"Sir.... Are you sick?"

"Let me be" I groan

"You haven't gone to college or left the house for a week... or bed sir. And, you haven't eaten but just drinking"

"I'm aware that.... Uncle......"

"Yes sir?"

"Have you ever lose someone? Or... that you like them but you .... Only realise after you lost them?"

"Did something happen sir? Is there anything I can help you with?"

"Haha... it's not like you can bring him back to me..."

"Sir, I can't extend the school absence for you anymore. I think you should go to school today"

"I'm quitting.... Should I?"

"Sir.."

"Yeah yeah... I'm getting up now.. uncle, you nag me more than my father"

"And... sir...."

"Yeah?"

"That boy.... They moved out two days ago"

Does .... That even necessary?
What have I done?

The day I came back from hospital after talking with Baekhyun.... That evening, his mother came and talked with me

Flashback

"Eomeoni!"  I am really surprised to see her here... I mean..... I think I'm really....In trouble.

"Can I have a moment with you?" She asks

"Nae... come in Eomeoni..." I say and let her inside my house

I ask her to sit on couch while I go get some coffee for her.
All I'm feeling is.... I'm scared.

The reason of her coming to me is obvious .... She knows what I did to Baekhyun

"Eomeoni... here... have some coffee" I say and give her a coffee cup

"Thank you..."

"Eomeoni...."

"I bet you already know why I'm here. Am I right?"!

"Nae..."

"Me and Baekhyun really had a bad... memories with violence...."

"I know.. Eomeoni"

"And I trusted you that.... You won't be that kind of person..."

"Eomeoni... i swear it was an accide...."

"Accident... Ana told me. But, I just want my son, to be away from any kind of violent person. Either intentionally or accidentally..."

"I... I'm sorry..."

"I heard a lot from Jun. Almost everything. That My Baekhyunee had a crush on you... and how you were homophobic."

"That's true but Eomeoni.... I now really like Baekhyun..."

"I thought you really were a good guy. And I liked you. But .... You may be a good guy but not for my Baekhyunee."

"No.... Eomeoni... I will be really good to him... it's just because this is my first time so...."

"You will be better off without him and my Baekhyunee deserves best man. So please, I hope you stop contacting him. Thank you for the coffee" she says and stands up

"Eomeoni...... I cannot do that.... I really.... Need him....."

"There are many different definitions in needing someone. If you may just need my Baekhyunee for your own pleasure..I am definitely not letting him to be beside you ever again. So please, stay away from him as much as you can" she says and left

End of flashback

How do I even insist to contact him when he even moved out?
How do I even get close to him again?

"Sir?"

"Yeah... I'm going to school."

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I think I lost all my interest in daily things I used to do.
I think..... I'm lost.

School... *sigh*
I just hate every fucking one.

"Park park park chanyeollllllll!!!!" Dongwu comes and sits beside me in the class

"How many days or years has it been? That we haven't met?"

"Fuck off"

"Look... let's get back into good terms. I know things happened between us... I stopped using drugs too. We can have fun together again"

"Not in the mood"

"Come on... just drinking at Bar. Okay?"

"I will think about it"

"Yesss!!!"

"No girls"

"Damnnn... okay"

"No drug"

"Promise man!"

"Yeah.... Let's go after class"

"Why didn't you come to school for long?" Dongwu asks

"Weren't in mood"

"Are you still messing with that Byun Baekhyun ?"

".................no.... Why?"

"They seem so happy these days... especially. You don't know? Today is his birthday. Earlier I saw his friends making a surprise cake for him"

His... birthday......
Why did I not... even realise it?
Why am I .... Lacking very much?

I want to see him.... I want to see him now.
I can't... right?

I just... can't.... Anymore.

"Ya... what are you thinking?" Dongwu snaps me out of my thoughts

"Don't scare me you son of a bxxx"

*Message*

It's from Travelling club group chat

hello all!! Today is my birthday so let's meet tonight at xxx Pub. Hehe. Please make sure to come at 7pm. See you all!!  Let's eat and drink and have fun!! - Baekhyun

"Ya... I... have to go now... I don't think I can join you tonight. Let's go next day" I say and run out of lecture hall.
I need to buy him a present.... What should I buy for him?

I don't even know what he likes.
What should I give him?

Just what does he likes?

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At party,

I'm ... not late right?
Well... I'm a bit late tho.
It's now 7:30 pm... but everyone must be here now.

I take a deep breath and go inside the pub
And as expected, everyone was there.

And I see him.....

"Oh! Chanyeol ssi! Come here" one of the girls calls me out and .... He finally looks at me... but he turns away.... It was just 3 or 4 seconds ...
But... why is that Kris guy beside him?
He is not even this group member.

They gave me a seat which is right in front of him.
Quite... awkward.

"So so.... This is our little Baekhyunee's birthday and ... happiest birthday to you our youngest baby." The club president says

"He must be already at his happiest ahem ahem.." one of the girls says

"Really really???!! Baekhyun ya.. are you two.... Already a thing?" One of the sunbaes asks

They are talking about ..... him and Kris guy?
They... are they dating already?

"Haha.. sunbae! It's not like that... we are not like that.. haha" Baekhyun says

"Ehhh... I can see you fluttering.. kiddoooo" they start teasing them

"I... already confessed to him. Like 3 times already. Please wish me luck." Kris says

"Wowwwwwwww... accept him! Accept him! Accept him!"

They all start to chant.

This is not what I was excited for the whole evening.
I should just leave

"Eh eh... let's all have fun tonight. Cheersss" Baekhyun says as he gives a toast

He.... Really is not looking at me.
Why.... Why aren't your even looking  at me?
I'm right in front of you...
I want your smile.... I want....you.
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After a while, I see Kris whispers something to Baekhyun as he left the pub.
Yeah... go back.
I still need to give him my present.

Baekhyun said to the one of the sunbaes beside him and walk towards the toilet.

This is my chance....
I quickly follow him.

He went into one of the toilet stalls and thanks god nobody else is in toilet.
So I wait for him right outside the stall he's using.

Is he drunk?
Is he vomiting?

I hear a flush a minute later and ... he opens the door...

"S..sunbae!"

I gently push him inside the stall again and... lock it.

"What are you doing!?"

"Shsssh.... Just... a few second...." I say

"Sunbae... I.... You are not supposed to be...."

"I won't touch you....... I just... wanted to give this to you." I say and show him the present

"W...what....? Sunbae...."

"Throw it or keep it... it's your choice... I want to wear it around your neck by myself but.... I said I won't touch you so.... Here.." I put the necklace in his hand... and here is the bag.

"And.... Happy Birthday, Baekhyun ya.. and.... I love you"

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