"Baek.... Wait!"

*breathe heavily*
He ... he's not even rushing towards me... after seeing me having panic attack...
He just.... He just looked at me with those cold eyes and left....

He may be saying all is well.... But.... He must be hating me....
I would resent me if I'm in his place....
I...... I wanted to hold onto him more....
I missed him....

"Baek...." Kris catches up to me and "I'm..I'm sorry...... I am worried that... he might make a move on you in my absence... that he might take you away from me again....."

"You don't need violence! I... I asked him to meet... it was me... why.... Why did you hurt him! And ... you should be aware that .... I hate violence..... I....".

"Baek... I'm sorry..."

"Don't touch me! Just.... Just for tonight.... Don't touch me.... Please" I say and head to our room

Tho he might be hating me... he did his best ... his best trying to talk to me..
just.... I'm the worst...

I miss him...
I want to be in his arms right now..
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Next morning

Kris wasn't in the room.
I don't think he slept in our room last night.
I should say sorry to him today.

But, right now... I should go and give back sunbae's coat...
I forgot and wore last night...

I smell onto his coat and... it just smells like him.
He never changes his perfume. 
Dongwu sunbae told me his room number yesterday when I asked him help.

He is awake now right?
Bet he is... and I must apologise him for what Kris did to him.

I grab his coat and head to his room.

I wonder... if he really was loyal to me.
For two years that we were talking, I know he didn't meet anyone ...
What about the last year when I stopped contacting him?
Did he meet and hook up with a lot of people?
I bet he did..... right?

What kind of women did he hook up with?
Or men?
Does sunbae's sexuality change because of me?

I really wanna know...
More about him. How did he manage to spend that one year?
When I left him....

Me standing in front of room and... my courage.... Just dim away...

*take a deep breathe* and I knock on the door.

Is he still sleeping?
Or did he leave ?

*knock knock*

I should just ask his new number right?
Hmm... he's not coming out...

*knock....*

The door opens and.....

"Ah... Baekhyun sunbae?"

"Moon Beom?"

Wh...what is he doing.... In sunbae's room?

"Why are you here?" He asks .... I check him from head to toes and.... He seems like he just woke up.
Did he slept here?
How did he and Sunbae knows each other?

Wait.... Moon Beom.... Is .... Homo too... right?
Don't tell me...

"Why are you here Beom ya...?"

"Ah.. We drank last night in my suite but.. Dongwu sunbae was really wasted and didn't care about sunbae. So I carried him back to his room. And when I arrived here.. I was too tired and drunk so... I think I fell asleep..."

So.... Nothing happened... right?

"Why are you here Baekhyun sunbae?"

"I..... I....."

How did they become close? That they drank together?

"Aren't you going to get ready for tour? We have tour to city" I say

"That... I told club president that I was sick so.. hehe... I will just hang out with Chanyeol sunbae"

"I..is that so?"

"So.. why are you here Baekhyun sunbae?"

"I... I came to return his coat....I kinda...."

"Ohhh.. you borrowed it last night? You can leave it to me" Moon Beom says

I.... I don't want to give it to him...
I don't like that he's in that room with sunbae alone.
I don't like that Moon Beom's face always flashes in smile whenever he talks about sunbae.

I hate it...
I hate everything...

"....here....." I say and give him

"Wowwww... *sniff* Chanyeol's sunbae smellllllll!!!!  Hehe.. I should ask him to give this coat to me"

"Who's there?" A voice appears from the back

"Sunbaeeee!!" Moon Beom says 

"Baekhyun ya?"

"Sunbae..."

"What's bring you here?" Sunbae asks

"I.... C..."

"He returned this" Moon Beom interferes

"Ah... thank you Baekhyun ya."

"No.... Thanks for lending me" I say

"Sunbae sunbae... give me this coat" Moon Beom says

"Ya... why are you still in my room?" Sunbae says

"Eh... why so cold suddenly? You were so cute and honest more when you were drunk.. Keke"

"Ya, kid...get out"

"I'm going to shower and wear your shirts and underwear too"

"This kid.. go back to your suite"

"No wayyyyyy" Moon Beom says and he runs into the room again

"F..fuckk... that kid..." Sunbae grunts and "Thanks for coming here to give back Baekhyun ya.. have fun today too" he says and about to close the door but..

"Sunbae..."

"Hmm?"

".......I.......i...."

"I getting all your underwearsss!!!!!" Moon Beom shouts from the inside of the room

"Ya!" Sunbae shouts and "sorry baekhyun ya... have a nice day ahead" he says and close the door

That..... that is my place....
I should be with.... Sunbae..
it's my place....

*phone ring*

Caller ID - Boyfriendo🤎

K - hey....

B - ......where are you?

K - back in the room ... where are you baek?

B - I'm..... I'm coming back too

K - imm.... And Baek.....

B - I said I'm coming back now

I end the call and go back to my room.
Kris.... Didn't make Any mistakes too.
He had a right to do it and... he has a right to worry.

I was too much last night.....
i.... I am the one who is bad for kris.

Yeah... why am I even thinking stupid things?
I chose kris already.

I shouldn't be irresponsible boyfriend.
As much as he makes me happy..... I should too.
Right?

With all thoughts... I got back to my room and ...

"Baek.."

I just walk towards him and hug him

"I...I'm sorry... I will not do that ever again.. I won't use violence.... I'm sorry baek... please don't hate me"

"I.... I don't..... and I'm sorry too"

"You don't need to..." he says and caress my back gently "I will always love and care you more."

Yes.... Kris will always be beside me right now.
I won't need to be confused or regretted.

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