a week has passed , a thick tension grew between jin and namjoon.

maybe jin shouldn't have asked after all.
maybe he shouldn't have opened his mouth at all.
maybe meeting up with namjoon again was the worst choice he made.

"my first and last love was and always will be my best friend , partner in crime and enemy. he's everything , everyone at once." namjoon spoke , after a long agonizing week of just sitting beside each other with no one talking (except for exchanging goodbyes)

"he loved to cook and he knows i love his food. so every morning , he wakes up early just to cook my favorite food.
every afternoons , despite his tight and busy schedule he always makes sure that he'd cook for me.
every evenings , he waits for me to come home before cooking because he doesnt want to feed me cold food.

he always makes sure i get to eat three meals everyday.

he knows the herbs i dont like , he knows the food that i love , he knows how i prefer my coffee , he knows everything about me and that made me feel important for once." namjoon gave me a small smile and continued on talking

"he's the most selfless and down to earth person i know. he knows my boundaries and never tried to cross that. whenever i pass out on the couch , i would wake up with him beside me , cuddling me , because he knows how i hate cold evenings and mornings. he always makes sure that my top wasnt wrinkled and my tie crooked before i go to work. but-but-" i looked at namjoon to see his smile gone , his eyebrows scrunched together and his lower lip quivering

"but i abused it all. i took all the credit , i took all the love and never left even a pinch for him. i never let him feel like he's loved , wanted and craved for. i was-and still am-bad at expressing myself , everything that i do is always wrong and we would end up fighting about it. i noticed it. i noticed how he was getting tired of me , how he always hesitates , how he looks down whenever talking to me. i notice it all but just kept quiet.

i kept quiet in fear of losing him. but what i didnt knew is that being quiet was the worst idea ever. silence separated us , silence made a glass wall between us. we were never the same. and before i knew it , we were both gone." he looked at me with tears in his eyes

"and even though he's right here infront of me , my words mean nothing because he cant remember. i want to hug him and say sorry but i cant because he's not the jin who used to love me. i want to kiss him like how i usually do but i cant.

but one thing's for sure , he's still the jin that i used to love. forever and always." jin couldnt process whatever namjoon had just said , his anxiety slowly creeping up to him.

everything was just too fast , so he ran and ran and ran until he reached the porch of his home , not looking back to where he and namjoon were just a while ago.

"what's happening?" he slid down from the door and brought his knees closer to his chest , trying to calm his pounding heart. what happened?

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