How long has it been?
Since I last saw him.
I kept all my feelings inside and hiding too well.
For all sakes.

But today...
Today when I see him again now, I'm very hopeless.
As I see him giggling with that hoobae Moon Beom.... As if they are madly in love with each other.
I shouldn't have come here...
I really shouldn't..

Not intentionally but, I kinda of knocked down the cup and... he finally.... Finally came and talked me.
But.. he doesn't make eye-contact with me.

I see him getting hurt from shattered glass pieces but... I couldn't... do anything for him.
And Moon Beom just took him away

"Are you okay?" Kris asks

"Imm... I'm fine" i say

"This is very nice restaurant right? He said his humble restaurant but god... it's literally high-end one" Ana says

"He's as rich as a chaebol so this is nothing" Jun says

"The location is great and menus are also very famous among young people" kris says

"Sunbae is... a very good cook" I say and everyone looks at me "Wow... let's eat everyone" I quickly change the topic.

Right... we didn't even have time to bring some present for the opening.
I should deliver something to here tomorrow as a gift.

"Baek... wanna follow to Hong Kong? I'm planning to visit the end of this month. Your semester break" Kris says as he holds my hand

"Is that so?" I ask

"Woahhh that's so cool!! Go follow him Baekhyun ya" Ana says

"You two can follow with us too." Kris says referring to Ana and Jun

"I would love to. But I have to go back to my country too" Ana says

"Oh.. is that so? So, how about you and Jun?" Kris asks me and Jun

"I have to go back home too" Jun says

"I.....I will ask my mom first... if I need a visit to her or not.." I say

"Let me know next week, hmm? I need to buy tickets" kris says

"Imm.. I will"

"I want to...introduce you to my parents. I think it's about time now" Kris says

"O...oh...... we.... It can still wait... right?" I say

"If you are not comfortable yet then... just a visit"

"Imm... I will let you know"

Meeting his parents?
I... I don't think I'm ready for that.
That's too much... of burden.

I don't know.
I don't want to.
May be I will just visit mom this break.
It's been a while and need to check how mom and stepdad are both doing.

And... why sunbae is not coming back out?
Even moon Beom is back.
Did he hurt a lot?

*conscious back*
Haha.... What a joke.
Stop Byun Baekhyun.
Just stop.
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————————-Chanyeol's POV——————

"Sunbae... aren't you leaving?" Beom asks

It is about time to close the shop and I have so many to do at shop.
But it's late so I have to dismiss all the staffs

"Yeah.. I will stay back for awhile and go back. All of you can go back now. Thanks for hard work on the first day and look forward to work with you all" I say and bow down a little

"Nae! Thank you for the hard work too boss" everyone says and leave

"Should I stay, sunbae?"

"No... you are tired too. And you have early class tomorrow right?"

"I can skip. I wanna stay with you"

"Go back Beom ya. My uncle said he's coming so I will just go back with him"

" *sigh* O..Kay.... Then sunbae..."

"Hmm?"

"A kiss... I deserve a kiss right?"

"Mr. Moon, you been kissing me a lot today"

"So that's no?"

"Haaaa... you are so spoiled" I say and lean in to kiss him... just a peck on his lips "Okay now?" I ask

He pulls me by my necktie and kisses me
I push him back a little and "Hey"

"Okay okay... I'm going now... Aish" he says and leaves

*sigh*
He's very difficult to handle.

*sigh out loud*

"Now back to work huh" I say to myself as I get down to do some financial works for today.

And, just then, uncle arrives.

"Oh... you are quick" I say

"I was already nearby so, please take your time sir" he says

"Yeah.. think you need to wait a little. Have you eaten?"

"Nae. I had"

"Okay.."

"Sir" he says and he hands me a file

"What's it?"

"I found her"

I feel like.... The silent rings in my ears.
Or may be the time stops.

The word that I yearned to hear for years......
I'm finally hearing it.

"Sir?"

My mother.....
A woman who gave birth to me.... An owner of the warmth that I could barely remember.
The void that.... Is growing bigger because of her...

"Sir?"

"A...aww...."

"Sir, your hands are shaking. Do you want sone water?"

"......I...I am fine..."

I want to run out and go meet her....
But..... fear runs down to my spines.
What if.... What if she .....

"Sir?!" Uncle snaps me out of my thoughts

"Yes? What were you saying?"

"She's in Korea right now. Actually, I'm sorry to do things without noticing you first. I reached out to her already and asked if she is willing to meet you. And she said she would like to. The appointment is tomorrow at 11am, at the hotel lounge that she's staying."

"T...tomorrow?"

"Nae"

"S...she... wants to meet me?"

"Yes sir. Willingly"

"W....willingly... huh...."

"Sir, you finally did it. You found her"

"I.... Do.... Huh....."

I.. I'm scared....
Does she really want to see me?
What if... what if she is bothered by me?
Does she has another family?
Is she on the trip with her family?
Children?
Husband?

I don't dare to open the file.
I don't dare to look into her information
It's better.... To talk with her...first... right?
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———————Baekhyun's POV——————-

Today, I have some work assigned by travelling club.
They want to do staycation party during the semester break so, I am now going to hotels and check the rooms and need to ask for early check in and late check out in advance.

Why kids these days want to have so much fun?
I mean, semester break literally means a study period for coming up exams.
Even non-nerd like me know 😒

Hope they won't cause any troubles during the stay huh.

The hotel I'm currently in right now seems to be perfect suit for them.
We can book biggest room and early check in and late check out available... sound proof walls.
Expensive rates but Low rates for extra bed.

Well, I should inform them f..........

"Is that.....sunbae?" I mumble as my eyes lay on him who is sitting in the hotel lounge
He is dressing up neatly.
Is he.... On his blind date?

While I'm staring at him from far, a woman walks towards him and....their interactions are too...awkward.
Plus, she looks.... Not going to be his blind date....

Don't tell me!...... his mom?
He found her?

I quickly and secretly walks to the seat right behind his back....
I feel like a secret agent now 🥲
But I'm curious duh.

Mom... I'm not nosy... I'm just... curious.

"Wow... you are really handsome" I hear that woman starts the conversation. "You really grown very tall." She adds

So..... it's really... his mother

".....Nae.... So... How.... I mean..... is... is everything okay?" I can hear sunbae stuttering ... he must be very nervous

"Don't be so tense. You can ask me anything you want. And yes. I have been doing quite well."

"Have you.... Perhaps.... Have a new family?"

"................ I do, 3 years after I left your father. I met this kind and caring man, who accepted me as who I'm ... who accepted a divorced woman and treasured. I couldn't have a kid for so long. Not physically but mentally.

Your face kept appearing in my head. That face of yours when I left you.... I just... couldn't forget.

My husband accepted that. He understands me.. and waited. So, we had a kid just 4 years ago. I now have a beautiful daughter. Just 5 years old."

"I.....I see..."

"How have you been doing?"

"With my life..... everything is okay....
But there wasn't a single day... that I tried to give up finding you.
The abandonment you carved in my heart was always there and made me feel the complete emptiness.
Now that I found you.... It is strange.... The emptiness is still here..."

"Chanyeol ya...."

"I was finding my mother but...... I don't feel like you are my mother..."

"I am sorry... I am sorry for leaving you chanyeol ya..."

"It is not your fault. It was dad's. It's just..... the person who hurt most from that is.... Me."

"I didn't mean to.... I didn't have enough courage or strength to raise you alone ...."

"It is not your fault... I said right? It's just.... I think I'm jealous."

"Chanyeol ya...."

"I'm very jealous that.... You can have an easy and peaceful life with your new family while!......while I'm just sticking to the past... with.... narcissist father and stepmom."

I...... I can't help but....
After hearing the pains of him....
My tears....are just coming down....

He must.... Have been suffering a lot.....
He must.... Have been very lonely.

It must.... Been very hard for him....
That no one knows....
That no one cares.....

Sunbae... my sunbae....

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Please read!!!!
Happy 50th Chapter everyone!
This is a quick note to let you know that
This fic is ending soon!
Yesssss!!! Happy? 😒
Someone suggested that Beom's mom and Chanyeol's mom could be the same but, sadly they are not.
Because the age gaps of Chanyeol and Beom.

So, I won't be updating Tuesday and Wednesday cuz I gotta go to my work🥲 pain.
See you all !!

Enjoy!!!!!