Today, since my classes are over, I am going to meet sunbae.
This is because, he texted me that, he has something to give me back.

Whatever it is... I think it's time for the decision.
It's.... also his decision too.

After seeing Kris's face..... I am very much regretted about what I did....
I have no rights to treat him like that.
I should come up with clear decision for all of us.
Like....
Like where we all are supposed to be.

"Byun baekhyun!!"

I flinch a little while walking with my own thoughts.
Ah..... Jun... again.

"Byun baekhyun... you don't know how to pick up your phone for what? Where were you for 2 days? Why aren't you replying your texts?" Jun asks

"Where is Ana?"

"I'm asking you questions!"

"I'm safe and sound. Isn't this enough? You are not even my guardian"

"Byun baekhyun!"

"Do you still have feelings for me more than friend?"

"B..... Baekhyun ya...."

"You should stop now.... You know....it's been years that you confessed your feelings making everything awkward. And don't you pity your girlfriend a bit?"

"Can you even stop loving Park Chanyeol?"

"What?"

"It's that same for me too. How can someone can stop caring and fancying the love one easily? Can you? You can't right? I can't too. I'm not showing my feelings to make things awkward for you and our friendship too.

Because I'm always fine living as a friend for you. That how i always living.

So let me.... Let me worry about you...."

"You should have never confessed your feelings .... That already destroyed our lifelong friendship" I say and leave him alone.

It has been.... 3 years.... 3 years that he said he likes me...
Which made everything weird between us.
And I started to keep distance with him... spent most of my times at Kris's place...

Me knowing only won't make things worse but....
Ana.... Ana was there too... when Jun confessed.

That almost made everything break.
Like their relationship, our friendship.....

*sigh* well........

Now it's about time to meet sunbae.
I'm nervous and all.
But things... must be sort out.
Loud and clear.

And I believe sunbae will feel the same too.
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He asked me to come to a restaurant near our college.
And when I arrive, sunbae is already here.

"Sorry sunbae ....I am a bit late" I say

"No.... I just arrived too. So, what do you want to eat?"

"Sunbae... just coffee is fine"

He flashes a smile and says "Sure. Coffee will be okay"

We order our coffees and... sits awkwardly across each other.
This awkward is heavier .... Than usual.

"Ah.... This" he says and hands me my student card "you left this"

"Right... ha ha *laugh awkwardly* I don't even realise that till now. Thank you sunbae"

"No worries.... And ... Baekhyun ya... did you get back home safe yesterday?"

"Imm... I did...."

"And..... perhaps... did you talk with... Kris?"

"I did.... I told him the truth....."

"I....see...... I am sorry, I made you handle alone"!

"No.... That was my mistake. My mistake alone"

"Baekhyun ya...."

"Sunbae.... I believe that, this kind of mistake.... We both will not do anymore . Right? I was confused since the moment I met you again at Bali.
All the leftover feelings came out.

Yesterday after my naive self talked to Kris.... I got my senses back. Reality hit hard.

That you and me are already walking on different paths. I'm with the one I chose to care and love and you are now seeking for the one too.

Right? Sunbae..."

"That's..... right Baekhyun ya...."

"We had so many things to we could try but... guess we both made mistakes in many ways."

"We did. We both were naive and stubborn."

"That's right..... and sunbae... whoever you end up with... I hope you are happy. And love. But if you treat them too nice and caring, I would be secretly resenting you. For not treating me right back then."

Sunbae chuckles a little by my word "Please resent me for that."

"I will." Well, this is it.... Huh.... "This time ... really no hard feelings at all."

"Imm.... No hard feelings"

"Okay.... I will leave first. I hope to see you less at school. For all of us sakes" I say and stands up

"Baekhyun ya..."

"Nae?"

"Bear this in mind... that... You Are My Favourite Almost"

Do...don't cry.... Don't cry Byun Baekhyun...
Keep your face normal....

"Nae.... Take care sunbae" I say and quickly run out of the restaurant.....
It's all over now....
It's all.....

Over now..

Byun Baekhyun... you did well...
For all of us.
For all of our s..... *Bump*

I bump into someone and

"Ah... sorry...... I'm s...."

"Oh, Aren't you the pretty boy from back then?" A girl asks

Where have I seen....

"Oh.... Sunbae's ex ...girlfriend....."

"Haha... Call me Nari noona..."

"Ah... Nae.... It's been very a while"

"Yeah... I been out of country for years so."

"I see. Good to see you again noona"

"Yeah, why are you still pretty?" She asks

"Nae? Haha... that's what I have to say."

"Ehh... you know you are pretty duh. And.. you have time? Let's go to cafe and have some chats" She says

Ah.... Chat? "S..sure noona"

Well, chat about what?
We barely know each other and what we both commonly know is sunbae .
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"Have you been crying?" She asks as we sits down at the nearest cafe

Ekkk.... She's sharppppp

"Ah.... Not really..."

"Do you happen to get a good guy now?"

"Nae... the one I'm with right now.... Is very nice"

"I told you right? There will always be someone who will feel the same as you."

"Nae noona"

"I wonder about Park chanyeol too. I hope he also meets someone who would understand all his voids"

"His voids?"

"Despite of all his rude and unforgivable behaviours... do you know that he's very a ... how to say... lonely guy?"

"Lonely?" May be I should just listen to her so that... may be I find out something I haven't known for long

"Yeah... I heard this from his uncle too. You know that bodyguard like man beside him?"

"Ah... Nae I know"

"Really? So did you get close to Chanyeol? Because only close friends of him know about his uncle. He normally shy to say to others that he has a bodyguard"

"Haha.. is that so?"

"Well... back to that....his father is very Rich ... like his whole family tree is rich ... haha... but Park Chanyeol's mother is just normal office worker...but really pretty. I saw one of the photos once. So, they fell in love and had Chanyeol. Everything was fine until Chanyeol was around 5 or 6 .... And his father planned to divorce with his mom because his family was started to pressure him.

That this woman came from normal family and not suitable for their family image.

What a late complaint right?"

"Y...yeah..."

"So, his mom had to leave him with his father. And his father got married again to Rich woman and moved to Italy.

Chanyeol had a trauma of abandonment he got from his mother. While we were dating, he continued to search his mother. I don't know about now."

"I...see...."

"Because of that.... He was a very possessive boyfriend. He is afraid of his lover leaving him so, when we live together back in Italy, he kinda.. you know.. kept me in a house not wanting me to leave or step out of house. He provided me with everything... and I couldn't leave without him."

That..... that what he did to me too.
3 years ago.

"But now that I realised, it's just a way of him loving someone. Even tho I hated that and run away from him."

He.... He showed that he really loved me since then?

"Haha too much about him right? That's why I hope he find someone who feels and understand him and make him assure about relationship. Tough for him."

Wait.... He suffered from abandonment issue.
And I.... I abandoned him too....
What....what have I done?

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