Little: Hyunjin
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Caregiver: Jisung
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Requested by: itsYukiSkz
(Once again, blame Yuki for the angst.)
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Hyunjin woke up this morning feeling extremely nervous.

Today, he was doing a recording session with 3racha in their studio.

It's not like he wasn't used to recording with them. After all, they've been in the same group for years. But today felt different. Hyunjin felt the need even more than ever to impress them.

"You okay? You seem nervous?", Chan asked.

"I'm fine. Just ready to record!", Hyunjin replied.

The group were almost at the studio, and Hyunjin was trying to calm himself down.

Jisung, Hyunjin's caregiver, took notice of this.

He pat Hyunjin on the back, smiling at him.

"Thank you.", Hyunjin whispered.

"You're welcome honey."

When they reached the studio, the nerves picked up even more.

Hyunjin slowly walked inside of the building, thinking about everything that could go wrong.

"Okay we're going to do Hyunjin's first.", Chan said as he unlocked the door.

"Alright.", everyone replied.

They all went inside of the studio.

Hyunjin went into the recording booth while the producer boys got set up.

"You got this...", Hyunjin said, "Deep breaths..."

He didn't know if it was his rising urge to slip, or what could be going on, but the more he stood there, looking at them through the glass, the more nervous he got.

"Okay Hyunjin, you ready?", Chan asked.

"Yeah.", Hyunjin replied, putting his headphones on and staring at the lyric sheet.

"We're going to start from the beginning. I'll play the demo for you."

Chan played the demo, recorded by Jisung.

Hyunjin listened, taking in every tone.

"Got it.", he said.

Chan nodded. He started the music.

Hyunjin went through his first line.

"That was good, alright. But, your voice was a bit shaky. Could you do it smoother?"

"S-sure.", Hyunjin said.

Chan restarted the music, and Hyunjin did the same line again.

When it was done, he saw Chan talking to the others.

Changbin looked at Hyunjin briefly before looking back at Chan.

"Oh no...I did a bad job...", Hyunjin said to himself.

He kept repeating those words over and over to himself in his head as the members talked.

He found himself getting lost in his own thoughts.

"What do I do? I can't be messing up like this..."

"Hyunjin?"

"I need to do better...I just need to focus..."

"Hello?"

"Don't think about it...don't think about it..."

"Hey! Can you hear me?", Chan yelled.

Hyunjin looked up at Chan through the glass.

"Uh...yes?"

"We were talking about changing the line. Maybe having another member start it off."

Hyunjin pouted, looking down.

"I did that bad...", he said.

"No, no Hyunjin you did great."

What Chan didn't expect, was for Hyunjin to burst out crying, covering his face.

"Oh..wait, Hyunjin don't cry! You did a great job!", Chan reassured him.

He cried louder, taking off his headphones and sitting down on the floor.

Jisung ran inside of the recording booth.

"Jinnie, honey, what's wrong? Why are you so upset?"

"I not do good job! Hyungs hate it!", the little cried.

"Oh honey, come here. Don't cry. We love how you did it. We just want to test something out."

Hyunjin went into Jisung's arms.

The caregiver once again patted the littles back to calm him down.

Chan and Changbin came inside.

"Hey hey, what's all the crying for huh?", Changbin asked.

Hyunjin hid his face in Jisung's shoulder.

"I not good singer..."

The other members all gasped.

"Who is spreading such lies?", Jisung asked.

Hyunjin looked up to him.

"I went on phone, and people say you no like how I sound in recording, so...you edit voice."

That's when Hyunjin remembered. He wanted to impress 3racha because he read online that people believed they didn't actually like the way Hyunjin sounded.

"Honey that's a lie. We love your voice.", Jisung said.

"Yeah you sound amazing darling. Your voice is so unique and pretty.", Chan said.

"Hyunjin, you sound wonderful. Those people are haters who probably could never imagine of sounding like you.", Changbin added.

Hyunjin stared at them with his shining eyes.

"You mean it?", he said still crying.

"Yes. We mean it.", Jisung said.

The little continued to pout, putting his face back in Jisung's shoulder.

"Aww, is that a pouty Jinnie I see?", Chan said.

Hyunjin shook his head no.

"Oh I think it is. I wonder if this pouty baby would like an...ice cream cone?"

Hyunjin sat up.

"Ice cream?", he asked, tilting his head.

"But you have to clean your face first. You have tear stains and it makes me sad."

Hyunjin stood up.

"I carry a supply of baby wipes.", Jisung said, going to his bag.

They all left the recording booth.

Jisung took out some wipes and cleaned Hyunjin's face.

"Oh look at you. A handsome little man.", he said.

"I handsome?", Hyunjin asked.

"Very.", Changbin said.

Hyunjin smiled, blushing.

"There you go! A smile that looks so precious on this handsome little face.", Jisung said.

"I'll go get his ice cream.", Chan said, leaving the room.

Hyunjin sat on the couch.

"So I guess I'm recording then?", Changbin asked.

"Yeah I think so.", Jisung replied.

Changbin's phone rang. He picked it up, clearing his throat before answering.

"Hello, you've reached Changbin. To who do I owe the pleasure of this call?"

"You're weird.", Seungmin replied.

"Oh. You. What do you want?"

"So um...hehe...what if I told you...that we may have screwed up."

"How badly?"

"Well...we made Felix cry."

"From...happiness?"

"No. Like...he had this gift from Hyunjin and when we were helping him clean his room...we broke it. And he is really, really upset."

"Uh oh. How upset are we talking?"

"Remember when he got eliminated?"

"Shit. I'm on the way."

Changbin hung up.

"We have to go home.", he said.

"Yeah I heard. Hyunjin, let's go find Chan so we can go.", Jisung said.

Hyunjin held his Caregivers hand as they ran from the room.

Chan was coming back with the ice cream cone, and they filled him in on what was happening.

The group raced home in order to see what the issue was.

It was rare that Felix got so upset about anything.

So something else had to be wrong.

When the group reached home, they all bolted inside.

Felix was sitting on the couch, legs curled up and crying into a pillow.

Jeongin was nervously standing by.

"Hyungs! I don't know what to do.", he said.

"Stand aside.", Chan replied.

He walked over to Felix. Hyunjin did as well.

"Hey, Felix what's wrong sweetie?"

"They broke my gift! Jinnie got me that gift!"

"I know baby, but you never get this upset over something like that."

Felix sat up, staring at Chan.

"He was always afraid to show me what he worked on. He never believed his art skills were good enough! When he gave me that gift I told him I would cherish it forever! And now I don't have it!"

Chan sighed.

Hyunjin hugged Felix from behind.

Felix slowly turned around, feeling the pressure on his back.

But no one was there.

"Hyung...that was all I had left of him! Everything besides that damn letter!"

On the table, neatly folded and mostly untouched....

A letter.

From Hyunjin.

The letter sat there for around six days now, virtually untouched aside from the time Felix opened it almost a week ago.

"Oh...", Jisung said, going over to the letter.

He picked it up.

"Memories are a powerful thing aren't they...", he said.

Changbin put a hand on his shoulder.

"It's okay Jisung. We...can't relive the same day forever...you know?"

"Right..."

Jisung put the letter down.

Six days ago, Felix came home from a fitting to see a letter on the table.

Hyunjin had left it there.

It was a message to all of the members, thanking them for their love and support. But, telling them how he could no longer deal with what was being spread around about him.

Every day it was something else.

Every day it got more and more difficult.

But six days ago, he couldn't handle it anymore.

The last line of the letter said something they would never forget.

Something they've heard him say before.

As Chan hugged Felix, he stared at the letter, remembering that last line...

"...I hope my existence didn't scar you."