(This dream is real faint itself. Mostly I have visions and flashbacks of things that have happened earlier or at different times with different people. This time it was a mix. I had gone to this party a couple years ago in January that consisted of me and a lot of older kids I was gonna meet. We got a hotel room to share for the night and it was a wild party! It was for my friend's 16th birthday party, a girl named Katie. Everyone was playing truth and dare and the games consisted of dirty flirtatious love pranks and dares, spin the bottle was in the same boat. Later during the party I got ostracized and spent the next 4hrs sitting in the clear quiet lobby, drinking cheap decaf and listening to elevator music while everyone else stayed in the room sleeping, cuddling and making out. I swear if I had a second-degree burn on the inside, it probably wouldn't have hurt as much as that night did. This dream must have been an extension of what I felt then.)

  I awoke as myself standing in a room. Across from me was a girl. I could not tell exactly who she was but she was extremely familiar, and in this dream, she appeared to be my girlfriend. She was a little shorter than me and had long dark brown hair, deep hazel eyes, and a beautifully concealed smile. We were arguing about something that made me feel loathing. For some reason, I was in pain. Shoulder pain, back pain, neck pain, head pain,  and stomach pain... all the kinds of muscle pains you can think of. I didn't notice exactly how much pain I was in at first until I looked at her, and she looked back at me oddly. I fell over out flat on my sore bum. Oh, Zechy... the girl said. She girl quickly took my hand and helped me up. I curled and cracked my back so that I could ease myself of some of the pain. We were supposed to go to a sleepover at her friend's house tonight. I thought to myself, I don't want to argue anymore so I put it behind me and left to take a bath and ease my soreness.

~ The scene fades to later that night...

   I was in a room that led to a kitchen. In this room, there was a grand piano. I loved playing the piano and almost every dream that I had had one in it. There were also a lot of people that I don't hang out with very much. I guess I was at some sort of party, there was lights, music, and dancing in the other room. People sprawled out cuddling on the couch, playing Twister or spin the bottle and truth or dare. I sat down at the piano to play for a second amusing myself, and anyone who happened to even notice me. I didn't care for the other music that they were listening to in the other room. I felt lonely, even empty. So I began to play a short Nocturne that I'd composed a year ago, easing the sadness of my dreamy soul. I went to the kitchen to fetch a drink from the icebox. I said hi to some kids and gabbed with them for a little while.

   It seemed like at this party in my dream everyone was having a great time except for me. I felt like I don't really fit in quite well, so I stayed alongside in the shadows with one kid, who was younger and more innocent than everyone else. It's not that I'm shy, but a lot of people just were getting along better without me, no matter how hard I tried to shift and make interesting conversation. It seems like no one really even noticed me. They were all so content with their partners and lovers. I was the only solo there... sigh... 

   I walk outside into the night onto the patio where there's a big pool. My girlfriend was across from me on the other side of the pool. I walk over and and ask what's up. Then she takes all of her clothes off and it jumps into the pool. My reaction is pitiful when should've been arousing. I think not much of it, have not been the first time I've done the same thing. But she had a really nice body though. I asked if I may join her. She shrieked and said, the water is so cold... I wish there was someone here to help warm it up. I feel incredibly warm all the sudden, and butterflies filled my belly. So I stripped and jumped into the water. My head goes under the water and when I come back up, I clear my eyes and see that the girl is swimming right up to me. There's no one else around except for the two of us, I look around at the lights surrounding the pool on a white fence. She swims close to me, as I do her. Then we lean in and give each other a kiss. I just went with it. I had the most blissful amazing feeling of adrenaline running up and down my body, soaring through every vain and muscle. I wrapped my arms around her tight. 

~ The scene fades with someone yelling; clear...

   I awake back inside where I am again, at the piano. I had just finished playing the Nocturne I'd written. I ask my friend Gardner, who was content listening to my music, where that cute girl went that was just here a minute ago? He shook his head, sipped his drink, and another girl walked over and said, "Oh, that girl. I saw her go outside." I headed outside in further search of her. I turned the fence corner to the pool where I heard giggling coming from. My heart jumped up into my throat. That girl, my girl, was in the pool intensely making out with another guy.

   Heartbroken, I leave the area in tears before they could tell I was there and go back inside to use the restroom. I slip carefully past so no one will notice. I rinsed my hands and face off, believing I was gonna puke... I looked out the window at the pool and they were still there, giggling and kissing each other silly. I puked the dead butterflies out of my stomach and washed my mouth out. I glanced tearfully up to the mirror, but there was no one there...! I shouted and launched back hard against the tub. I was shocked and heartbroken. More shocked now. I returned to the living room and the party was still going on. I figured that was just a trick mirror or something stupid for the party. I went and talked to Gardner and told him about my breakup. He just looked at me for a minute, frowned, and returned to drink and conversation with his other buddy. Sigh... I wanted to leave the party but I didn't have a ride. 

   Everything in the party room was calmer now so I filled a spot on the sofa and started watching the news.

"...Earlier today in our rural community a boy was admitted to the ER as a heart-attack victim. The boy is sixteen years old, long brown hair, blue eyes..." The anchorwoman continued describing the accident as one person in the room glanced at the TV and was immediately compelled to it. She grabbed the other side of the sofa. OMG... That's so tragic. I knew him... Another adds, yeah we used to jam together... aw man. "Wow, that sucks... I'm sorry" I say. And the whole room filled with gloom as the reporter kept on informing us. "When the doctors did an autopsy for a closer investigation, they found that his heart just stopped running, trying to compensate the immense sorrow that made his atrium shrivel up.

The boy's name is Zech Gravander."

   Just then a piece of my mind broke as that name echoed through my head... My name. "Zech Gravander, Zech Grava, Zech Gra, Zech, Zec, Z... I got up dizzy with disbelief and ran for the door when I accidentally knocked into a crowd. Except... They didn't feel the bump. I passed right through them. I stood there now completely sure... I remembered now... The argument... The pains... My soul filled up with as many tears as there were in the pool where my girlfriend and her date was that night...

~ I snapped out of the dream and burst into a couple of real tears along with a numb sensation in my upper body. It disappeared later... I then realize how precious every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every month of every year in your life really is. And it's so short that you might as well give it all you got, have one person to share it with intimately so it doesn't get complicated, and make the happiest life you can. No matter where your love may be. ~