김석진

there it is again , the sudden headache i always experience everytime there'll be a thunderstorm. every lightning that touches the earth , every storm matches how long my headaches last.

no painkillers can ease up the ache , making me always coil from the pain , veins on my forehead appearing , my hands clutching on my bedsheets.

this started ever since i woke up at the hospital , with no memory on why was i there on the first place. the doctors and nurses told me that i collapsed from the loss of blood but i knew that , that was only the half truth. my friends also refused to tell me , always ignoring me whenever i bring it up.

nevertheless , i paid no attention to it anymore and soon enough it slipped out of my mind but only to return on days like these.

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the next time we met was in april.

i found him next to the hidden pond that i discovered by the woods near our house by accident. he was sleeping peacefully , soft breeze brushing through his tousled hair.

i took my time in admiring how his skin glowed under the sun , kissing every small detail of his face , arms , torso , and arms.

i approached him and sat down a little bit far from him , facing the pond.

"jinnie?" i flinched from the sudden nickname , looking at namjoon (who's slowly propping himself up , looking at me).

"j-jinnie?" namjoon's eyes grew wide upon realizing what he just said

"o-oh , i'm sorry. i just have an habit of adding ie at the end of everyone's names" he chuckled nervously , scratching his nape and looked at the ground.

"it's alright. it just took me off guard , it's a new nickname for me-i guess."

i stared at him , waiting for him to reply but when i sensed that he was waiting for me , i continued "oh uhm anyways , funny stumbling with you here" i laughed making him look at me

"oh yeah" he gave me a small smile (as always) "im thankful for this coincidence"

and then my head pounded again , tears started to form on the rim of my eyes , and before i knew it i was running away from him.