There is no doubt about it. The question had definitely made Jungkook question their relationship. There's no other explanation. Jungkook had been stale, quiet, even scared to talk to Yoongi. He had ruined their relationship by a stupid question. Yoongi just knows it.

Jungkook is uncomfortable now, right? He's going to ask Yoongi for some time apart. Any minute now, he's going to tell Yoongi that they need to have a talk. Yoongi knows it.

Because since when does Jungkook get quiet like this? Or had he always been quiet? And why does he have such a nervous look on his face? Why is he biting his lip? Why does he look like he has something to say?

But Yoongi had promised to not ever pressure Jungkook into telling him anything.

So here they are, sitting on Yoongi's couch, the TV playing low into the night. It had been a week since Yoongi asked the question, but Jungkook was still acting weird about it. Yoongi didn't know how to prepare himself. All he could do was sit and wait. He hadn't been so stressed since the day the whole school was going to figure out what he is. And Jungkook hadn't mentioned the tension either.

For the past two nights, which is when Yoongi decided that he wasn't going crazy, he could barely even get enough sleep for work. Jungkook was here for the weekend but neither of them were acting like normal.

Yoongi was sad.

His heart and head both hurt so much. He just knew that Jungkook was going to say something to him about how crazy he is. About why the hell he would put Jungkook on the spot, or why he even asked the dumbest question ever. And Jungkook is going to ask for time apart. He probably wants time apart because he thinks Yoongi is crazy.

He can feel it coming. It's coming—

"Yoonie.."

Yoongi's heart instantly broke at the name, the built up sadness cracking just by the sound of his name softly leaving Jungkook's lips. Why is Jungkook being so soft? Is he really about to softly let him down like this?

"No." Yoongi curled up into the edge of the couch. He pulled his arms to his knees, not daring to look at Jungkook. Love is always a cursing and a blessing, but that doesn't mean that Yoongi doesn't want it. He doesn't want Jungkook to leave him. He knew it was a stupid idea to bring up the living together thing.

"Yoongi—"

"I said no." Yoongi pressed his face into his knees, releasing his sorrow into them. He let tears fall from his eyes but he made no noise, holding it in to seem strong. "Don't say a single word to me, Jungkook." He muttered.

Jungkook fell silent for a moment.

The room was only lit with the TV, but Yoongi couldn't even see that anymore. He saw nothing. All he could do was cover his face with his arms and knees because he so desperately didn't want the only person who makes him strong to see him weak. He doesn't want to make Jungkook feel guilty. Not again.

To make things much worse, Yoongi has had such a stressful week. Someone got fired at the coffee shop so he's been working extra shifts and more hours. He had an essay due on Friday, which was terribly written and Yoongi knew it. But at the last minute he was so stressed out about Jungkook and the coffee shop that he had completely fumbled over it. He knows he'll get a bad grade.

The one person he wants to complain to about his week to is about to leave him.

Jungkook probably thinks that Yoongi is obsessed with him. Probably doesn't want Yoongi to be so possessive, doesn't want Yoongi asking him to live with him. He doesn't want an obsessed boyfriend. He's going to ask Yoongi for space. He's going to leave his crazy boyfriend like he left his crazy girlfriend. He's going to leave Yoongi like he left Yuri.

But Yoongi isn't obsessed. He isn't crazy. He can't help that he loves Jungkook. He can't help that he just wanted to spend more time with him. All he wanted to do was help.

"Are you mad at me?" Jungkook mumbled quietly, a hint of distress in his voice.

Yoongi shook his head. "Just break up with me, Jungkook." He held in his tears.

There was a small muffled noise from behind him. "You- You want to break up?" Jungkook asked. He sounded hurt. Sad. "You said.. You said that you were here to stay.."

Yoongi lifted his head to look at Jungkook, the hurt look on his face making Yoongi cry even harder. As Yoongi cried, Jungkook started to panic. He had never seen Yoongi cry before. Not like this. Maybe not ever at all.

"Bun.." Yoongi cried out.

He started full-on sobbing as Jungkook scooted toward him and opened his arms, pulling Yoongi into his lap to hug him. Yoongi sat in his lap curled up, crying uncontrollably into his soulmate's shoulder.

Now that Yoongi thinks about it and now that he's crying to Jungkook, he realizes how stupid he looks. He's crying because of stress. He's fucking stress crying to his boyfriend.

"Yoonie, baby.." Jungkook rocked him back and forth like a baby, letting him cry into his shoulder as he gently pet his hair with one hand and rubbed his back with the other. "I-Is that why you're crying? You want that?"

Yoongi shook his head, hugging tightly onto Jungkook. "Never." He said.

Jungkook deflated, confused. "Then why are you crying?" He asked. "You just said you wanted to break up. Why?"

"God, no." Yoongi began to wipe his tears. "You want space, don't you? Isn't that what you were going to say?" Tears just kept pouring from his eyes. "Please don't. I'm sorry for being dumb. I'll give you space, but please don't ever leave me. Please, bun. I'm sorry—"

"Hey, shh." Jungkook hugged him tightly. "I would never leave you. What're you talking about? I thought you were going to leave me. I thought I made you mad or something."

Yoongi backed away to look at Jungkook, eyes stinging and red from his tears, body finally relaxing at Jungkook's gaze.

"I.. I would never leave you." He told Jungkook. "Why would I be mad at you? You did nothing to me." He frowned.

Jungkook shrugged. "You seemed mad at me or something. I don't know. You've barely spoken to me all week. I've talked to Seokjin more than I've talked to you this week. I knew something was bothering you then."

Yoongi tilted his head in confusion.

"You've talked to Seokjin?"

Jungkook nodded. "Gaming." He said. "Now tell me what's going on, baby. Why're you crying like this? What's wrong?"

"Y-You're gonna leave me." Yoongi stuttered. "You think I'm crazy for what I s-said last weekend. I am crazy. I don't blame you." He started to wipe his raw eyes, slowly realizing how crazy he sounds now. "S-Sam got fired on Monday because she was rude to a customer. My boss took it out on me. And I had an essay due that I couldn't really finish off well because I had to work extra hours, and on top of no sleep and extra working, I thought- I thought you were going to leave me.."

He inhaled deeply, running out of breath. "All I could think was the worst of the worst because you started to get distant, so I thought you were going to ask for a break."

Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows. All of this crying was just stress piled up on Yoongi.

"Baby, I grew distant because I thought you were mad at me." Jungkook told Yoongi, whose tears were coming to a stop and he was finally looking down at his boyfriend besides wiping tears out of his eyes. "I asked you months ago if you were here to stay. Why would I leave you? You're my soulmate. I love you."

Yoongi pouted sadly as he pressed himself into Jungkook's shoulder again, hugging him. Jungkook wrapped his arms tightly around Yoongi as he pressed his face into Jungkook's neck, trying to settle down.

"Yoonie." Jungkook started to rub one finger in circles on Yoongi's back. He's doing the damn finger thing that he knows Yoongi loves. "Baby, I am so in love with you." He muttered. Yoongi relaxed, letting his boyfriend reassure him. "Why did you think that I would leave you? Because you thought that I thought you're crazy? What does that even mean?"

"You..." Yoongi bit his lip, mumbling. "When I offered for you to stay here. You got quiet after I mentioned it and you probably thought I was some crazy person, like.. Yuri.."

Jungkook tensed up. "Don't you ever compare yourself to her." He said sternly. "You are the love of my life. My soulmate. I absolutely loved that you offered for me to stay here. I didn't think you were crazy, Yoonie." His voice grew gentle, caring. "Did you not hear me the other day? I love you. I love you."

  It felt so nice to actually have that be said out loud. Like music to Yoongi's ears.

"You make me so happy, baby." Jungkook continued, sincerity in his voice. "Do you forget that I think about you just as much as you think about me? Hell, I probably think more about you than you think about me. I'm literally living just to love you." He said. "Not in a honeymoon-phase type of way, but in the way that lets me know that I want to spend forever here, with my baby."

"I will protect you until the day I die." He continued further, only making Yoongi tear up again. "You make me think of moments where I would risk my life for you. If a car was driving towards you, I'd push you out of the way and sacrifice myself. If someone had one bullet and was pointing the gun at you, I'd tell them to shoot me instead. Yoongi, there is not a single amount of craziness in this world that would keep me away from you. I'm the crazy one here."

Yoongi chuckled, slowly melting into Jungkook's voice. "Don't you ever go sacrifice yourself to save me, Jeon Jungkook."

Jungkook scoffed. "You'd do the same for me and I know it." He said. "We're soulmates. Do you forget that? I can literally sense how you feel all the time. You've been stressed all week, but I thought it was because you were just mad at me or something. I didn't know you thought I was going to leave you.. I could give you a million reasons on why I won't go."

They were quiet for a moment, Yoongi just taking all of this in. Jungkook was still rubbing circles into his back lovingly, making sure that Yoongi was calming down.

"When can we just settle down?" Yoongi sighed to him. "I just want to be with you forever. I wanna get married and grow old. Is that so much to ask for?" He asked.

Jungkook chuckled. "We haven't even gone all the way with sex yet—"

"Which is what you wanted." Yoongi reminded, pouting. "Can you imagine how I feel during heat? You won't even come near me. What am I? A disease?" He asked.

"No." Jungkook laughed. "But I'm afraid that if we do go all the way, I'll end up marking you. I told you before we ever started this relationship that I wanted to go slow."

Yoongi rolled his eyes. "You've wanted to fuck me since day one." He leaned away from Jungkook's neck, looking down at his boyfriend. "You love me, bun. And I love you. This is the next step. We won't do this wrong. We'll make love and don't have to be afraid of marking me. I am yours and you are mine. We.. Marking is okay." He looked down at his hands, playing with his fingers nervously. "You have permission to mark me any time you feel is right, bun. I am here to stay."

Jungkook bit his lower lip, watching as Yoongi played with his own knuckles.

"Then let's do it." He said.

Yoongi's eyes widened as he glanced back up at Jungkook. "Do you want to?" Jungkook asked. "If I mark you.." he put his fingers against the juncture on Yoongi's neck, earning a shiver from Yoongi. "If I mark you, you'll never doubt my love for you, right?" He asked. "We'll never be in this position where you think I'm leaving you, right?"

"Y-You don't have to do it." Yoongi said. "I know now. You don't have to rush. I'll give you all the time in the world—"

"I want to mark you." Jungkook muttered quietly. "I've wanted to mark you, Yoongi. I'm just so scared of doing something wrong. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable. Like.. When you offered me to live here with you, I couldn't help but get excited. I want nothing more than to rush it all and live here, have sex, mark you, propose, marry you— I want it all, Yoongi. I'm rushing in my head, which is why I don't actually want to rush."

Yoongi tilted his head, frowning down at Jungkook. "And you're right for not rushing our relationship." He said. "But the next step is dangling in front of our faces, and it's what I want. It's what we both want. So if you ever feel the need to step up, then be my guest. I'll be with you all the way, bun."

"Let's just get you to sleep for now." Jungkook said. "It's getting late and you've been crying. Let's cuddle and make you feel better, okay? We have all weekend to do so."

"Okay." Yoongi nodded.

He let Jungkook carry him to his bedroom, pulling Yoongi's pants off for him because he had learned that Yoongi actually sleeps without them. He held the blankets for Yoongi to get under them and then he turned off the lights all throughout the apartment, finishing off with Yoongi's bedroom light before he also crawled into the bed with Yoongi.

He held his arms open, taking in Yoongi as Yoongi backed up into him, letting Jungkook be the big spoon. Jungkook held him from behind, kissing the back of Yoongi's head and nuzzling into him.

"Goodnight, baby."

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