I feel a bit different with my new hairstyle. How I wish it's possible to change moods just like I changed my style.

I took a deep breath, strolling to the bus stop. The street is quiet as it is still early.
The sun is not fully out which makes it a perfect time to jog for those who loves jogging.

I can't get tired of inhaling the atmosphere with euphoria. I think that is what keeps me going throughout the day.

The bus drove straight to the last bus stop for me to start my journey to Bingham high.
The sun is beginning to rise as I walked into the school gate.

The scent of classroom flowed into my nostrils in the minute I entered. The air feels suffocating because the windows are closed.
Without relenting,I wave my bag back to my shoulders and headed to the rooftop.

There's a shade to barricade the sun,just by the door. A chair and desk designed under it.
I fling myself on the soft foamed chair,bringing out my earphones to listen to a song.

Or rather,Trevor's voice.

The least I can do is hear his voice In my head and probably daydream. I brought out my notebook to jot some lines that flowed through my head.

His voice drove me to sleep and to my dream world since it is the only way I can see and talk to him.

***

I woke up to the sun pecking my thigh,making me feel hot. I sluggishly check the time on my phone laying close to me.

9:30?

My eyes opened widely as I jumped up from the chair,cleaning my face and looking at the clouds. Did I sleep for that long?
At least it was worth it, I dreamt of Trevor coming to the rooftop to see me.

I tapped the button multiple times but the elevator refused to come up so I took the next option.
The stairs.

Sweating like crazy,I ran to my class which I am very sure is occupied by a teacher.
"Korah?". Mr Henry turn to see me standing by the door of my class,breathing heavily and soaked in sweats. My neatly hair turned to that on a three year old who doesn't know how to comb her hair.

"Where are you coming from?". He asks,finally getting attention from everyone in class.
"I..umm..I was at the-". I stammer.

"I don't tolerate late coming in my class and I'm pretty sure you know that". Mr Henry cut my off.
I nod slowly. I glance over to Trevor who looks perfectly fine, I should get over it soon.
I gulp and turn to leave the class. My legs ache from running so much which turns out to be of no good.

I look wretched and feel empty. Everything suddenly feels dark while I walk down the hall. Am I been punished for something?

***

It's been a rough and distractive week. I hope today been Monday welcome me with open hands.

The atmosphere is cool as I stroll down the street. A new nimbus clouds pillow the sky,sending a warning that it'll probably rain tonight.

I am still not able to sleep properly which makes me dizzy in class. I don't know how long it is going to last but I pray it does,fast.

Tatiana and Dawn are trying their best to make m happy and I appreciate their efforts. If anything, I would say I have amazing friends.

"Do you have to go to work today?". Dawn asked as we collected our lunch,heading to our special seat.
A seat we destined just for the three of us.

"Yep". I blow out my cheeks, a small smile spiking out.
"Ouch, wanted you,me,and Tatiana to go shopping". Dawn said.

"It's okay. We can go some other time". I assure.
"Also the beach". Tatiana added,rolling her fork into the spaghetti.
I nod,smiling brightly. "Thanks".

"Anything for my best friend". Dawn grins.
"Huh?". Tatiana raised a brow.
They are about to start their argument which I lobe watching.

"Korah is my best friend. You are just a friend so go look for yours". Tatiana rolls her eyes.
My eyes drift to Trevor and Evan walking with her food and Evan,licking the spoon.
My heart skipped a beat as me and Trevor lock eyes. I quickly look back to the tom and jerry in front of me.

"It's okay. You both are my best friends". I ended,looking at them both with love.
Dawn smirks to Tatiana who just kept a straight face.

***

I boarded a bus directly to Emirates Hotel. I catwalk over to where Bernard is.
"Bernard... How are you doing?". I ask,a real smile coming out naturally.
"I'm good. Really good". Bernard grins.

"Uh..you look more happy than me. Any news?". I asked,resting on one leg.

"Umm...I don't know how you will take this but that guy..uh..Trevor, yeah. He came here".

My eyes pop out without my consent. "Trevor came here?".
Bernard nods. "Yes but it's okay,I didn't treat him well ,at all". He rolls his eyes,giggling.

"What did you do,Bernard?". I trust Bernard for things like this. He would prefer to beat him up and loss his job.

"Nothing big. Stop looking at me like that". He burst out in laugher. "I just..spill some wine on his clothes..unexpectedly. I think he came to meet someone. He left with a lady". His expression changed.

My mouth formed a 'o' while my eyes blink fast. I shouldn't care about it but why is It torturing me?
I'm okay..I'm okay..

I'm not okay!

I went to change to work clothes with Bernard's words hovering around me. I started having mixed feelings. I felt hot and angry yet the air conditioners are on. Then moody and teary. I think it's better I saw them myself because my head is thinking all sorts of things I can't comprehend.

"I want to get going,see you on Wednesday". I said to Bernard over the counter. Without waiting for an answer,I hurried out.
The cloud is heavy. It would surely rain tonight.

I walked down but there was no bus available. I wrap my arm around myself and decided to trek till I see one.

Some minutes later,it started drizzling while I fasten my steps to somewhere safe.
Sighting a basement down the bridge,I jog with my bag pack swaying to and fro at my back.

Under the basement I stood,I heard distant chatters of guys,probably from the neighborhood. My heartbeat increased but I kept quiet,waiting for the rain to reduce.

Taking a glance back,I sight someone who looks familiar. I peep over to see them engaged in some serious conservation. My feet mistakenly step on an empty caned bottle on the floor making then all turn towards my side.

I quickly took my hand to cover my mouth so I won't shout.
"Check out what made that sound". I heard probably their boss,instructed.

Seeing a shadow coming towards me,I ran out of the basement, into the rain.

I felt someone following me as I ran with my heart in my throat. It's late at night so all I hear is footsteps.

The footsteps drew closer as I tried to run faster. In a swift,a warm hand held mine tightly,running with me.
I rapidly turn to my side to see Trevor holding my hand. I couldn't process anything at the moment as the rain beat the both of us heavily.

We stopped at the bus stop while He kept looking back to see if anyone's following us.
"Trevor..how..what were..". I couldn't form a complete sentence as it all looks like a dream. My heart still beating fast with my clothes and hair drenched.

I notice his hand, still holding mine so I gently let go. He stare at me for sometime before pulling me in a hug. His hands wrap my wet body into his while my eyes opened wide. I want to believe Trevor is hugging me right now but it's hard to.

He tighten his sturdy hands around me that I could hear his heartbeat. Even with his wet body, I still felt warm as I try to normalize my breathing.

My head on his chest while his left hand on my hair. The pain of been rejected washed away immediately then his words came back to my hears.

"Stay away".

I could feel myself letting go of his hands. Those words touched me without explanation,I shouldn't get close either.
"Why ..why did you..". I ask,my words still refusing to add up.
Trevor just stare at me,his eyes drunk in desire.
His face still looking unblemished.

"It drives me crazy to see you like this". Trevor finally voice out. I gaze at his lips intensively so I won't miss a word.

"What?". I arch my brows,drops of water dripping from my hair. "I don't understand".

Trevor took a deep breath, his face drops in his hands. "It bothers me to see you like this, Korah"

"You pity me?". I ask,my eyes all teary again. "You told me to stay away now you pity me?". I shake my head in pain.

"No..it's not like that". Trevor tries to explain.

I move two feet backwards, still looking into his eyes. "You..you hugged me Trevor, what do you want me to think?. If you pity me,do it in silence and don't make it more difficult for me to let go".

I wipe my eyes. "I don't want to let go of your hands..the more I see you,the more I want to hold you. So please don't make it hard for me".

He moves closer while I move backwards. Now in the drizzling rain which can increase at anytime.
"What hurts the most is the fact that I don't know anything about you but since I don't get a chance to even talk to you,how would I move to knowing you. I have a lot of questions to ask you but I can't". My tears pour more,the rain helping me hide it a bit by beating my face at the same time.

The light of a bus flash to us,making me see Trevor's face clearly.

"I'm sorry". Trevor said,his face looking like he could tear up soon.
I press my lips together,Turing to see the bus, stop right in front of me.

I took a glance at him before hopping in,walking straight to the back of the luxurious bus.

Trevor stare at me till the bus moved out of sight. I couldn't help but cry more.

If for anything,he shouldn't come to me just because he pity me..

I've been treated with pity since birth,Couple with the fact that I live in an orphanage home.