'm positive I answered them right.

I feel so disappointed in myself, and so angry for, clearly, not studying enough.

Why didn't I study more? Why wasn't this enough?

I was interested in my thinking by some quiet noise.

I realized I was crying silently, trying to let it all out but at the same time, trying to be the smallest so no one can see what big failure I am.

I brought my legs to my chest and hugged them. In a fetus pose I cry myself to sleep.

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The next time I woke up I was welcomed by a weird smell and silent noises from somewhere in my apartment.

Quickly rising up I walked toward the noise with a confused look on my face. I realized someone was in my kitchen. Soon after a fear took over me.

Who the hell is in my kitchen?!

I heard my heart beating faster with every passing minute. I seriously have no idea who could it be and why. Only Levy knew where I lived but she didn't have a key.

Looking to my left I saw a broom. My eyes lightened with a possible weapon to defeat the intruder and defend my kitchen.

I took it in my hands and slowly started to walk to the opened door from the kitchen.

As I got closer I smelled something burning, something so terrible I could vomit right here. Trying to not think about that I took a breath in and out, readying myself for the fight.

My all preparations fell down when I hear a quiet "Fuck" from the person I was longing to see.

"Natsu!" I said as I ran to the kitchen seeing my favorite pink person. He turned toward me with a surprised look.

"You're awake," he whispered. He wanted to say something but I interrupted him by literally jumping at him.

"Where the hell were you?!" I said as I hugged him tighter, afraid of him leaving and disappearing again.

"I'm sorry," I heard him say as his arms went around my waist and brought me closer to his chest.

We stayed like that for some time, trying to make up for the times we weren't together.

Our little moment was interrupted by horrible smell hitting my nose.

"What is that smell?" I asked as I let go of him to free my hands and cover my nose. He looked at the side with a little cute smile.

"Yeah, about that...." he put his hand behind his head, '"I wanted to cook you something but it didn't turn out like I thought it would."

I looked at burned, whatever he was making, the thing on the plate and couldn't help but laugh.

My laughter only grew when I saw the rest of my small kitchen in a big mess. Everything was everywhere. I have no idea what he was trying to make with all those stuff. They don't add together.

"Stop laughing," Natsu said with a little blush on his cheeks.

"Oh, how can I not laugh. What did you even try to cook?!" I said as I laughed more while Natsu blushed.

"You wouldn't know even if I told you," he said, crossing his arms over his chests, looking like a kid who got embarrassed.

"Wait, where did you get all this?" showing at everything I surely didn't have before while looking at him.

"You know, there is something called "store". You can buy all kinds of food, you should go there someday," he said with a little smile.

"Don't act smart on me. I know where to buy food." it was now my turn to cross my arms.

"Clearly you don't," he flinched me on my forehead, "When I came here your fridge was so empty. It was a sad sight." he said, his eyes fell on my small fridge.

''About that, what are you doing here and how did you get in?" I guess Levy told him my address but that doesn't explain much about the situation right now. "And where the hell were you!!" I screamed at him, hitting him on his chest without any thoughts of stopping until I hear the explanation.

"Lucy, stop," he whispered but didn't try to stop me.

"You just disappeared. I didn't, I didn't know where were you, or if you were okay!" I felt his arms around me bringing me closer to him and stopping me from hitting him.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for not calling you back," we stayed in a hug for some time, Natsu quietly whispering "sorry".

We would stay longer like that if it wasn't for something exploding behind us.

"Shit!" Nastu let me go and turned toward the sound. I saw him panicking and was curious about what was happening. Looking over his shoulders I saw burned eggs and I couldn't hold my laughter.

"Don't laugh," he said, focusing on saving what is left of the eggs not looking at me.

"How can I not? You failed to cook ordinary eggs,"

"It's the thought that counts," he said with a smile.

"If your thought is to poison me then you're doing fine. Move, let me do it." I said pushing him away and taking the ladle from his hand.

After one hour of me epic failing at the same thing Natsu failed, and him laughing at me I gave up and we ordered a pizza. As we waited we turned the TV on and put Mr. Robot. Pizza came soon and we enjoyed in each others company. We laughed, we cried, we jelled but we were happy we are back together.

Sometime later we both fell asleep in each other arms with a peaceful smile on my face.

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Heey,

I'm sorry for posting this so late, I didn't have the inspiration to write anymore.......I still don't have so I won't write for some time.....I just want to let you know I will put this story on hold. I really hope I will come back to this, but I can't right now, I don't want to write a bad story, so sorry for the wait