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Third_person pov

Despite the clemency of the weather,however, Korah cannot help feeling like it's winter on the inside. Her heart is cold and empty,and no amount of May's vibrant sunshine can thaw her soul.

"Jokshan?".

"Korah".

"Korah Jokshan?".

She snaps her eyes from the window and to Ms Sloane. She shrinks into her shoulders as the lady perches against her desk.

"Briefly explain Pastoral poem".

She had spaced out once again,her days have been a lot like this lately. She constantly becomes detached from her surroundings with only thoughts of Trevor flooding her mind. It has become a new habit for her for a month now and it only worsens each day.

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"You know tonight,we could watch a movie at your place and order some vanilla ice cream". Dawn suggests while she rest on the opposite locker.

Korah shakes her head as she grabs the heavy literature book from her opened bag pack,stuffing it into her locker. "I think I'll go to bed early tonight".

Tatiana exhales. She's starting to worry about her friend's mental health. Korah has not been herself lately which is understandable.

Korah would isolate herself the moment she get home. She would bury her head in her pillow and scream so no one would hear her voice.

She would lay in the bed awake,not been able to fall asleep which is tormenting. She wants it to stop but knows it's not possible. Not when you love someone this much.
This is more excruciatingly painful than any physical pain could ever be.

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Tatiana and Dawn would try to make sure Korah eat regularly. They would come over at weekends and spent time with her for as long as they can.

"What's this?". Dawn asks,checking through Korah's drawer for a pen and found a flash drive.

Korah, pretending like she didn't hear,just laid on her bed. Her face facing the opposite side.

Dawn knew she is going to be ignored so she turns to Tatiana and gesture her to check it on her laptop.

Without hesitating,Tatiana plugged in it and open the folder containing Trevor's videos.
Her eyes popped out in surprised as she scan through the multiple videos of him.

Dawn draws closer to get a better view while Tatiana opened one.

The flawless voice of Trevor sink through Korah's ears as she gradually stood to check what her friends are looking at desperately.

She slowly collects the laptop from Tatiana with her eyes glued to the screen. She glance at the flash drive and back to the screen and her heart melts.

Not only did Trevor made videos of him singing but made videos of him singing the songs written by her.

Tatiana and Dawn glance at each other then back to Korah who's face is blunt with surprise and tears.

He must have collected her song book from Evan and composed it into songs. The most surprising is the fact that Trevor had already granted her wish even before she wished for it.

She covers her mouth as tears of happiness and sadness flows down her face. The flash drive had been with her the whole time but she was stuck up the memories.

Couple with the one she wrote at the rooftop before she dose off.,It wasn't a dream that she saw him faintly because he was truly there. He must have seen the book in her hands and decided to composed it all.

The beat and his voice flows well with the music. He kept smiling like Korah in front of him yet he's into the song.

"It..is...beautiful". Korah manage to say,her body a bit relaxed yet her heart beating fast.

"Trevor wants you to know you mean a lot to him". Tatiana comments and Dawn only nods.

Checking the date of the first song 'Offer', it turns out to be Evan's birthday,the day Trevor gave her his clothes to change. She has been on his mind all the while.

Korah watched the videos with smiles on her face at bliss in her heart. Her friends didn't bother or complain as they know what it means and how important it is to her.

About an hour later,Maria,Ma Diane's assistant informed Korah that someone would like to see her,outside.
The three friends glance each other and decided to go with Korah.

"Korah Jokshan?". A man in an all black suit asked.

Korah nods slowly. "How..can I.."

"From Mr Linwood Bingham. He requests to see you". The man cut in,standing close to the car.

"Why?". Tatiana asks,looking curious.
"It's okay..I'll go". Korah interrupts and her friends look at her in amusement.

"We'll go with you". Tatiana and Dawn chorus.
Korah turns to the man and he gestures that it's okay.

"I'll quickly get changed". Korah said,going back inside.

In five minutes, She race down the stairs in a pair of black jean and a white round neck long sleeve.

They all entered the car and the man drove off to silicon estate.

He drove into the gate and Korah started feeling nervous for the fact that she has memories about Trevor here.

Tatiana tucks her hand into Kaorah's,giving it a light squeeze hoping I will be enough to smoothen the unimaginable pain she's feeling but somehow,she knows it's not enough.

The man led Korah straight to Mr Linwood while her friends hang around,peeping from the window once in a while to make sure Korah is okay.

"Good evening Sir". Korah greets,her hands by her side and her eyes,glancing around the luxurious room.

"Korah..nice to see you. Have your seat". He instructs, smiling.

"Thanks". She sank into the soft chair in front of him.

"Once again,I'm truly sorry. It hurts me deeply loose my son too". Mr Linwood laments.

Korah hides her tears by blinking constantly,she wouldn't want to tear up right in front of Trevor's Dad.

"Here". He search his shelf and brought out bunch of files and handed it to Korah.
"Um..what is this?". She asks,trying to see it all at once.

"There are files of your scholarship here in Bingham high and college too".

Korah's raised her brows in astonishment. "College?".

"Yes. It's an offer I'd love you to accept. Trevor too".

Korah feels her heart beating faster at the call of Trevor. "Canada?". Her eyes pop open at the choice of college.

Mr Linwood nods slowly. "It's not here Korah. I think it would also be better to start all over".

Korah arch her brows. She has to go all the way to Canada for college if she wants to keep her scholarship.

"Like Trevor knew he would leave soon,he gave everything he own to you". Mr Linwood continues, facing the window. He looks tense

Korah looks up at him,her mouth parting to talk but no word came out.
"Um..this is huge". Her voice cracks.

Mr Linwood exhales. "Means you were really important to him. Trevor wasn't usually like this. Please consider it".

Korah press her lips,nodding. Her hands suddenly cold and her eyes teary. "Thank you". She says shortly.

"You are welcome". Mr Linwood added and Korah stood up to leave.
"Sir..can I see his room one last time?". She turns to ask and he accepted.

Tatiana and Dawn stood up from where they sat the moment the door press open.
"What's this?". Tatiana asks and Korah freely gave her to see.

"I'd be back in a minute". She says,walking directly to Trevor's from slowly.

Tatiana and Dawn stare at the files intensively that they didn't notice her walk away.

Korah

I took a deep breath as I open the door with my hands shaking uncontrollably.
Trevor's scent filled my nostrils the second I step a feet inside. I close my eyes to feel him more,like he's still here.

The memory of seeing him bleeding from his nose came in and I squeeze my shirts as I slide down the door,crying.
The image of him on top of me pass by and I close my mouth to prevent my sob to be heard by the others.

It's just too much to bear...

How exactly does Trevor wants me to be happy when he's not here?

I never knew how much I loved him till now that I can't see him..