Truth is no one is prepared for what's coming. No one is ready for their own death and no one ever ready for their own birth either. Fate is destined but the future is not precise either. It doesn't matter whatever future holds for Alec or even he himself, Magnus would never gave up on his last minute with him.

He hold grudges on his father for wasting his time being held as hostages and if it wasn't for Anna, he won't be able to see Alec ever again.

As soon as he stepped into the hospital, he literally sprint towards Alec's chamber which is in the cardiac intensive unit or they called it the CCU. The moment he did, all of the Lightwood including the smallest one is there pacing around talking to each other.

Jace was the first to notice him and stood in stunt silence. Only when Magnus steps closer to them he spoke. "Finally. About time you came." He said patting him on his shoulder. He looked back and forth from his hand to his face and confused with his sudden friendly gesture.

"I heard what you did. Thank you for taking care of my brother." He couldn't hold on to his tears and went for a hug instead. Isabelle stood next to him and as soon as Jace released, she went for her hug.

"Thank you for making him happy." She whispered in his ears which raises more question than answers.

"Why are guys talking like this? He's not gone yet. He's still with us. Why are you guys giving up already?" He asked concerned clearly plastered on his face. Tears started to brim around the edge of his lid but he held them in.

"You should go see him." Maryse spoke and opened the door for him.

He stood and stare at the opened door not knowing whether or not he should go in. If he stepped in, there's no going back, it's now or never.

He took a long inhale and exhale before he step his foot inside the cold room.

The sound of heart monitor beeping, oxygen valve echoing in the room. The light were dim, it was already passed six and the only light that was on is around Alec's bed. He walked slowly and carefully seeing his image getting cleared as soon as he is closer.

He saw his dearest Alexander, laying on the bed, pale but handsome as hell. Tubes were coming out from his nose and taped to the side of his cheek. Oxygen mask were applied on top of his face and his breathing is more slower than he usually did. God knows how he feels right now, the aching feeling in his chest continues to burn it's way in.

He sat close to his side and wrapped his arm around Alec's side, pulling the blanket closer to his chest. He saw how he stirred in his sleep so he raised his bandaged hand towards his cheek.

Cold was the only thing he could express right now. Everything is cold about Alec. No longer the warmth but everything he touches it's too cold for him. He felt tears started to comes in but he held it in, trying to stay as strong as he could for Alec.

Alec's eyes slowly flutters to open and his long eyelashes batting away to see it clearer. He slowly pulled away the oxygen mask he had on and Magnus tried to stop him. "No, no sweetheart, keep it on. It'll help you breathe."

Alec smiled still pulling it away from his face, "Hai." His voice croaked and almost a whispers. He needed to remove the mask or Magnus won't be able to hear him. "Hai." Magnus couldn't help to control his tears and it's just pouring out of him. He leaned to kiss his forehead, Alec's cold skin felt warmth under his trembling lips.

He cupped Alec's cheek and later gave him a kiss on his lips not bothering the whole family are started to join behind him.

Alec pulls away and his hands wanders around Magnus, trying to make himself believe that this wasn't one of his dreams. Magnus is real and he is right in front of him. He palmed his watery cheeks and wiped the tears away before his hand wanders to his neck and his chest feeling his heart pumping twice as faster than usual.

Magnus grabbed Alec's hand in his and kissed his palm with tearing smile on his face. "I'm right here, I'm right here babe. I'm not going anywhere." He promised.

Alec release their intertwined fingers and grabbed his wrist instead and noticed the bandage. His eyes crooked towards it and seek the truth in Magnus tearing eyes. "What happened?" His eyes reveals and concerned over Magnus.

"I was stupid. I thought I could never see you again so I want-." He held himself unable to finish his own words but he gather his strength and told him either way. " I wanted to be with you." Magnus explained leaving out the whole detail of his father betrayal. "Magnus."

Alec called before pulling him towards his chest. He lay on top of Alec letting him held him in his arm just like they did at the island.

The Lightwood left for a coffee break down at the cafeteria with Magnus' family. But he knew either Isabelle or Jace is outside just in case.

Alec had fallen asleep and Magnus couldn't help but to stare at his angelic face. His eyes, his lips, his sharp nose is everything he needed to see every time he wakes up. The way his eyebrow crooked whenever he had a bad dream. The way his chest moving up and down signing how he is still alive and present in his life.

He leaned and kissed him on his forehead before taking his leave. He wanted to stretched his legs after lying on the bed for hours.

He spotted Jace sitting by the corridor half asleep and he shook him up. "Hey, maybe you should take the couch." He said and Jace nodded.

Magnus walked further the corridor and spotted none other but the bald guy who were with Alec on his trip. He is a doctor and that is why Alec brought him altogether. He's the one with the red haired wife and daughter.

"Hey." Magnus spoke after tapped him on his shoulder. He spun and surprised to see Magnus here standing in front him. "Hey, you made it. How are you?"

"I-I uhm good, better than Alec." He said and the doctor smiled. "I'm glad." He said still scribbling something on the folder.

"Can I ask you something?" He started and the doctor nodded before he guided him to walk along the corridor with him. "You can call me Val if you like, or Mr. Morgenstern, whichever you like."

Magnus like him, he is not like his father, he didn't mind the title considering Magnus is too young to be calling him by his first name.

"Is there anything I can do for Alec? Medical wise?" He asked and he heard the guy sighed. "Unfortunately son, we have done more than enough for him. The only thing we can do is making him comfortable."

Magnus felt defeated, he felt hopeless. He never thought there isn't something in this world that he can't do, given by all the money he could possess, it's still wasn't enough for him to help Alec.

"Is there a donor yet?" He asked him again and he sighed. He shook his head slowly and gaze on the ground. "There's still hope." Magnus spoke sternly in his voice.

Valentine smile and patted his shoulder, "I'm glad someone still hanging on to that." He walked away leaving Magnus alone at the corridor leaning against the wall. He sighed staring at the wall in front of him rubbing his neck in sore.

He felt hopeless, useless even, letting Alec lay there while he couldn't do anything to help him. He didn't even notice his tears came back and slowly he slide down on the floor hugging his own body, shaking in his tears and frustration.

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"Where's Asmodeus?" Maryse asked Anna as soon as she grabs them their coffee. "Somewhere, outside maybe to smoke." Anna said emotionlessly. There were something hidden in her voice that made Maryse concerned. She raised her palm and placed on top of her with a reassuring eyes.

"Are you okay?" She asked and she nodded but slowly she couldn't held her tears in anymore. She shakes her head and more tears are falling on her cheek. Maryse didn't twice before she went around the table and gave her a hug.

"I don't think things would workout between me and Asmo." She said and Maryse continues to rub her shoulder hoping it would ease whatever burden she carries.

"Whatever spat that you have with him, I'm sure it would workout soon. There is nothing you guys can't fix. I've seen it. He's in love with you more than anything in this world Anna, trust me." Maryse reassured her and pulled back away from their hugs. She stares into her cold eyes and finding nothing but defeat.

"He drugged Magnus and locked him inside his room so he won't see Alec anymore. You tell me what and how should I react to that. You tell me Maryse. Should I just forgive him for being an asshole like that?" She wiped the tears away from her cheek roughly and inhaled a sharp breath before she continued.

"Magnus felt so bad for unable to see Alec one last time so he decided to kill himself." She laughed but not in a comedy way where people made joke but rather a fake one. "I had to be a doctor and a mother for saving Magnus' life tonight. If I didn't come and look for him, I couldn't-"

She burst into another tears and Maryse pulled her to her chest letting Anna sobbed more.

After a while she managed to compose herself and surprisingly Maryse didn't utter a word since she told her what happened earlier. Then came Robert joining them after he was at the billing department settling Alec's charges. He was surprised to see how Anna's eyes are swollen and Maryse stood next to her with the look on her face threatening him not to ask anything.

"Let's go, I don't wanna leave Alec this long." Robert said and both Anna and Maryse stood joining him.

Halfway through their walk Asmodeus joined them just before the elevator. He didn't say anything either just walked into the elevator and kept his face down on the ground. Silence haunted the whole elevator and the only thing they could hear was the ding sound once they reached the floor.

As they walked along the corridor, they saw Magnus squatting with his back rest against the wall staring down on the plain board in front of him. The hallway is empty and no one is there except them.

"Magnus." Asmodeus called and Magnus looked to the source only to pull away from it. He stood abruptly trying to escape this but Asmodeus caught on his and pulled his wrist back to face him. Little did he know was Magnus other hand already balled up in a fist and as soon as he turned, he raised them and punched his own father to the ground.

Anna, Maryse and including Robert gasped in shock but neither of them say anything. They were rather speechless and couldn't do anything but watched.

"Stay the fuck AWAY from me!" Magnus pointed his finger at him and Asmodeus collect whatever dignity he has left and stood with his palm clutching his cheek in pain. "Magnus you have to listen to me." He started but Magnus didn't budge and pushed him away on his chest making him stumbled a bit back but able to recollect himself.

"Why?! WHY!? Why is it that god gave you a perfectly good heart to live but not him! You have a well working heart but it was filled with hatred and loathe that made me so disgusted with you! You get to live by torturing others while Alec had to spend his remaining hours fighting for his life! You don't fucking deserved to be alive! I want Alec to stay alive, not you!" Magnus pushed his limit and his father again but this time it was Maryse who screamed.

"MAGNUS!" He stopped and stares at her behind his tearing eyes. "Don't you dare say stuffs like that. Whatever it is he is still your father!" She scolded him and he shook his head. "I don't have a father. He has his whole life to make up for me by being a father but he didn't. A father is supposed to be someone who loves you and cares for you, understood how rough this situation is but he isn't. He is a devil that masked in a human form pretending to care about me."

Magnus couldn't fathom his own words but the sting slap on his face made him aware of it. Maryse had slapped his face hard that made him turned to the side. She regrets after doing that but not at first.

"If he didn't care for you he wouldn't bother looking for you for weeks on that island, day and night with lack of sleep. Going up and down, either water or air holding on the hope on finding his own son back. He might not be the father you always wanted but he is the father you needed."

Maryse words felt like a slapped on his face for the second time only this time it hurts even harder. "I just needed Alec. I needed him to be alive." He broke into tears again and kneeled on the floor.

Asmodeus didn't think twice but to run towards Magnus and hugged his son into his arm. He didn't budge at first but later gave in and cries into his shoulder. He wrapped his arm around Asmodeus neck and sobbed. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." Asmodeus whispered and he mutters the same words again repeatedly.