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Yes, I do, I believe
That one day I will be
Where I was right there
Right next to you

And it's hard
The days just seem so dark
The moon and the stars
Are nothing without you

Your touch, your skin
Where do I begin?
No words can explain
The way I'm missing you

Deny this emptiness
This hole that I'm inside
These tears
They tell their own story

Lay Me Down - Sam Smith

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H A R R Y

I keep starring at it like a mad man, playing with it as it slips on my fingers. I saw her eyes, Her beautiful greeny-light brown eyes. They were cloudy. She was so uncomfortable, it pained me to see her like this, and knowing I'm the reason behind everything makes it a hundred times worse.

My eyes are fixated on the green gem stone that somehow matches my eyes. I don't want to know how expensive it is and more importantly I don't want to give it back, I'm too selfish to give back something that she gave me. I sigh and look at the clock on the wall, next to my bed. It's already two in the afternoon.

"Come in." I say to the person knocking on my door. I look up, only to see a head of blonde hair popping behind the door.

"Harry!" She exclaims excitedly. I get up and hug her, I hug her tighter than I have ever done  before. "I missed you." She slaps my head lightly and chuckles. I can feel the vibrations of her chest on my whole body, it's comforting.

"I was here last week, idiot." I huff at her calling me idiot but smile nonetheless. I take some steps back and look my almost identical sister looking back at me. "Happy Birthday, Haz." She puts her palm on top of my head and ruffles my way too long hair.

"Thank you, Gem. And please, don't call me that. That nickname died years ago." I smirk and she scoffs.

"I don't care. I like it. You need a haircut though." She grimaces as she takes a look at my shoulder length hair. I shrug and shake my head.

"No, Ione likes it." I don't realise what slipped from my mouth, before I see Gemma's expression and correct myself. "I mean...I like it."

"Don't give me that bulls.hit. Who's Ione?" She bumps my shoulder and smirks. My smile flattens as I realise that Ione is nothing to me anymore.

"No one." I sit on my bed and gaze at my ring once again. I can't make myself take it off.

"Okay, Harry. I know something is up. Tell me. You know you can tell me everything, just like the old times." She smiles sweetly and squeezes my shoulders as she sits next to me. I simply shrug. I really don't really know what I'm feeling. But I tell her everything. From how we met to the day she gave me that ring. My head is in my palms as Gemma, caresses my back.

"This girl loves you, Harry. Why did you push her away?" She looks concerned, not judgemental or disappointed from my behaviour like I think everyone will react when they learn what happened. It makes my heart warm.

"I don't know, Gem. I really don't. She caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting her to tell me such a thing." I breathe out. I feel the stress building up in my chest.

"Is it bad though? She loves you. She faced reality and told you everything. Can you imagine how hard it is for her?"

"You're making me feel horrible right now, I don't need that." I snap at her. Her face expression changes from shocked to hurt. "I'm sorry, Gem. I don't know what I'm saying. I'm so confused and stressed." She nods and I huff.

"I'm such a hypocrite."

"You're not, Harry." She's quick to reassure me, but I know better.

"I am. I was looking for love, I was desperate to know what it feels like to be in love, but once love came my way, I run from it. Right now I don't know if it's worth the time and the heartache."

"You're wrong again. Harry. You're too proud to realise that you love her. You obviously are in love with that girl. You wouldn't react like that if you weren't." She gets up and paces the room up and down, raising her voice a little, trying to make me understand.

"it's not tha--"

"Then what is it?" She almost screams. "You've been gazing at the damn ring for hours." Her voice is more gentle. I shake my head and try to absorb what she just said.

"Love brings pain. I don't want that."

"Harry," she kneels in front of me. She takes my hands in her palms and looks me in the eyes. "Love is the most wonderful feeling anyone can feel. It's not love that causes pain. It's the egoism that sometimes doesn't let people be together or it's people's stupidity that ruins everything. Love is everything but pain. It's happiness, it's euphoria, it's calmness, but not pain." She gets up, kisses my cheek and stays still for a while, looking at me before she gets out of my room.

I don't have the time to take everything in, as my phone buzzes in my pocket. I take it out and check the message I just received.

'Liam: Fancy going to dinner tonight?' I sigh and tap the blank box, to form my reply.

'Me: Yeah sure, whatever.' I quickly send it and place the device, on my bed, right next to me. It buzzes again but I don't mind checking it, since I know it was probably Liam, sending me one of those emojis as a reply.

I lie on my back and play with my new ring on my right hand as I drift off to sleep.

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"Happy Birthday!" I hear everyone shouting as I enter the fast food restaurant. My eyes widen and I look at Liam.

"I thought it would only be the two of us." I'm so annoyed right now. He knew I wasn't in the mood for anything, yet he does this.

"It's your birthday mate." His happiness doesn't let me be angry at him, despite how much I want to. I look around in case I catch a sight of Ione, but I'm soon disappointed as I realise it's only us in this place.

"It's okay. Thank you." I hug him and he laughs. We all sit down. I'm too occupied watching Rachel, looking at me with pitiful eyes, to notice the blonde that sits next to me. I look quizzically at her as she extends her hand for a handshake.

"Eleonora." She introduces herself and I take her hand in a firm handshake.

"Harry." I say back and she chuckles.

"I know." She smirks. "Why would I come to someone's birthday party without knowing who that person is." I nod, still kind of confused of how she ended up here. "I'm Rachel's cousin." She answers my question as if she read my mind.

"Pleased to meet you." I force a smile. She looks at me, like I'm her next meal, waiting to be perfectly cooked so she could dig in. Throughout the whole dinner she "accidentally" touches my thigh, arm or chest. I shift uncomfortably in my seat.

"I need to go to the toilet." I announce and take myself away from our table.

"Harry, wait." Rachel calls me and I stop as I wait for her. "I know what happened, between you and Ione." She confesses out of breath. I look down at me feet in embarrassment. "I know how you feel Harry, but Ione is my best friend and I hate to see her like this." I nod in understandment. "I know you love her. I'm just waiting for you to come to terms with that and accept it because you're an egoist." As she says this, Gemma's words come back and for a while I ponder if they're right. I doubt it though.

"Your ring is beautiful."

"Yeah." I say and my voice is so deep, as if my throat is closed and I can hardy talk.

"She told me that she immediately thought of you. She said that it's was screaming 'Harry' to her." I chuckle as I hear Rachel's description of what Ione told her about the ring. "She told me that she would feel like she would be sinning if she kept it for herself because that ring, clearly belongs to you." She smiles sadly. "You should have seen her when she was talking about you. Eventhough you hurt her, she couldn't hide how much she loves you, I hardly understand how you didn't notice earlier. Love isn't something you can hide."

I stand in the middle of the restaurant, looking at nothing in particular. I can't do this anymore. I feel the air getting thicker and the walls closing on me. I hesitantly take some steps back before I run away from that place.

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This chapter is dedicated to my best friend because it's her birthday tomorrow. Happy Birthday leech, I love you xx.

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