Seniors

October 23, 2019; Harry

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I think I may be falling in love with Louis Tomlinson. Again.

I don't know why this always happens. I mean, it's happened twice now. I don't know who to go to. If I go to Ashton or Luke they'll definitely tell Louis, right? Why is this so difficult?

He's just so irresistible. Maybe I never really fell out of love with him, I was just distracted for two years. But now I'm back on track, and this time I'm not giving up as easily as last.

Lou: you look fine haz let's go

Harry: hey, how did you know what I was doing??

Lou: I can literally see you primping and preening in the mirror through your windows

Lou: come onnnnn.

Louis honks his horn a few seconds after I get the last text, and I look outside to see that he is, in fact, sitting in his car in the driveway.

He started driving me to and from school every day once I finally confessed that my mum won't buy me a car until I can pay for half of it.

"Mum, I'm leaving!" I yell to my mother, who probably didn't hear me. But I said it, and that's what matters.

I hop into the passenger seat of Louis' car and plug in my phone as an instinct. He always lets me chose the music, what a gentleman.

"Good morning, princess," he says sarcastically as he pulls out of my driveway.

"Hi, sorry for taking so long," I apologize while the first song starts playing.

"Shush, it doesn't matter, I love this song," Louis tell me and begins to hum along. Eventually it evolves into full out singing, then performing.

And I'm just watching this boy, this amazing and perfect boy, jam out to an amazing song, and I'm having flashbacks to freshmen year.

Yeah, I definitely love this boy.

Luke, at least, notices my stares and over-enthusiastic involvement in what Louis says during lunch. Sadly for me, Louis has a meeting with a teacher halfway through the time and leaves me alone with everyone's favorite couple, Lashton.

"Harry, what is going on?" Luke says.

"Nothing!" I say.

"Wait, Luke, what is going on? I'm confused," Ashton confesses.

"Harry, you're acting strange," Luke says, ignoring both of us. "Strange as in, as if you like Louis. Like, like-like."

"Gosh, and the award for most amount of the word like in a sentence goes to..." I joke, trying to take the attention off of me. Ashton rushes to text someone, hopefully not Louis. "Ashton, please don't be texting Louis!"

He looks up slowly, his fingers halting. "Why?"

"Because I don't want him to know!"

"Aha! So you admit that you like him!" Luke says excitedly.

I sigh. "Yes, okay? I like him, again, but I don't want him to know about it."

"But, Harry-" Ashton begins, but I cut him off seriously.

"Please, Ash, if you care about me and our friendship, please just... Don't tell Louis. It's already ruined our friendship once before," I explain.

Ashton slowly nods his head, shooting Luke a look that I can't decipher.

"Will you both promise me to not tell anyone else?" I ask them, and when they both nod I smile sadly. "Okay, thanks."

I really don't know how this all happened. One minute I was happy we were back to being friends, the next I'm back in love with him.