Sometimes I feel things when I  shouldn't.
Sometimes feeling exhibits signs of evolution
Other times I feel things I know I shouldn't
Most times there's no solution
So here I am, sitting in a dark room
With feeling across from me
Stirring the brains in our juices
For peace or compromise
For he leaps with every try
But it's me that always dies
And it hurts
Because dying hurts
In ways I can't cry
It hurts so much sometimes
I die before he leaps.
But he lives to be free
So he loves to free fall
Never thinking of me
Apparently,
Risks are meant to be taken
But not every risk as he's mistaken
Not like he ever gets
My explanation
So it's feeling and time
I can never seem to reconcile
When I ought to feel
Vs
When I actually do
To free feeling from his leash
Or to guide him with it
Sometimes I can't tell if I'm pulling
Or he is
But there are times
I know when I have to
But can't