3 months later:

I step into the room and shiver from the cold.
Perspiration still resting on my forehead.
My breath has refused to be a part of my nervous existence and my heart wants to jump out of my chest.

I spot a tall figure at the end of the dark room, my hesitant legs walk towards the unknown figure.

My breathe returns back to me, my heart returns to its normal rate, my sweaty forehead is dry and I'm warm. So warm.

"M..Mason" I stutter, my nervousness reminding me that it may have left but it's only temporary.
A horrible cold wave washes over me and I shiver once more before it all goes warm, once and for all, as I'm in his arms.

Every nervous bone in my body turns into ash and I lose myself in him.
"I love you" he tells me once more and I want to cry, and I do.
"God, I love you too. I couldn't tell you, I was too scared but now..." I caress his cheek "now you're here" I stand on my tippy toes, leaning closer to his lips "and you're real" I whisper before I mold our lips into one.
I stumble, falling to the ground. He's not here. He's not real.
I become a heap of unfathomable sorrow and I scream.
The room turns white and cold. As cold as Antarctica.

The warmth is gone, for he is gone.

I wake up with a gasp and swallow hard, my throat as dry as the Sahara Desert.
I run a hand through my hair which are wet owing to sweat. I brush away the tears on my face and sigh.

When will these dreams stop?

I put my notebooks aside and go to the kitchen for some water
"Another dream?" Kim asks, seeing my face, as white as paper, without a doubt.

"They haven't stopped since the....you know.." I stutter, wiping a tear
"I love you" Rose completes my sentence and I nod while rubbing my temple.
"Anyway I have a lot of studying to do so I must get back" I say and head back to the lounge.

Before leaving Mason did something I would've never expected him to do, something I've never been courageous enough to do.
He told me that he loved me.

He texted me when he went back and he frequently texts me here and there and I reply but we haven't talked since a month now. The last text I got from him was telling me that Christina wasn't well at all.
Sadly, none of his texts mentioned anything about those three words that are still melting my heart and invading my dreams.

Two months ago, I also rejoined college and I am very happy with where I am headed in life.
Studying and being normal just makes me feel like I'm carrying a part of Mason with me and that makes me very satisfied.

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"Hey Mar" I greet her and she smiles back. Even though I've started studying, I didn't stop working at the coffee shop.
This place brings me a peaceful feeling for some reason and makes me feel relaxed.

"Sadly I'm not here to work. I'm here to study and I need some very strong coffee" I frown

"Coming right up" Mar snaps her fingers

"Oh no, I'm making it myself. You just serve the customers" I say and jump behind the counter

"Silly girl" Mar shakes her head and I laugh

I make the strongest coffee I can and smell it. Half of my headache already gone.

I sit at the coffee shop and study for a while and after that I help Mar with the customers to get my mind off of shoe designing .
Just then I get a text from Rose

Emergency. Come

I tell Mar that I have to go and run to my car.

I drive in a rush.
What has happened?
Was there a robbery?
Was someone kidnapped?

Oh my god, is Mason back?

I laugh, what if he actually is back?
Tears spring to my eyes and I try to focus on the road.

What will I do if he actually is back?

Run into his arms, you moron.

Yes, right! Run into his arms.

I stop as I reach, I pull down the mirror and check to see if I look presentable.
A huge grin spreads across my face.

I get out of the car and as I enter the house I hear Rose's voice from Kim's room
"Up here" she says

I enter the room and see Rose fussing over some clothes and Kim sitting there biting her nails.

My heart sinks, of course he's not back.
It's my life, it can't be perfect.

A pain shoots through my chest, knowing that I may actually never see him again.

How many times do I have to say this to myself before I actually start believing it?

"What in the world happened?" I ask, trying to sound normal while fighting back my tears.

"Kurt asked her on a date" Rose says, her thick eyelashes fanning across her glasses which she wears because she likes them.

"About time. Is this a fashion emergency?" I ask, already prepared for the answer

"Yes!" Rose shouts and I help Rose  go through Kim's cupboard.

We finally settle on a blue and white dress with a sweetheart neckline.

We take off Kim's glasses and replace them with contact lenses. I curl her hair while Rose does her makeup.

"Finally" she huffs and looks at herself in the mirror
"Oh this is so much better than the Wonder Woman t-shirt I was going to wear" she stares at herself and Rose rolls her eyes.

We fuss over her shoes and bag and in the meanwhile we hear a honk downstairs.
Rose goes downstairs to unlock the door but Kurt says that he'll just wait outside.
Kim goes completely pale

"Oh Amna, I can't do this. I'm too nervous" she says, literally shaking like paper

"You'll do great. You both really like each other, it will go as smooth as silk. Just breathe, chin up and go work your charm" I smile

"I don't think I've got any of that but thank you Amna" she smiles
back and hugs me.

I follow her downstairs, she goes outside and shuts the door behind her, giving me and Rose a chance to press our ears against the door

"Oh....oh wow" Kurt says, before adding
"Amna and Rose have done a really good job" he laughs and we giggle.

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"Amna. They're back" Rose whisper-shouts and we peek at them through the frosted glass on the side of the door.

Kurt comes to the door and they both face each other

"I had an amazing time" Kim says and Kurt smiles

"So did I" he laughs and turns to go.

I can see Kim's frown before he returns and kisses her forehead while me and Rose squeal like teenagers.

"Can I say something?" He looks at Kim

"Anything" she bites her lip

"You look really pretty but this isn't you. If you wanna dress up like this then you should but if you don't want to dress up like this then don't. I know you and I like the girl who doesn't care about fashion. I would be perfectly happy if you would've worn your Wonder Woman t shirt today because to me you are beautiful for you, not for the clothes you wear" he says.

I can feel that his words have touched her heart because that is what Mason's words did to me.

They left my heart like a puddle of melted wax, his words made me feel like I was the queen, like I was the only important person in the world.

My eyes fill with tears and I turn away just as Kim kisses Kurt.

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I go to my room, close my door and take a deep breathe.

Wiping my tears, I decide that I'm going to text him and tell him that I love him too.

How long am I even going to hold this in?

I want to elongate the little thread that I'm holding onto.

I open my phone see that I have a message from Brie.
I decide to check that first.

I lose my thread, the thoughts of elongating it vanish from my mind like smoke.

This time I don't need to say it to myself to believe it.

I know I'm never going to see Mason again.
I'm sure of it.

Just like I'm sure of the fact that he is completely lost right now.

Before everything around me drowns in my tears, I get up and get his hoodie from my cupboard for comfort.

I can just imagine how Brie wrote this message.
She must be losing control over everything that she knew to be real, to be infinite.

Pulling the hoodie closer to me, I re- read the text message:

Mom is no more. Please talk to Mason, I can't get a hold of him. I'm sure he needs you.

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So what do we think? I was just going through the old chapters and was also reading life happens when I realized how many things are common between Dania and Amna. Please vote and comment :)