Secret glances thrown your way as we sit surrounded by friends eyes lit up with humor as you joke and play. My heart flutters as your laugh fills my ears stomach tied in knots at the knowledge you're so near.

A thrill of happiness shoots through me as I listen close happiness is what you bring me the most. The thought of having our hands once again entwined slowly takes over my mind. Images of us cuddled together on the couch your arms around me as we slowly fade out. 

The daydream ends as I hear the bell if only you knew that when you smiled I completely fell. I knew I couldn't have you no matter how hard I tried. Wiping my face I try so hard not to cry gathering my books you pat my shoulder giving a smile. Watching you leave I release a deep sigh looking at my hands I whisper in my mind.

Don't do this to yourself heart please be safe, he wouldn't want you anyway. You're just a girl a simple friend no matter how hard you wished you could be more to him.  The empty feeling returns again I shove it aside and hang my head.

We're just friends nothing more it doesn't matter that when he cries I wipe his tears. When he's frightened I fight away his fears. I would give everything to make him laugh to keep his skies from being grey and black. Taking a breath I stand and say it doesn't matter we're just friends anyway.