"So this will be your room sweety"

"Thanks grandma"

After being kicked out of the house because my mum's a crazy bitch, it got settled that I will be staying at my grandmas house for the said timeーthe room here was a bit smaller than my room but it was better than sleeping on the park bench, right?

I got up to take a shower since I was starting to smell like I fell in a pig stein. It was 12 am now but honestly I couldn't bare sleeping with a stench.

I got undressed and readied myself for a well deserved hot bath. Usually I like to pamper myself and set up a mood when I bathe but I was feeling like shit so I just filled up the bath with hot water and soap.

It was a nice bath but I couldn't bring myself to enjoy it so I closed my eyes and decided to just sleepーI didn't sleep in there for long though since I started feeling cold after an hour or so.

I got out of the tub, got dressed and slipped into the warm fuzzy sheets, normally this would be a relaxing situation for me and I'd fall back asleep again in 1.4838 seconds but this time I didn't.

This time I stayed up listing factors as to why my life sucked ass.

I had almost divorced parents, who didn't care all that much about me but rather what I achieve, I had almost no friends so I usually sat alone, I'm the school's bullying target and I hate myself more than anyone else in this world.

Maybe I should just end it right here?

Who would care anyway?

I was slipping into a dark mindset very quick and all the horrible thoughts I thought about before started attacking me. I got interrupted by a buzzing sound before my mind wandered off to other places. Who knows what I could've done if it would've continued?

1 new message from cantbetaemed.

What the hell? Is he seriously texting me at 2am?

cantbetaemed: hey yura

cantbetaemed: you up?

yurangel: yea

cantbetaemed: I genuinely wasn't expecting you to answer

cantbetaemed: why are you up so late?

yurangel: well I just don't feel like sleeping

yurangel: what about you?

cantbetaemed: I don't feel like sleeping either

yurangel: so why are you texting me this late?

cantbetaemed: I had a confession to make

yurangel: if this is a sexual pun ill block u

cantbetaemed: lmao dw it's not

cantbetaemed: remember the prank i said i played on my mum?

yurangel: yes

cantbetaemed: well it wasn't really a prank

yurangel: i don't get it

cantbetaemed: i don't know how to say this without sounding like im making things up

yurangel: just say it tae, its okay

cantbetaemed: well

cantbetaemed: I was actually shot that day

I didn't reply for a minute because I was having a hard time processing this. How was he shot? Why? Whats going on?

yurangel: taehyung that's not funny

cantbetaemed: did i say it was a joke?

yurangel: are u serious?

yurangel: who the fuck did that to you?

cantbetaemed: my dad

I almost cried reading that but then I thought about it longer and I realized that I was actually angry. Who would do something so horrible to their own son?

yurangel: 019 567 8907

cantbetaemed: what's that?

yurangel: it's my number

yurangel: i just thought that maybe you'd like to continue talking on the phone

yurangel: you don't have to if you don't want to tho

To say I was nervous was an understatement. I knew that giving him my phone number was something that was strongly discouraged because he was a stranger online and all but I just felt inclined to, like I didn't even have to think about it twice.

My phone started to ring and I almost fell out of bed because my ring tone was way too fucking loud at this time of the night.

My hands started to shake as I went to press the accept buttonーI picked up, my heart beating 1000× faster than usual, breathing was starting to become hard too.

"Yura?"

"Taehyung?"

Okay I know this is not the appropriate time to think about this but his voice was so deep. It was kinda sexy if I had to be honest. It was actually very hot but I wasn't going to tell him that.

"Your voice is really hot"

So much for not telling him.

"I mean deep"

I could hear the sniffing noises being replaced by laughing ones. That made me smile.

"I actually thought you would have a very soft voice but yours is actually quite mature" he said after ending his hushed fit of laughter.

"It's hot"

"Thanks" I said grateful that he can't see the evident blush on my face.

"So did your mum really cry about her beautiful carpet when she saw you" I said in a joking matter so I could keep the the conversation as light hearted as possible.

"No I made that up" he said giving a small chuckle.

"She just stared at me and went back to sleep" I could feel his tone dropping a little as he continued "She's an alcoholic so yeah"

"Taehyung why would your dad shoot you?" I knew it was quick but it was just so hard to believe that a father would do something like that. My dad's a douche but even he wouldn't do that.

He paused for a second and it made me worry a bit until I realized that he was trying to hold back his tears. It crushed my heart honestly.

"He was just threatening me with the gun before he accidentally shot my arm" he paused again. "You see, my dad doesn't really like me that much so he always threatens to kill me"

"I don't know why he doesn't just do it already"

He was now full on sobbing. The sound of his cries made my heart ache, I wanted to hold him and wipe away his tears. He doesn't deserve that. No one does.

"Taehyung, can you promise me something?"

"What?"

"Can you promise that you'll call me whenever things get too tough" Please don't harm yourself.

He paused again to try and suck up his tears. "Yeah sure"

"Good, see I am nice after all"

"I guess so" He said in between chuckles.

We then talked about other silly things before falling into a comfortable silenceーit was nice, none of us spoke but it was still nice. We were just enjoying each other's presence.

"Hey yura, can I like see how you look like?"

"You wouldn't want to do that, I'm quite ugly"

"Well at this point even if you were the ugliest human being on earth, I would still like you just as much as I do now"

ー

I went to sleep that day with the biggest smile on my face. I was feeling very anxious though since I told taehyung that I'd upload my display picture on kik soonーI was freaking out to say the least.

"Awwh look who we have here" Jihyun said approaching me.

"Yura, hi" she said waving at me and giving me that annoying smug smile.

We were on the school campus and let me say that it has been a while since I came here. I mean I have succeeded in coming to school just in time for class and also sneaking into the classroom as early as the school gates open but today I came here at the normal time thinking that people forgot about me. Apparently they didn't.

"I don't understand why you always act like you're the victim when in fact you're the one who's bothering us"

Is she serious?

"I heard about how you excluded mina and sunhee from the project, who do you think you are?"

I hate her so much I could feel it. In fact I just can't stand her anymore. I was already the school's loser so it wouldn't really harm if I stood up for myself. I mean what could she possibly do more than she's already done.

"What are you gonna do about it?" I said in a lower voice than I intended to use. I actually sounded more scared than challenging. Great.

"Well I am quite the photographer aren't I?" She said showing me a picture of me and kangjoon by my doorstep.

And at that moment I had lost all sense of reason. This was all because of her.

"You fucking bitch" I screamed with tears in my eyes before getting held back by other people because I was so ready to beat her. I didn't care anymore I just wanted to punch her.

"Oooh feisty aren't we?" She said with the biggest fucking smirk on her face. She knew. She knew that her little subordinates would hold me back.

"What's going on here?" The principal yelled rushing towards our direction. By the time he approached us the person holding me had stepped back.

"Oh nothing mr. Shin" Jihyun smiled like nothing happened. He then turned to me and I was back to the yura that was too scared to actually face Jihyun.

"Yeah, nothing"

It's like she knew when to act and the moments she chose were always perfect. She makes sure the school staff are far enough, that all the students are present and that jungkook is busy.

She gave me one last smirk before walking past me and making sure that she bumps my shoulder with hers as she leavesーI couldn't look up to face any of the people surrounding me, I was too embarrassed so I just walked to class with my head held down.

I entered the classroom and took my usual seat at the back trying as hard as I could to ignore the fact that everyone was looking at me and giggling.

"Now class, it's time for you to present your projects" Mrs Kim said as she walked into the classroom.

I waited till she called out our group so we can get up and present because I couldn't care less about how everyone else did on their presentation.

Our turn finally came and as we got up on the mini stand sunhee and mina stood to the side while me and kangjoon started to present.

As soon as I got to the front, everyone started giggling at the few guys who were making gagging faces at me.

"I'll talk" kangjoon said giving me a sympathetic smile.

I just nodded and stepped down.

ー

I ditched jungkook after school ended and started walking to my dads hotel since I got the details about his whereabouts from my grandma this morning.

After my talk with taehyung last night I thought that maybe I took my parents for granted. Maybe I was over exaggerating when I said they didn't care about me?ーso now I was in front of my dad's hotel room door, waiting for him to answer.

He opened the door and gave me a smile. I could tell it was fake but maybe that's just the way he smiles?

"Hey kiddo, come in"

I went inside to see suitcases and packed boxes everywhere.

"What's all of this?"

"Oh I'm moving"

"Where?" I asked thinking he was talking about moving in to another apartment or a nearby city.

"Australia" he said casually.

Wait what?

Fucking Australiaーand he says it like he's not moving to the other side of the world?

"For how long?"

"Well I got transferred there, so I think I'll live there till I get another transfer"

"Dad, transfers take years, aren't you taking me with you?" Isn't that what all dads do?

"Well aren't you staying with your mum?"

Does he even know what's going on?

"Didn't mum tell you about the picture?"

"Oh yeah, but she did say she was taking you back in after a few weeks or so"

"Aren't you upset?" Does he even care that I had kangjoon over?

"Your mum was always way too strict, it's one of the things I'm not gonna miss about her" he shrugged.

"So I don't mind if you bring boys over" he continued.

At that moment I knew that he just doesn't care about me. He really doesn't. All of that was an act for mum. Not even for me, it's like I'm not even his daughter.

"Oh look at the time, you should probably go now"

"Are you even gonna visit?" I asked ignoring his attempts to make me leave.

"Yeah sure" he said opening the door.

"Bye kid"

He was just about to close the door before he paused, sighed and put his hands in his pockets.

"Take these" he said handing me a fat roll of money. Filthy money.

I threw it. I threw the money at his face making it splatter everywhere, completely disregarding the fact that I had disrespected my own father. The thing is, he didn't even deserve my respect.

And this time I left the hotel accepting the fact that I had completely lost my parents.

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I feel like this story is starting to suck.