I kept having really weird dreams similar to last week. There would be something that compared me to diamonds and then Alex's death and some other weird stuff. I only woke up screaming two times.

"I wanna take you somewhere" Francis said walking in the bathroom as I did my makeup
"Where?" I asked putting on lipstick
"It's a surprise" he smiled
"Alright" I finished my makeup

He took me to a bridge. It was really pretty. It was supposed to be a tourist sight.

"It's really pretty" I smiled
"I knew you'd love it" Francis smiled back

I kissed him and he kissed back.

"Take a picture of me!" I said going over and sitting on the edge of the bridge
"Can we do it somewhere else? I don't want you to fall.." he said worriedly
"Babe I'm not gonna fall" I said swinging my legs back and fourth
"John get down-"
"Why? I'm not gonna fall." I said
"John. Just get down, ok? I'll take you to see Alex" he tried to convince me
"Really?!" I got excited and let go of the rail.

Wasn't gonna fall, I told him.

I've never been more wrong in my life.

My head hit the side of the bridge as I fell to the water. I blacked out but the shock of the cold water woke me up. My head hurt really bad. I moved my arms to try and get to the surface of the water but couldn't. My foot was stuck in the rocks.

My chest hurt as I slowly ran out of oxygen. I blacked out again. The sound of sirens was all I heard as everything went pitch black.

I woke up feeling just fine. I looked over and sat Francis sobbing and hugging what looked like- me in a hospital bed?

"Babe I'm right here" I said. Francis kept crying.

"Babe?" I asked. He wouldn't look at me
"Babe!!" I shouted. Nothing.

The minister next to the hospital bed says I'm alive...

"You have an option." I heard what sounded like Alex's voice. I spun around and saw him standing behind me.
"What?! Alex I missed you!! Are you real??"
"That's aside from the point. You're in a coma. You have the decision to die or stay alive." He said in a serious tone
"Wh-what?" I was so confused
"This is as serious decision John." He said
"I want to die! I need to see you!!" I said quickly, not even thinking about it
"Laurens, do not throw away your shot. Not for me. Think about Francis and Eleanor. And how would George feel growing up without you?" He asked, putting a hand on my cheek
"I- I want to live.." I said after taking a second to think about it "Alex I want to live!!"
"Then you better fight." He said before vanishing into thin air

Fight? How?! What do I do!?! I hugged Francis. He shivered "it's cold in here.." he mumbled. "Oh my god Francis it's me!!" I screamed

I looked at myself.
"Please wake up. You have kids! They need you!! Francis needs you! Think about the way you felt when you lost Alexander! Don't do this to.." I screamed at myself. The beeps on the monitor were slowing down. My vision started to get blurry. Alex appeared again.

"It's ok if you can't do it.." he said reaching a hand out for me. I can't.

I screamed at myself to stop. To wake up. It wasn't working. Things started to fade.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

"No!! Stop it!!! I can't die!" I sobbed
"John...are you ready?" Alex asked sympathetically
"No!! I can't!!" I screamed
"I felt the same way...it's time to let go. You'll see them soon. Time passes quicker in heaven" he said, his hand still waiting for me to take
"But....I can't" I said weakly
"You lived just as long as you were supposed to and you fought hard to stay alive but times up.." he said "Cmon. Trisha would love to see you"
"But..." I wiped away tears "I'm not ready"
"For me?"

I couldn't say no to him. I took his hand. A blinding light flashed for a second and then we were in a house.

"Everything is so much better in heaven" he started "no heartbreak. no pain. no death."
"Wouldn't count on that" I grumbled
"Thought you'd be happier to see me" he teased
"I am. I really am. I just didn't want to leave yet."
"I've been waiting to see you again. Sorry about the weird dreams...I was trying to reach you again and it wasn't working" he mumbled
"It's ok" I said nuzzled his cheek
"Look Trisha's here!"

And she's not pregnant.

Anyone get the reference at all??)

I smiled at my turtle.
"Hi Trisha!!" I smiled, picking her up

Alex was right. Things aren't that bad in heaven......