I felt subtle pain all over my body and it was slowly increasing, the smaller part of me wanted to pretend to be asleep and wait for the pain to go away but the bigger part wanted to wake up and see of i was okayーi slowly opened my eyes, only to find that i was surrounded by pitch black darkness. What the actual hell?

I was shocked and scared but I still tried to get up to see what this place was. I tired to push myself up but only to get slammed against the floor again.

I was petrified now.

I reached out for my stomach area to see if I was bonded by anything but there was nothing. The subtle pain that I felt started to get worse and worse. It was mainly around the center of my body and by this point the pain was almost excruciating.

I started to frantically cry and scream for help, this can't be happeningーwhat did i do to deserve this?

I knew that no one was going to respond to my pleas so I gave up and just took itーno one cared if i was suffering or not, life goes on.

By now the pain was numbing and i could feel my head going lightーwas this it? Was i going to die now?

I closed my eyes thinking that i was done for it but only to hear a loud thud that caused me to involuntarily open them again.

I looked around and realized that the sudden loud thud was the sound of my ass making contact with my bedroom floorーI winced in pain but sighed in relief, it was just a dream after all.

I let out a long breath that i was holding in, feeling something roll down my cheeks and onto my sweatpants in the process;

It was a tear drop.

I reached out to wipe it away but soon discovered that i had several tear drops running down my cheeks. That realization made me cry harder.

This was how most of nights were like anyway.

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"What the fuck?" I said looking at my bed and wondering why I wasn't sleeping in itーunfortunately memories of last night flashed into my brain right away making me regret waking up.

I pushed myself off the ground mumbling a series of curse words that clearly hinted towards my displeasure at the decision that I made last night, which was to cry myself to sleep in this particular position.

The day was already off to a negative start despite the fact that I didn't have school todayー at least I have up till Monday to mentally prepare myself for the immense teasing that was bound to come my way, right?

I still cant believe this was all because of that stupid poll but it is 2017 so what can I expect from people?

I glanced towards the digital clock that was placed on my bedside table and to my surprise I woke up earlier than I usually do, it was about 8 o'clock in the morning right now.

I decided to make my way downstairs since my mom was probably not up yet which meant that I can actually have my breakfast in peace. I mean don't get me wrong, I didn't hate having encounters with my mom but I just wasn't ready to answer questions about why I ignored her yesterday after I came back from school.

The awkwardness of such a conversation made shivers run down my spine. Yikes.

That's nothing compared to the scenario of her telling my dad about itーthat's just going to be a whole other level of awkward.

I entered the kitchen and was met with the sight of my mom frowning. Shit.

She didn't say anything, she didn't even look at meーshe just placed a plate full of scrambled eggs on the table which was a clear gesture for me to sit down, and that's exactly what my next action was by the way.

The air was tense so I decided to get this over and done withーI'll just eat as fast as I possibly can and run up to my room which was unsurprisingly something I occasionally did.

"Are you going to work today?" Goddamnit.

"Yes" I replied with my mouth full which eventually made my mother let out a 'tsk' sound.

"Did you study yesterday?"

My eyes widened and I accidentally dropped my forkーyou might think I'm overreacting but replying with a 'no' to this question when my mom was in a bad mood could result in to a death sentence for me.

I instantly picked my fork up and started stuffing my face with more food in order to choke the tears downーnot because I was scared this time but because I couldn't help but think 'was that all she really cared about?'

"Not much" I replied in a small voice after I swallowed the big bulk of food that was in my mouth.

She stayed silent for a few agonizing moments before breathing out a 'fine' and telling me that I'll have to catch up today after I get back from work.

That was a close one.

I mumbled back an 'okay' as I got up to place my plate in the sinkーit's not like I hand any plans after getting back from work anyway.

I was heading downstairs when I bumped into a tall and lean figure aka my dad. He was going to get on my nerves, I could sense it by the way he looked at me.

"Hey kiddo, you going to work again?"

"Yeah" I said adding in a slight nod.

"You know I really don't get why you go there, i mean I don't mind giving you the same amount of money they pay you" Just wait for it.

"All you have to do is study in the time you waste going there" There it is.

He smiled a sincere smile and headed towards the kitchen leaving me standing with a rising blood pressure.

I hate this. It was either I study or I'm worthless in their eyes and anything that I do other than that is insignificant to them.

Unfortunately for them though, work was as close as I came to a social life so I wasn't going to drop that anytime soonーespecially because they wanted me to put in even more extra effort in to studying with that time.

I realized that I was still standing in the same spot my dad left me in so I sighed and made my way upstairs to get dressed.

It was only going to take me a few minutes anyway since all i really did was put on some jeans and a hoodie. I wasn't the type to put on any makeup or try any hairdos that took more than a few minutes, a mere ponytail was cool and good to me.

I speed walked towards our front door since having another encounter with both my parents was just not an optionーI made my way out of the house quite faster than I expected and I was already on my way to work now.

As I was walking down the street, I breathed in the fresh morning air. I liked being alone at times like this, it made me focus on everything around me more.

The smoothie shop wasn't all that far from where I lived so it was only a matter of minutes before i was standing in front of the shops entrance.

It always had this bubble pop aura to it, it's kind of hard to describe but it was like an extra bright and fun mood which kids loved very very muchーadults did too, this shop was just very nice to order from and spend time in.

I've been working part time at this place for a few months now and I can honestly say that I never got tired of being met with a smiling seokjin every time I went there.

"Hey yura" he said giving me a toothy smile and I'd be lying if I said that my heart didn't skip a beat every time he did that.

My crush on jin never got serious though since i did have the common sense to know that a guy this gorgeous would never really look at a girl like meーan ugly bland girl, like me.

We made small talk before I excused myself to get my apron from the tiny staff locker roomーI could tell this was going to be a long shift.

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A few hours had passed and my shift had finally ended, i would like to work more (which does surprise a lot of people) but i did have a curfew so i had to be back home before 6 pmーI was still going to take my time getting home though, maybe they'd forget me if i came home late? That sounds nice.

Sadly though they probably won't, they would actually call the police and hire an investigator to come find me if it's 6:15 pm and I'm not home yet.

I should probably start speed walking now.

After picking up my pace it was only a matter of minutes before I was back homeーI honestly couldn't be happier I made the decision to get back early since my mom left a note. Not just any note but the note which I loved oh so much.

We're visiting grandma at the hospital so we'll be back before 10 pm. Food is in the fridge.

ーMom

"Fuck yeah" I said throwing the note aside.

It didn't take me long to wrap myself in a warm blanket, surround myself with all the junk food my mom hid and to turn on my laptop so I can watch a movie.

I was being indecisive and didn't know which movie to watchーit was seriously confusing me because all the movies suddenly seemed a 100x more interesting.

I was about to click on Train to Busan but the notification bar popped up at the bottom of the screen showing me the reminder that said [weird omegle dude 7:00 pm].

I wanted to ditch him for the movie but i had nothing better to do so why not? Besides he was the only person to ever show interest in me so I wanted to talk to him.

And so I opened up a new tab and entered the tag we agreed on and clicked Start Chat still not believing that he chose 'splenda daddy tae' out of all names.

Was it bad to say that my heart hurt a little at what I read next?

Sorry we couldn't find someone with similar interests.

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This chapter was a filler on yuras life and her thoughts so I understand if it was boring but it'll get more interesting soon dw :)